An empty room,
I'm empty too
He stares across the empty classroom, feeling numb. It's been one week since the swim team trip. One week since she left him for him. Yes, she wasn't his to begin with, but it still feels like a fresh wound on top of older scars.
And everything reminds me of you
He's in a classroom, yet everything reminds him of her. Her quiet concentration, her quick smile when the teacher gives her back a test and she sees she did well, and how they were assigned to sit next to each other for a semester and everyday he would be close enough to smell her surprisingly pleasant chlorine and soap scent combo.
So many things
I shouldn't have missed
The more that I push
And the more you resist
He tried his hardest to get closer to her. She had heard of his reputation with the other girls in school and gave him a lukewarm shoulder that grew icier the more he pushed towards her.
It's easy to say it's for the best
When you want more
While you leave me with less
She wanted more from Nick, and left him with less of her. Less of himself, too, but he would never tell her that.
I know you're fine, but what do I do?
I know you're fine, but what do I do?
She's fine, but he's not. It's not getting better, either.
I'm awake, and trying
While you're sleeping like a babe
Beside him
He lies awake at night, turning the facts over in his mind, trying to find where everything fell apart for him. Sure, he was aloof and curt with some girls, but not her, never her. But he still lost to the hipster with the camera. He still lost to an ex-Spartan with a strange affection for wearing black.
I'm on the ledge while you're so
God damn polite and composed
She smiles and says hi at practice, he does his best to avoid any contact with her. She's as focused as ever, gracefully slicing through the water in her lane, while he thrashes and flails through the waves, barely finishing his laps, much less winning a race.
And I know you see me,
And you're making it look so easy
She makes moving on looks so easy, he sees them flirting and smiling and laughing in the hallways. Maybe she never had anything to move on from. Maybe she never loved him at all.
What comes and goes,
I'd go without
He feels like he'll never love again after her rejection. No matter what, his heart will always be hers.
I know you're fine but what about
(Fallout), Fallout (fallout), fallout (fallout), fallout
Through the Fallout
(Fallout), Fallout (fallout), fallout (fallout)
You're the fallout
Well now there's him,
And now there's me
It was kind of sick, the way she never decided for sure who she wanted, leaving them both on edge and waiting for an answer, even if she didn't know it.
The secrets you give
And the secrets you keep
And nevertheless
It's never you let
He could never deny her ability to keep a secret. But he always thought it would be nice if she opened up a little more and shared some secrets of her own. He wouldn't tell.
The more that I give
And the less that I get
He gave her all of him, and she gave him nothing in return.
Don't tell me to fight,
To fight for you
After this long, I shouldn't have to
It's been almost a year. He has come to realize that if after 12 months, she doesn't even notice his feelings, then it's best for him to move on. But he can't.
I know you're fine, but what do I do?
What do you do
I know you're fine, but what do I do?
What do you do
I know you're fine but what about
(Fallout), Fallout (fallout), fallout (fallout), fallout
Through the Fallout
Cameron is falling
(Fallout), Fallout (fallout), fallout (fallout)
You're the fallout
And not even Sara can save him.