Disclaimer: I do not own Genso
Suikoden, Genso Suikoden II, Suikoden, Suikoden II characters! Konami does!
Author's note: I advise that if you
haven't beaten Suikoden II/Genso Suikoden II then you shouldn't read this fic!
This fic is about what happens to Jillia, Jowy, and Pilika!! (Of course people
who haven't played this game might and might not know whom those three
characters are…) *********I have warned you! This is a partial spoiler and I
don't want to spoil it for anyone!*********
*Words that are in Italic such as: Should I pretend to be
someone else? means that the person or thing is thinking. *
Will
You Love Me Still?
Pilika
and I quickly left L' Renouille after our small meeting with Jowy. I WANTED to
protect this girl, Pilika, because she was like my own child. We had crossed
the bridge in Tenzen Pass, but had nearly fallen off when there was an
explosion from L'Renouille. Pilika almost fell off of the bridge, but I quickly
cradled her in my arms and tried to hold on tight to the rope on the bridge.
Once the explosion was over, I made sure Pilika didn't get hurt.
"Are you
alright sweetie?" I asked. She looked at me with teary and weary eyes.
"I'm
tired and I want my Uncle Jowy." She said. I hugged her close.
"Here,
get on my back and I'll give you a piggyback ride, okay?" I asked. She nodded.
I kneeled down and allowed her to get on while my left hand was gripping
tightly on the roped sides. Once she got on, I glance back at her. "Ready, honey?"
"Yes
Auntie Jillia." She replied in a soft, tired voice.
"You try
and get some sleep on my back, okay?" I said and slowly began to get up and
walk.
"Alright…"Pilika answered and yawned. I smiled to myself and continued
to walk with Pilika on my back. Soon my back ached, but I wanted Pilika away
from Kyaro, Highland, from everything from the past except for…Jowy. I loved
him very much and I knew why he had wanted to marry me. He wanted to rule
Highland and I was grateful to stand by his side. Now I wondered if he loved
me. Thoughts from nowhere entered my mind. If he didn't love me then he
wouldn't have trusted me in taking care of Pilika in the first place plus the
fact that he arranged a small house in Harmonia for us, but it was all for
Pilika. Did he believe I was Pilika's servant now? I shook my head and
tried to focus back on the road.
"Such
nonsense, I shouldn't lose faith in my dear husband…" I mumbled softly to
myself. My back began to ache, but we were almost there. I looked up at the sky
and noticed that the sun was starting to go down. I glanced over my shoulder
and saw Pilika still asleep. Should we camp out tonight or continue to
Harmonia? …To Harmonia…I bet Jowy would want us to go there. Only few more
steps… I continued to walk to Harmonia and at the gate there was a man standing
there. He had short, blond hair and deep blue-gray eyes. He was also tall and
it looked as though he had been working out.
"Halt!
Who goes there?!" the man asked.
Jowy
said that we should try to blend into this place…should I change my name? How
about Pilika? What should I do?
"Are you
Queen Jillia of the Blight family? The wife of King Jowy Blight?" the man
asked. I looked at him puzzled and thought for a second. I then nodded.
"Yes,
that is I." I replied.
"And that
must be Princess Pilika, right?" he asked.
"Yes, she
was tired earlier so I had to carry her. How do you know so much about us?" I
asked him.
"King
Jowy had informed me about this whole thing. I'll carry the girl and escort you
both to your new home." He said.
"Are you
sure, sir?" I asked. He nodded.
"By the
way, my name is Brian and I'll carry Pilika. Your back must hurt after that
journey." He said and reached his arms out for Pilika. I glanced over my
shoulder and looked back at him. I slowly released Pilika out of my grip and
Brian caught her. He then gingerly cradled her in his arms. I stretched out a
little bit and felt less weight on my back now. He then guided us both to a
small house near the edge of town. There was an iron gate and Brian took out a
key and handed it to me. I looked up at him and then walked to the gate and
unlocked it. I then pushed the gate opened.
After we
walked past the gate, I shut the gate and locked it. Then I walked over to the
front door with Brian and he took out another key, which he handed to me. I
opened the door widely and Brian walked in. I followed. I looked around and the
whole place, it looked beautiful. I locked the door behind me and looked at
Brian.
"I'll
bring Pilika to her bedroom, then I'll show you around if you wish." He said. I
nodded.
"Alright." I answered and sat down on a chair. Brian walked upstairs and
disappeared with Pilika through the corridors. I sat there and looked around.
