You clench your jaws as the bright yellow Xterra, driven by Logan, keeps pace with you. Duncan is in the passenger's seat. You ignore them, preparing yourself for another public humiliation. "Hey Ronnie. Hey, we've decided that we'd, uh, we'd rather surf than study today, you wanna come with ? Duncan will promise to take his shirt off. Does that sweeten the pot ?" Your roll your eyes and keep walking. "Does it make you horny? Hey DK, flex for your ex." You hear Duncan taking your defense. Or maybe it's just that he's fed up with Logan's suspicious humor.

Any way, you don't care. But, Logan is calling you again, he's holding out a flask to you. "Hey. Hey. Hey! What do you say to a little hooch, huh? What's the matter, aren't you your mother's daughter? Hmm? Now there was a woman who could drink. Hey, what's she up to nowadays, maybe she'll join us. Do you know where she is? Any clue?"

You swallow, that was mean. Really mean. You're not the only one to think that way cause Duncan's getting mad too. "Leave her alone, man !" Logan shrugs and goes on. "Ooh, chill pill, man ! All right. Aw, she used to be fun, man. Bye." And he races off.

And you stay there. You used to be fun ? And what about you Logan ? Didn't you use to be nice ?

And you remember why you and Logan hate each other.

It was the first night you ever got drunk. And it was baaad. It was after the break up with Duncan, after you somehow recovered from it. It was your first hangover. It lasted all the day long.

You were supposed to meet Lilly. She'd called you and told you to come over, mentioning that Duncan was out, so it was clear. But when you'd gotten here, you'd realized that not only your ex was gone, but the parents too. The door had been open though, so someone must have been there.

You'd walked up the stairs to Lilly's room and open the door. And you'd frozen in the threshold, gasping at the scene. Logan... And Lilly... kinda busy.

You shy Veronica of the time had hidden your face and squealed. You'd heard your best friend's laughter and some "fuck"s of her boyfriend. You'd just caught your best friends in the middle of some action. Yiicks... "Didn't you call me ?" you had asked tentatively while Lilly had laughed harder, telling you to open you eyes.

She'd been lying on her bed, under the white sheets, light drawing her curves, Logan beside her, the sheets only covering his arousal, more or less. He had looked more uncomfortable than Lilly. Actually, you and him had exchanged a look wondering if his girlfriend hadn't set the whole thing up.

"I'm gonna...go." you'd babbled, stepping backwards but Lilly had called you back. "Wait." She'd given her boyfriend a weird smile and looked back at you. "Why don't you... come join us ?"

And you don't remember that much of the thoughts that had crossed your mind at this instant. You remember Logan's eyes widening at Lilly's offering, then him looking at you with a face showing how convinced he was you wouldn't do such a thing.

You remember Lilly bending her head and raising a brow at you. Sure, you'd kissed her once, you remembered that, because Duncan had asked you to be his girlfriend and you didn't know how to kiss. But you weren't... like...

But there was Logan too. And he was your friend, he could have been qualified as your best male friend at the time. And you had had to admit, though you'd been truly faithful to Duncan, even on thoughts, you had seen him a lot of time almost naked around the pool and Lilly had ranted about 'his gifts' - with you begging for no further details...

And there they had been, inviting you to come join them.

Lilly had bended on the side and bitten Logan's shoulder, looking at you in the eye. Logan had chuckled, and you'd thought he was scoffing at you or something.

So you had taken a tentative step forward, getting Lilly's smile to broaden and Logan's eye to widen for a split second.

"Come here."

And you've reached for your cardigan, unbuttoning it, you eyes going from one to the other. Lilly had seemed confident, but Logan had looked stunned and happy like he'd fallen into heaven. You'd toed you shoes off.

And you remember when you'd crawled onto the bed, the two of them welcoming you, kissing your neck from both sides. You remember how they'd pulled off you dress and been here all for you. For your very first time.

You remember how Lilly knew the female body, how to please it. And the male body. How she'd taken your had to make you stroke Logan. You'd blushed but kept going, seeing how much he'd – surprisingly – liked it.

You'd discovered Lilly's hidden charms and Logan's scent. You still remember his scent. His touch. You remember how his hands had made your brain shut down and your instincts take over. And the way he looked at you, that day, when he'd entered you, telling you he was giving you back what you'd just given him.

And you remember wondering wherefrom the common belief that the first time hurts came.

They'd taught you pleasure that afternoon.

They'd made love to you, selling your friendship forever.

But it had faded.