Dear HG
I never thought in my entire life I would ever be able to call you a selfish little… How dare you say all those things to me? When at the same time aren't you doing them to me? Leading me on, wanting to share my bed but you never wanted me to to come to your precious events, the Weasley's for dinner, or anything else. You never planned on telling your bodyguards about me. Did you? You're just another bloody fucking hypocrite. How dare you pass judgment on me!
I've told you from the start we could be nothing more. I've never given you false hope. Maybe after that first night, that amazing first night, I should have ended it. But by the gods you were the best I'd ever had and in this point I am a greedy son-of-a-bitch that wanted you all to myself. But did I get you all to myself? No! I have to share you with Weasley. Did you think I didn't know about the two of you? The off and on break ups; I knew the minute you had a fight with him. The spineless, moron that will never in a million years deserve you.
I've loved you forever it seems. Against my better judgment, against my family, against everything I've ever known I have loved you. So, no, I will not spare you this bullshit false hope you claim I give. I know its been weeks since you wrote that letter to me. Was it to get me to stop you? A last attempt for me to see the light and claim you? Maybe I was wrong, maybe you're the spineless one that was desperate for a way out but couldn't pull off a simple 'no'. Asking me to tell you that I'm getting married… I haven't touched a woman since you. You're the cheat, the liar, the fake…you back stabbing… Even when you deserve my hate I can not give it to you. This will be the last time I send word to you. For my soul, my very being will never be able to see you with him. And as this war goes on I grow weaker by the minute. I do not plane on surviving this. Whether I die from longing or die by another in battle. I'm going to choose the later of the two. It will sit better with my family.
As for your questions… I have not, nor will I ever forget about you. I feel I will think about you as I take my last breath. The memories, oh the memories, those brief glimpses of you are the only thing I still cherish in this world. I have known power, I have known wealth, fame, and everything in between, but you are the only thing that was ever real in my life. You were the only person that made me think, made me feel, which means that you are perfect in my eyes.
You're my soul mate. I've never believed in love till you. Never believed in a possible happy ending, folish of me to start now. We're in the middle of a war and standing on opposite sides. Maybe in our next life we'll have a better chance. I'll find you, always.
One day maybe you'll be able to forgive yourself, and when you do maybe my soul will rest in peace.
Goodbye dearest one, the only woman in history to tame a Malfoy.
Goodbye…Forever,
DM