Broken
*Mai POV*
I smiled at everyone. I laughed with everyone. I enjoyed their presence. But that slowly started to fade away after Naru and Lin left for England.
Naru was first, although, I can't really say too much about him. He was the definition of arrogant but yet, he made me smile when he demanded for tea. I realized that I didn't love him. It was just a crush.
Then there was Lin-san. We never talked much but his presence was calming. There was also that odd small smile that we rarely saw.
I can't forget Madoka. Her smiles and laughter and the way she tries to teach Naru manners! It's so funny to watch. She left to follow Lin-san. She had always stopped by, but not only was she needed in England, but she missed Lin and I could hold her back from him.
Then there's Masako. We still argue over small things but we'd grown a little closer ever since she found out that didn't hold any feelings toward Naru anymore. But then she left to continue being a medium and looking for Naru's affections.
Following Masako was Yasuhara or Yasu. He was witty and knew how to make a lasting impression. I can't say I blamed him though. He had to go back to school at some point.
After him was Ayako. I missed Ayako a lot. She was the mother I never had. I remember how she would bandage me up after getting into trouble on a case, sharing a room with her and watching her fight with Bou-san. She was always quick to temper and it never failed to amuse me when she fought with everyone.
Takigawa or Bou-san followed Ayako. Just like Ayako, he was the father or big brother I never had. He always looked after me in his own awkward way. I remember how he would always become overdramatic with almost anything I ever did.
John stayed the longest although I could tell it was taking a toll on him. His smiles never reached his eyes anymore. I knew he was only staying for my benefit. He was so kind. I remember when I figured out that I liked him. I had just confessed to Naru and I felt like my heart was shattered. But seeing him smile just made some of the pain go away. Slowly, so slowly that I don't think he even realized it; he put my heart back together. It was a shame that I knew he was leaving. And he did. Almost a year after Naru returned to England.
My life is now dull and boring. I go to school, keep my grades up, and work part time at a small restaurant. I smile, but it's polite and forced. When they all left, it hit me hard. I don't think I've laughed in a long time. I was broken and it hurt. It hurts to breathe without them, to live without seeing any of their smiles, or hearing any of their demands. I miss them so much. I think that if I could see my heart, it would have spider web cracks all throughout it, just waiting to break.
I buried my head in my arms, my tea long forgotten and cold just sitting at the table. It has been a few years since John left. I know they aren't coming back. They haven't called or visited. It was almost as if life went back to the way it was before SPR started. I guess I didn't mean anything to them and I probably never will.
I know that will always be broken. Never smiling, never laughing, and never being happy. At least, it will remain that way until the SPR group comes back into my life.
A/N: Hope you enjoyed. I didn't know what genre to put this in, so sorry about that. Let me know what you think!