The pain of saying goodbye hurt the soul beyond repair. We don't say goodbye, normally if we wanted to do something we snuck around or just walked out, but can he just walk out on me? Forever? Will my tears ever dry up? Will the hole in my heart ever be repaired? He was like my disease… now, I am nothing. One thing I do know, in the pit of my stomach, in the centre of my darkness that love gave the power for someone to break you. My love, life & meaning was now over. No more silent whispers, only silent tears. I am forbidden to remember but terrified to forget. It's a hard line to walk. How much could I mean to him, he left me so alone. Today is the blackest day ever. Will my heart ever go on? He was so beautiful. Not only in a physical way, but the depths of sincerity & love of his soul. He gave me his soul & i gave him mine without actually saying so ourselves. Our love was more than just a relationship, it was as if we were one.