A tear to the Eye
Khushi was 23 years old. I was 47. She wants to become a doctor. Despite of being a single mother, I gave her enough love and care. She was a happy girl. Her name was appropriate for her. She was a execellent student. And she was selected in India's NO.1 medical college. I was very very happy. But she have to go to hostel for studies. She went there and started studies.
She had a lot of friends and a couple of very good ones. she used to say that my mother is my bes t friend. She came home for Diwali and we both enjoyed a lot...
But in the month of febraury... she surprised everyone by ending her own life. I was shocked. Just one question raising in my mind "why?"
I was crying, crying and crying. I was burning from the inside. No one was there to help me. All people were gossipping about khushi. But no one can feel my pain. I have lost my only daughter, which was my world. I was heartbroken. I was angry at khushi. And I felt guilt for not having been a better mother.
After some time, I came to know about that she had a boyfriend whom she loves the most. But he was a cheater. He always used her. He abuses her physically and mentally. She loves him madly. She was very depressed. She can't bear his constant criticism. Though she ended her life.
She always say that i m her best friend. She have to tell me about this. I will definetely gives her support and love. For a boyfriend, she ended her life. I loved her from 23 years. I kept her in my womb for nine months. But she didn't thought about me once. What will I do without her?
My beautiful child, who I nurtured, encouraged, supported and who I was proud of, Suddenly she left me alone. I felt i was a failure as a mother.
For the rest of the days, I sat near her photograph and thinks..."return if possible. I am alone here. I miss you a lot my child..."
To lose a child is the worst thing a parent can live through. There is another "worst" which is to lose a child by suicide. Losing a child by suicide is traumatic and brutal.