A/N: Okay, so after writing the prologue of "My Number One" I kind of got stuck with the story and kind of forgot the plot . soooo~ I decided to wait a little with continuing that one ^^"
Meanwhile I got the idea of this fan fiction, while reading another one called "Juxtapose" (which you can find here on so you should go read it! :3) though I don't know why I got the idea while reading it, since it has nothing to with this fan fiction XD
Warnings: This is a kind of angsty MattxMello story, therefore it is shounen ai (malexmale, guy love you know .) if you don't like it, then don't read it! ^^"
I don't own Death Note...if I did things would've turned out way differently ._.

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Behind Blue Eyes

Nightmare

The sky was dark as the sun was slowly rising. It was early in the morning on the 6th of November.

There now was less than a month to December, the busy month where people would run around in stores, trying to find presents for their friends and relatives.
The month where kids would run around, building figures out of the cold snow and try to have a good behavior, so they would get good presents when Christmas came.
It was a fact, that almost everybody waited for and loved the month of December. Because even though it was a month placed in the beginning of the cold winter, it was a warm month full of friendship and love.

The kids at the orphanage "Wammy house" was no exception.
In November the most kids where impatiently waiting for Christmas and December. Waiting for snow and presents. Waiting for the warm atmosphere and excitement that would be spread when Christmas eve came really close.
But mostly, the kids where waiting to see L.

Even though he was very busy with the Kira case, which he was currently working on, L had promised all the kids at the Wammy house to come and visit them for Christmas.
So of course almost everybody was looking forward to seeing him.

As the sun kept rising and the clock passed. It was now almost 7 o'clock in the morning, and almost time to wake up.

Matt was lying on his bed while staring up at the ceiling.
He fell pretty fast asleep the day before, and was now only waiting for his roommate Mello to wake up.
Slowly, he turned unto his side so he could look at Mello who was sleeping in another bed, not far from Matt's own.

Mello was shifting uncomfortable in his sleep, he was mumbling something Matt couldn't hear and had a very worried expression.
He probably had a nightmare.
Suddenly Mello began to ex- and inhale very quickly, like he was gasping for air, or running from something.

"Mello?" Matt spoke his name, hoping that he would somehow be able to awake the sleeping blonde, though it was without luck.

The redhead lifted himself up on his elbow, so he could easier look at Mello.
He didn't know what he was dreaming, but he certainly knew that he wanted to wake up Mello, since it seemed to be really bad.

"Mello?" he tried again, still without luck.

He then thought about standing up, walking over to Mello's bed and waking him up.
But just as he decided to do so, the time passed 7 o'clock, and the alarm clock began to ring.
This caused Mello to suddenly shot up from his lying position and straight into a sitting one.

Matt examined Mello's face. He surely looked shocked, did he really have such a bad dream?

Mello had risen up and had turned off the alarm clock, but Matt was so caught up in wondering about Mello's dream, that he hadn't realized it, before the clock stopped ringing.

"Stupid alarm" Mello muttered under his breath.

Matt looked up at his blonde friend.
It was clear that Mello was trying to hide that he had been having a nightmare during the night.
But hell would have to freeze over before Mello would actually admit that he was scared of something.

Matt really wanted to know what Mello had dreamed.
He didn't really know if it was out of curiosity, or out of concern, or if it was both.

"Hey Mello?" The redhead asked in a calm voice, which seemingly shook Mello out of his own thoughts.
Also, Matt noticed that Mello's legs were shaking slightly.

"Yeah? What is it?" Mello answered, trying to look calm.

"Did you have a nightmare or something? You didn't seem to sleep very well, and you're all shaky and stuff now y'know?" Matt saw Mello looking surprised down at his legs, as if he first then realized that his legs were shaking.
He sat back down on his bed and grinned slightly, again trying to hide what he was feeling at the moment.

"Well yeah, I kind of had a bad dream, but it's nothing to worry about" Mello assured Matt, while removing a blonde strand of hair from his face.

Matt raised an eyebrow and looked at Mello.
He had known him long enough to tell when he was lying.
But usually he would just let it go, and let the sometimes naive blonde believe that he wasn't worried.
Though this time he really wanted to know, so he rose up from where he had been sitting, walked over to Mello's bed and sat down beside him.

"Sometimes it's better to talk about it, than suppress it Mello" Matt started, looking into the blonde's blue eyes, which was currently showing surprise.

Those eyes. Those beautiful blue eyes. Matt remembered when Mello had arrived on Wammy House.
Back then his eyes looked so grey, so lifeless.
After Mello had been at the orphanage for a long time, it was like his eyes looked more blue, more confident, more lifeless, though they right now looked like mixed surprise and fright.

"What do you mean Matt?" Mello finally replied with a sigh.

"What I mean? You had a nightmare, don't try to deny it, I saw you shifting uncomfortably in your sleep, and I saw how your legs shook just a moment ago. So tell me, what did you dream about that was so bad?" Matt continued in a calm voice, so that Mello wouldn't notice that he was actually a worried about him.

Mello looked down at the madras, trying to avoid Matt's gaze, and muttered something that sounded like "okay then", before looking up and locking his blue eyes unto Matt's green ones.

"Well, it may sound a little stupid, but to me it was..." Mello stopped, his legs began shaking slightly again.
Matt placed a comforting hand on the upset blonde's shoulder, and shortly after Mello continued.

"I just dreamt that L died." Matt was temped to laugh, but didn't.
Even though it seemed a little funny, maybe even a little ironic that the blonde would get so upset about a dream, where someone he barely ever saw had died.
But Matt knew that Mello, like himself had lost his parents, and saw L like a father, so losing him would be just as terrible as losing his dad again.

"well I promise you, L won't go dying on us! He's awesome, things like that doesn't happen to awesome people!" Matt assured with a smile on his face.

Mello's lips formed into a little smile as he slightly giggled at Matt. The redhead could sometimes be so stupid and naive. But yet, he found it really cute.

"I promise. He won't die or leave us, ever!" Matt continued.

"Thank you Matt" with that said, Mello then leaned in closer to Matt and hugged him tightly.

It was a little shocking that Mello, the guy who always tried to act so tough would suddenly do this.
But Matt was only happy that he did. After all he'd always wanted to become closer with Mello, but never really felt that he had the chance to do so.
Mello always had to prove to the other orphans that he wasn't weak, that he was number one, that he was definitely good enough to surpass Near, and even L.

Matt had always been left to stand on the side line, admiring Mello.
Mello and his golden hair and beautiful blue eyes.
It was a long time since Matt had fallen in love with Mello. He had hated to admit, and didn't dare telling Mello.

"You're welcome" he happily replied, wrapping his arms around Mello's back.
As they said there hugging, the door suddenly opened, which caused Mello to jump back in surprise.
Mello looked relieved that it was just Roger walking in the door, and not some other kid.

"Mello, I would like you to change into some clothes and come down to my office" Roger said in a sad tone.
Mello nodded and began to rise up.

"And Matt, you should also change, lessons are beginning very soon" Roger continued and walked out of the room.

Mello quickly changed and walked out the door, leaving Matt sitting tiredly on the bed.

"oh well, better get starting, lessons will start in 20 minutes anyways" Matt spoke to himself, and began changing clothes so that he could get up to his class and get the lessons over with.

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So what did you think? Personally I like this better than my other fan fiction thingy, besides I still have and idea of what's going to happen in the story, unlike the other one .

R&R and you'll get a cookie :3