Sharon

It was my first day being with everyone else. After waking up, I had immediately started crying. Not just crying but sobbing, the uncontrollable kind where you look and feel like a fool but can't stop yourself. Even though it was unlike me, I just didn't know what else to do, Wanda was gone and she left me here without her.

At first, I had admittedly hated her, but it hadn't lasted – it couldn't. She was too kind and loving for me to be able to truly hate her. Once she had realized the affect of her taking my body, she was remorseful. I had to forgive her – she hadn't chosen what she was.

Today, I was finally feeling better. Jamie, Ian, and even Jared had decided that we couldn't live without Wanda. She had become essential to all of our lives. When they told me of their new plan, I knew immediately it was the right thing to do.

It was decided, with Jebs agreement, that we would go on a raid tomorrow to find Wanda a new host body. Ian refused to come, claiming he couldn't leave Wanda – he hadn't let go of her cryotank once. He said he didn't care what Wanda looked like, as long as she was the same person. The only true restriction we had was to find a body past gone, a body even Wanda wouldn't feel like she was stealing.

It feels a bit odd to be walking around the caves by myself. It's been so long since I was alone in my own mind that honestly, it's a bit disconcerting. Knowing my way perfectly around somewhere I've never really been, and knowing everyone around me when we've never really met, is something that will definitely take some time to get used to.

This is the first time in the four days I've been back that Jared has left my side. Seeing Jared and being able to be with him – me be with him, and not Wanda – was more than I had imagined it would be. Our separation had been just as hard on him as it was for me. I missed him and Jamie more than I ever would have thought possible.

Jamie. Somewhere along the line he became more of a son to me than a brother. He greeted me the same as always with a giant hug, as though no time had passed. It hurts to know that he got so close to Wanda while I was gone. I missed him terribly, but I know he means well. His love for me hasn't been diminished, he loves both me and Wanda separately and equally.

I haven't been alone in so long, that finally having a moment to myself is well needed. However much I missed really being with people, I need some time to think.

I wasn't expecting to see anyone when I suddenly ran into Sharon. Her eyes immediately narrowed as she saw Wanda and not her own cousin. When she came to her senses and remembered it was really only me, her eyes softened and she walked forward attempting to give me a hug.

I wouldn't let her. She wasn't the same cousin I had gone to Chicago to try to see. No, she and I would never be close again. Not after the way I had seen her behave. When she asked me – rudely too I might add – why I wouldn't give her a hug, I told her. Her hatred for Wanda hadn't gone unnoticed by me. I had not only seen but felt her hatred, felt the unjustified rage pouring off of her. I had been there for the nasty looks and snide comments. Wanda had been a part of me and I knew how much it had upset her. If Sharon honestly thought we could be the same as always, she wasn't as smart as I had given her credit for.

Watching her storm off – to tell Aunt Maggie no doubt – I didn't feel too bad. She deserved no sympathy from anyone. Who was she to think she deserved it?

There was so much that went on in this world with out me, I was only just beginning to see

A/N Not sure how much I like this. I feel like it's a bit all over the place… Anyways, please review! Advice/criticism is gladly accepted – but be polite please, no need to be mean!