There was a familiar scent in this house. That scent was…Jowy. I could smell
his wonderful scent. The scent made me remember our sad departure and I could
feel a tear being shed. More tears were about to be shed, but I quickly wiped
them away when I heard footsteps coming down the stairs. I got up from the seat
once Brian had walked over towards me.
"So Queen
Jillia, shall I show you around now?" he asked.
"Please
Brian, just call me Jillia…my lord has told me that Pilika and I that we should
start a new life…" I said.
"I see.
Then Jillia…would you like me to show you around or would you prefer to get
some rest right now?" he asked.
"I
suppose I need some rest…maybe tomorrow you can show me around." I said and
smiled.
"Well, if
you need me then my phone number is on the refrigerator's door, okay?" he
asked. I nodded.
"Yes and thank you very much for
everything. By the way, which room is Pilika sleeping in?" I asked.
"She's
sleeping in the bedroom across from yours, which has a large portrait of King
Jowy and yourself." He said.
"Thank you
Brian. Goodnight and be careful getting home." I said. He nodded.
"It was a
pleasure to meet you Queen Jillia. Goodnight." He said and opened the door.
"It was
also a pleasure in meeting you Sir Brian. Goodnight." I said and shut the door
behind him. I locked it and began to walk upstairs to my bedroom.
I walked into
a bedroom and knew it was mine because Pilika's bedroom door had a small sign
saying, "Princess Pilika's chambers". I
couldn't help but giggle at the sight. I plopped my tired body on to my bed. I
then looked up at the large portrait of Jowy and I. It was a portrait that we
both had done during a festival in Kyaro. I truly missed Jowy and my homeland.
The place where I had grew up my entire life and then I met a young gentleman
who I fell in love and married, but now I wasn't going to spend my entire life
with him. Tears continued to develop, I really wished that I had stayed by
Jowy's side, but if I did then I may have been in his way. Was it good that I left
him? Or would it have been better if I stayed with him?
I walked over
to the dresser and found my clothing stored inside it. I opened another drawer
and found Jowy's clothing there also. Will he be coming back then?! I
smiled and changed into my sleepwear. I then walked to my bed and fell asleep,
too tired to even notice a dark shadow in the corner of my room. After several
hours, I was awakened by a soft, tender voice. I turned and saw Jowy lying
right next to me.
"Hm? Did I wake you up Jillia? I'm sorry about that then."
He said.
Am I
dreaming?? Is Jowy actually laying down right next to me with one of his arms
underneath my neck??
"J-Jowy?" I
asked. He nodded and took my hand and placed it on his cheek. My eyes lit up
and tears were being shed at a fast pace.
"Shh…don't cry
Jillia." Jowy said and held me close. I wrapped my arms around his neck and
pulled closer. He then rubbed my back, trying to calm me down.
"Jowy…I love
you, but why are you here? I thought you were going to defeat Hiro…" I said. He
looked at me with his tender blue eyes.
"Our
runes…healed me up, I could've died out there in Hiro's hands if he took my
rune, but instead, the two runes healed my body. I also found out that Nanami,
Hiro's sister, didn't die after she was heavily wounded in Rockaxe Castle.
After Hiro and Nanami were reunited, I traveled over here. Tomorrow…I'll be
leaving before Pilika wakes up." He said. I looked at him with a hurt
expression on my face.
"Jowy…please
don't leave Pilika and me…I've found out that each and every minute, I always
have to think about you. I can't stand being away from you…I don't want our
relationship to end like this…" I said and more tears started to develop.
"Jillia…I
haven't seen the whole world yet and I want to…I'm sorry…" he said.
"Please
Jowy…don't leave us both…Pilika misses you immensely and so do I." I said and
more tears developed. He ran his fingers through my hair and pressed my head
against his chest. I could hear his heartbeat beat at a fast rate. I looked up
at him.
"My heart
doesn't want to be away from you or Pilika, Jillia, but I want to travel around
the world with Hiro and Nanami. I hope you understand, Jillia…" He said. I pushed
him away and got out of bed quickly. I then ran out of the room with eyes
filled with both hate and sorrow. I ran down the stairs and was about to reach
the front door until two strong arms from behind me pulled me back. He tried to
turn me around so I would be facing him, but I resisted and tried not to turn
around. In the end, Jowy had won and I was facing him, but I didn't bother to
look at his face, instead I stared at the ground. My eyes were still filled
with hate and sorrow.
"Go away...I
don't need you..." I managed to say as tears began to choke my speech.
