Author's Note: I was bored the day after I finished reading Night's Child. Moira's POV. Written as a BOS entry.
Tomorrow's the day. Mum and Hunter are having their handfasting tomorrow night. This will be the first one in Belwicket since my initiation, so now I can fully participate. I'm so nervous that I feel slightly nauseous, and I know that it's nothing compared to Mum. Hunter is probably nervous as well, but he's not as expressive with his emotions. So much reserve. The only times he really shows how he is feeling is if Mum is there. They are so in love. I wonder if Ian and I will ever know each other as well as they do.
Goddess, I'm so nervous. It's not only because I'm going to be part of this ceremony. I don't know what Mum expects me to think of Hunter. I know that he's my birth father, but I've only known him for about a year and a half. And I know that Colm lied to us and that I don't share any of his blood, but he raised me and loved me. I still miss him. Having him around. He was my dad in every way but my actual genes.
I guess I love Hunter now, too. I know he loves me. He is proud when I do well. He was even showing happiness to the whole coven when I was initiated. He will smile and laugh at home, and we even share the same sense of humor. But I know, Hell, everyone knows, that Hunter's true happiness is my mother. But it seems that lately I've been coming in a close second. That fact fills me with happiness. My birth father truly loves me!
And yet, I still call him "Hunter". I still feel like it would be betraying Dad, or Colm, I guess, to call Hunter "Dad". I could call him "Da", I guess. It's a different name and what he calls his father. Different name for a different father figure. But I'm just so worried about it. I'm afraid that the guilt will eat at me. I know that Dad wanted us to be happy. But happy with another man as my mother's husband and my father? I hope so.
I think that Mum and Hunter want me to call him something other than "Hunter". And part of me wants to, too. Goddess, what should I do?
My child will look at this Book of Shadows in the future and probably wonder why this is in here at all. What could this possibly have to do with magic? But I need to clear my mind before I can do any magic, and that's been hard lately with this hanging over my head.
You know what's funny and a little bit sad? I slip up and call Hunter my dad when I talk about him to Tess and Vita. I call him my father to other people subconsciously Does that mean I should call him that to his face?
Yes. I think it does. The Goddess wouldn't be doing this if she didn't think I needed to change something.
"Da." It sounds nice. I'm sure he'll loved it if I call him that, just like what he calls his father. Mum will be so happy.
That will be my wedding gift to them. When their handfasting ceremony is over, I will run up and congratulate them as Mum and Da.
I think - I hopt that Dad, Colm, would be okay with this. We're moving on. Not forgetting him. Just moving on.
End Note: I hope that wasn't out of character. I just had this image in my head of Moira wondering how to address Hunter in that complicated situation. Thanks for reading. Please review.