Ring Ring Ring
"Bella babe get the phone please, I gotta finish dinner before dad gets home."
"Sure mama no prob." I ran to the phone right at the last ring. "Swan residence, this is Bella."
" I need to speak with Renee Swan please."
"Sure one minute. MOM PHONE!!" I yelled and she ran, I watched her talk for a few minutes before dropping the phone and collapsing into tears. I ran to her side and hung up the phone.
"Mom what is it?" She turned and hugged me and held on for dear life. " Mom what the hell is going on?" She sobbed onto my shoulder harder every second.
"Charlie, he was, they said, oh god" She cried harder and harder.
"Mom, what the hell is going on?." She turned to me and tried to look a little happier.
"Your father got in a shooting at a bank robbery and was killed." Her voice broke more as she went on saying this.
"Dad is dead?" She nodded and I broke down in the living room.
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I sat up quickly in my bed after reliving that night again. It seemed that only yesterday my father was killed in that bank robbery. But no its been three years. Since then I haven't really opened up to anyone, not even my new step dad. my dad was my best friend. I told him everything and when he was murdered in a bank robbery I died with him, well at least I wanted to.
My mom moved on fast though, I mean she didn't even wait for him to die to get a new man. About a week after he passed we had the funeral. It was a nice service. My mom was very mournful. I don't know if it was because of her husband dying or the fact that her daughter found her with her new boy-toy fucking in the garage that morning the world may never know.
About a month later she married the guy. Phil was his name, he was a baseball player turned coach/teacher after an injury. He was also seven years younger then her but I guess that doesn't matter. There was a good coaching opportunity here in Forks for him and mom said she could easily find a job at one of the schools here. Though she didn't. All she did was find a stupid dog named Jacob (That she doesn't even take care of... I do) and a bottle a week of Vodka. Phil of course loves it when he comes home because the more alcohol she inhales the friskier she gets so after he comes home I leave. After hearing their loud moaning once I learned to eat and get out after that.
So I spent all my free time down at La Push sometimes with my best friend Seth. He is great. After his dad died of a heart attack he was wounded so he knows how i feel, except maybe the mom is a slutty hoe bag who banged a co-worker at my husbands funeral thing but he gets it.
I also spend my time at school and in my room thinking about HIM. the one man who gets me thinking and wanting to go to school. My reason for living, Edward Cullen. Even though he doesn't even know that I exist.
It all happened my first day at Forks, I was wandering around trying to find my classroom, when I heard him singing. at first I didn't know where it was coming from but when I found it I saw the most sexy man ever. He was singing a song that I never heard before. He had longish coppery bronze hair that hung in his face when he ran his fingers through it. His beautiful emerald eyes starting off into space. He had on perfect fitting Dark wash blue jeans and a stripped button up slightly unbuttoned at the top. I opened the door to hear better but trying not to disturb him. I crashed into a drum and he looked my way. Quickly hiding so I would not be seen I hurt myself as per usual. He left the room leaving me in a daze and in love.
Well now it's been three years and I have never even talked to him, he is to busy with his girl friend who hangs all over him and shows him off to every one. God she is such a slut. I caught her one time with James, the hottest guy in school, I mean really. He was with a really nice girl named Vicky but she was so shaken after their relationship was over that she moved to somewhere in Canada. Anyway, of course i didn't tell him , I was the new kid and I was fresh meat, she could ruin my whole high school career in one snap of her perfect little fingers. I hate cheerleaders.
Anyway, I'm a junior now and he's a senior so after this year I will loose my chance, oh well he and Tanya have been together for four years, I don't stand a chance. The only connection that I have to him is my private sketch books. Over the years I have written letters and poems, drawn pictures of him and I or just him. Nothing stalkerish just somethings things I wish I had the courage to tell him in person. Ever since that day I heard that song. I remember the lyrics so well, I heard him singing all the time when he could get away from Tanya. it's only one song but the lyrics he wrote are beautiful.
Let Me Sign
Oohh
Oohh
Standing there by the broken tree,
Her hands were all twisted, she was pointing at me.
I was damned by the light coming out of her eyes.
She spoke with a voice that disrupted the sky.
She said 'Walk on over yeah to the bit of shade,
I will wrap you in my arms and you'll know you've been saved'
Let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.
I was out for a drink in a soho bar
The air was smoked out liked a cheap cigar
She rose out of her seat like a painted ghost
She was the woman that I wanted the most
As she reached for my arm I gave her my hand
I said 'Lay me down easy let me understand'
Let me sign, let sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.
As I walked through the door she was still in my head
As I entered the room she was laid there in bed
She reached out for me all twisted in black
I was on my way down, never coming back
let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.
let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.
One day recently he sung it to Tanya and of course I was hiding there when I heard him. She just turned up her nose and told him that its to slow and not easy to dance to. He explained to her that it was supposed to be for her, like as an I love you. I wanted then to slap her. The song I finally found out that he titled it Let Me Sign.
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I step out of the shower and walk to my room to get ready for school before Alice gets here. Ever since my old Truck died, to avoid having to ride with Phil when he left for work, I got a ride from my Best friend ever. She had a really nice car (Not as nice as Edwards Volvo.) I grabbed a pair of jeans, my red thermal shirt, and my favorite T-shirt. Putting it all on and grabbing me hoodie I headed down stairs. My mom was sitting in her usual spot with her coffee in one hand and a gossip magazine in the other.
"Good Morning Mom" Every morning I say this and she always responds the same way.
"It's not good till I find the Vodka." Every time she puts the bottle down in some odd place in her room. All day she drinks then when Phil comes home she still drinks till her mouth is occupied with his, then the bottle rolls of somewhere.
"Did you look under the bed?"
"No, will you?" I heard Alice's car pulling up. HONK HONK. Thank God for Alice. Honestly it's like she is psychic or something, always showing up right at the perfect time.
"Sorry Mom, Can't gotta go." I grabbed my bag off the hook by the door and slipped into my converse and left. I had to lock the door first of course. Today was the first day of our junior year. I climbed into the back seat. "Hey Alice, once again good timing. Hey Jazz." Jazz or in Jasper to everyone but me and Alice was Alice's boyfriend. They have been together for two years now, since her second month at school.
"Bella"
"So Bells, where did you almost have to look this time?"
"Ugh, under the sex stage, I don't know what they keep under there, that would be the worst thing to see before school."
We pulled up at the school and Alice parked in the same spot as last year. She had managed to get the same spot again. Only now right next to us on one side was Rosalie's car and on the other side was Edward's Volvo. Great! Now everyday I get greeted by Tanya and the school class president. Of course the majority voted for the Hot girl versus say the smart one. Oh well poor Angela, she was devastated, and Rosalie isn't as bad as we thought she would be, she was worse. All of the school assemblies suck now more then ever, especially since the cheer squad gets to be the stars and dance their asses off in their slutty outfits and their slutty routines.
"Well Alice great job with the assigned spot!!" Alice and Jasper are the only ones who know about my love for Edward.
"How was I supposed to know who was next to us" She said as we climbed out of the car.
"I don't know, I have a feeling you did though, and you got the spot just to see me squirm!" Alice just smiled.
"You need to tell him before he leaves Bells come on."
"Whatever, I have to go to class." I walked away knowing that by lunch it would all be fine. My first period class was American literature. This is supposed to be a junior class that's why I was surprised to see her sitting in my class. I went to the seating chart the teacher posted on the over-head. SHIT!!!!!