Author's notes : this is my first time writing so please review and be gentle.......this actually just popped in my head so it's not that great but let me know what you think of it
Disclaimer : don't own any of this except for the idea
Summary : just a something that popped in my head about Edmund
Edmund knew he has been falling for a very long time now. Even when he was little he could never hold himself up for very long but he always relied on Peter to catch him before he hit the ground.
As he grew older he realized that Peter would not always be there to catch him. He didn't mean to turn into such a jerk that made Peter disappointed and Lucy cry but he couldn't help it. He became so disheartened when he realized that no one was willing to catch him now because of what he's become.
When he met Jadis in Narnia he thought 'finally someone who is willing to catch him again' until he realized how utterly wrong he was. He could never forgive himself for betraying his family and couldn't understand how everyone else could forgive and forget so easily.
As he stares into the battle field he decides that he owes it to Peter and Lucy and Susan and all of the Narnians who forgave him that he would help Peter win the war no matter what. So it made perfect sense for him to run to Peter when Jadis is about to pierce him with her spear. It makes perfect sense to break the spear and save Peter only for Jadis to stab him instead.
When he jerks awake from his near death and sees golden hair and sky-blue eyes he realizes that maybe he was wrong. Someone has always tried to catch him but he was just falling to fast to notice.