The Only Exception, a ncis fanfic

Hey everyone

I'm so sorry I haven't updated Definitely Maybe in forever, I've started university and even though writing fanfiction is so much more fun than writing essays I have to if I ever want to become a counsellor. I do not know when I'll update it again but I promise it will be finished just be patient.

Until then I may post song fics or blogs, the link is on my profile.

This is based on Paramore's song The Only Exception. I do not own it or the rights to NCIS I'm just a sad fan who loves them and wanted to put them together.

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

It was the day my world changed the first time, the day Tali died. I remember watching my father after he thought Ari and I had gone too. It was the only time I ever remember seeing him cry. It was the day he changed, he didn't smile anymore, he didn't notice us anymore, and instead he put his heart and soul into his work, trying to find the answers we all craved.

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

A year after that on the anniversary of Tali's death was the day my mother walked out, she left my father a letter saying she could not ignore is cheating or the way he had blamed and ignored her since that day. That was the day he recruited me into Mossad. That was the day I gave up on ever having a normal life. I would never be the girl to settle down and have a family; I would more likely die in battle.

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

But then Tony came along and ever since I saw him sitting at his desk day dreaming about his old partner, who my own brother killed, I knew he would be the one to break me, the way he looked at me from that first day, his eyes full of grief but as he gazed at me I saw something else, I saw hope.

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

Tony told me once to take off my poker face, I told him I was not wearing one but the truth is I am. I have since Tali died, I know in my job there is no happy ending so I found a mask to put on, a mask to hide my true feelings. For me there will be no other way.

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

I suppose I have worn this mask for so long I have forgotten how to take it off. I have gotten use to not having any friends outside of my work. Life is less complicated that way.

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

But then Tony looks at me and the mask fades away, he breaks all the barriers like no one else has before. And if I am to be honest with myself I like the feeling of that knowledge.

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

I know that in reality it can't last, I will have to go back to Mossad in the morning and he will become an agent aboard. We will never see each other again, but I hope the way he holds me tight and kisses me tonight never leave me.