"Jillia..." he answered back. I started to hit him on the chest.
"Go away!
I don't want to be your toy!! You never loved me! You only wanted to rule over
Highland!!" I screamed at him while my face began to burn from the tears that
fell. I continued to hit his chest and later noticed that he didn't bother to
stop me.
I even
heard him say, "If it makes you feel better to hit me...then continue Jillia..."
I looked
up at him and stopped hitting him. "Jowy..." was the only word that came out of
my mouth. He just smiled at me and wrapped his arms around me. He gave me a
tight, yet careful hug and a kiss on my forehead.
"I did want
the power to rule over Highland, but I also found out how much I'm in love with
you Jillia. Each second, minute, hour, day, week, month, and year...I've
learned that my love for you grew more and more. I'm in love with you Jillia
Blight, but I can't leave my childhood friends...I'm sorry..." Jowy said in a
calm, soothing voice. I looked up at him.
"Why do
you have to leave still? Why not stay here with Pilika and me?" I asked. He
shook his head.
"I want
to travel the world, Jillia...There is so much I have to learn..." he replied.
I sighed.
"...Alright...but please pay a visit to Pilika...and Jowy...I'll always
love you." I said and gave him a big, tight hug. I didn't want to let go and
began to lean closer to him. Our lips touched and were locked together for
several minutes. Once we broke apart, Jowy left my arms and walked upstairs to
Pilika's room. I loved Jowy so much that it seemed as though I wasn't able live
without him. That's what I wanted to tell him and that I'll always wait for
him. No matter what happens.
I walked
to the kitchen and prepared food for Jowy's new adventure. I didn't want him to
starve on his way and I didn't want him to return as a very thin man. I was
busy packing Jowy his food that I didn't even hear him walk into the kitchen. I
didn't notice him until he wrapped his arms around my waist and his chin was
placed on to my shoulder. I giggled at the feeling. After packing his food, I
placed them away in the refrigerator and hugged Jowy again. I became tired and
wished that I was in my bed or sleeping on something very comfortable. I guess
Jowy knew what I was thinking at that point because all of a sudden, Jowy
scooped me into his arms and carried me upstairs to "our" room. He placed me
down gently and tucked me in. I whimpered and held on to his hand very tight.
"Don't
leave yet Jowy..." I whimpered. He smiled and climbed into bed with me. I moved
closer to him and placed my head near his chest while his arms wrapped around
me. He kissed my forehead again and I looked up at him. "Will you ever come
back?" I asked. He looked at me with his soft, caring eyes.
"I'll
return someday..." he answered. I smiled.
"I'll
always wait for you, Jowy. No matter what happens." I promised. Jowy shook his
head.
"Silly
princess...you shouldn't wait for me...what happens if I die? What will you do
then?" he asked.
"Don't
talk like that Jowy...I know you won't die...and you can't because you have
that rune...and even if you didn't have that rune, I'd still love you
eternally. I'm in love with you Jowy Atriedes and I can't stop that feeling
either. I'll wait for you no matter what...if you find another woman to
love...then I'll still love you..." I said and tears developed again.
"Awww...Jillia...I love you a lot...please wait for me then...but if you
can't take the wait then you should find another person..." Jowy promised and
kissed my tears away. I snuggled closer to him.
"I won't find another person, Jowy. I'm
in love with you and I'll wait for you even it takes forever." I replied. Jowy
moved closer to me and made sure I was warm under his embrace. "I love you
Jowy...eternally...please return and hold me in this embrace again..." I said
and fell asleep in his arms.
"I love
you too, Jillia...always...and I promise you that I will come back..." I heard
Jowy promise before falling asleep with me.
Next
morning, I woke up without any of the warmth I had felt last night. Jowy had
left already...it saddened me, but I remembered our promise to wait for each
other and come back to each other's embrace. I walked to my window and stared
out of it. There was no sign of Jowy. I smiled and thought about my promise to
him. I will always wait for him to come back.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
For five
years, Pilika and I have been waiting for Jowy's return. Pilika is now in
fourth grade and no one teases or makes fun of her either. I am still unmarried
and I still kept my promise for him. I wish Jowy could return soon and each
night I am always sitting by my window praying for his safety. Each year,
Pilika and I have our hopes high and we never became discouraged. Pilika is
also treating me as if I was her mother. She even calls me "mother" instead of
"aunt Jillia". The feeling is magnificent and I only wish that Jowy returned
and became her "father".
The End. Or is it?
©Copyright 2001. Saria/Kasumi
