NANA: Ai Yazawa owns NANA.
Nobu: I wonder how is this...
Shin: Well, you are an idiot, so don't worry Nobu-san! ;3
Nobu: Shin! D: Review please?
If I thought back to the time when this all started and looked at the present… I would probably laugh. Since the me of now doesn't understand the flow of time no more…
"When will Ren come back?" an exasperated expression on my face.
"………….." Naoki avoided looking at me and Takumi just kept smoking his cigarette.
"Geez! Do what you want…" I pouted. "Naoki get me a pen and some paper…"
The drummer did as he was told. Walking out to ask for my items. That leaves Takumi with me. While waiting for my supplies, I decided to make a conversation again.
"Takumi, Takumi when will the next concert happen?" I wondered.
Takumi turned and gave me a blank stare. The butt of his cigarette already ashes. His fingers grasped the cig and blew out the smoke. A sigh escaping his lips. I crank my neck to his direction.
"Idiot, without a vocalist how is there gonna be a concert?" he closed his eyes.
"O-oh…" was all that came out of my mouth. At that moment, Naoki stepped inside a smile on his face with the paper and pen in his hand. Cutting the conversation short.
"Reira, is this what you wanted?" he raised the objects.
I glanced at the items and nodded my head. I patted my lap motioning him to place them on my lap.
Takumi pushed himself off the wall he was leaning on.
Walking toward the door he said,"Naoki, Take-chan needs us…"
Naoki nods his head and stood up as well. "See you later, Reira…"
Both of them heads out the door of my room.
'Now then, time to make a poem.' I thought.
I am Reira…
I wonder why Takumi and Naoki won't talk about Trapnest…
I hear the nurses outside my door rushing…
I see a plain white ward while being in the hospital…
I want to see Ren…
I am Reira…
I pretend to be fine when I heard about being on a show with Blast.
I feel very confused…
I touch issues I shouldn't…
I worry about Trapnest and everyone…
I cry about Takumi getting engaged…
I am Reira…
I understand that I'm not okay… that everyone in Trapnest isn't…
I say stuff to make everyone happy…
I dream of being a vocalist of Trapnest forever…
I try to sing without frustration…
I hope that I can go back to the time where everyone was smiling and Ren was there with us…
I am Reira…
I put down the pen and stared at the paper… Feeling wetness on my face. I reach for it and find tears spilling down and a sob follows… I finally realized it. I'm broken, Takumi's my Takumi no more, and Ren's not here… Figuring out about this right now, is very stupid… So stupid. My vision blurred, I shut my eyes and rolled on the bed… uncontrollable sobs and tears emitting from me.