Am I in love with Freddie Benson?
AN: My story plays directly after I like Jake, but with one difference to the episode that was shown on tv: carly has really kissed freddy and realizes that she actually enjoyed it and has fallen for her best friend.
Will she have the guts to him how she really feels??
Chapter One: Thinking about Freddie
Carly was lying on her bed in her room and thought about what had happended at todays Icarly Episode. Had she really kissed her long time best friend Freddie Benson, in front of the cute Jake Krandall and her other best friend Sam Puckett or had that all been a dream?
Flashback" Im not gonna help turn Mr Awesome in Mr totally Awesome."
" Freddie please!"
"No!"
"Please"
"If I do it will you kiss me?"
Carly stood there silently for a couple of minutes and had an expression on her face, like she had been struck by lighting. *Has Freddie just really asked to kiss me? What am I supposed to do now? I mean, I can't kiss Freddie in front of Sam and Jake, the cutest guy from Seattle. When I do that, im never gonna get a chance again to date Jake but on the other hand I don't wanna hurt Freddies feelings, because I honestly don't know how he will handle it if im gonna turn him down again* Sam looked a little bit concerned to her best friend Carly and said: "Hey Carly is everything alright with you, you are not honestly considering to kiss the freddork? Please say im right, am I?" Carly didn't honestly know what to say to Sam and most importantly to Freddie, but after thinking a few more minutes about the whole thing Carly said: "Ok Im gonna do it, but its gonna mean nothing, do you understand that Freddie?" Freddie was really surprised of Carlys answer but then said: "I totally understand that Carls, this kiss will mean nothing." Sam was grossed out by the thought that Carly was going to kiss the geek Fredward, but she couldn't do anything against it, so she would try her best to accept it. Then the three of them hurried back in the studio, Freddie made the final preparations for going live and Carly and Sam got to their standard positions. Then I Carly was live on the air, and after Sam and Carly made some jokes they introduced their musical guest Jake Krandall. Carly and Sam then sit down behind Freddies Laptop and as Jake started to play his guitar, Freddie made the programm, that would "fix" Jakes voice ready to work. After listening a few minutes to Jakes horrible singing, Carly asked Freddie who had already fixed Jakes voice with his little programm: "Does it work?"
Freddie handed a pair of headphones to Carly and she smiled, as she hears how fantastic Jakes voice now sounded. He she then turned around Freddies head, so that he would face her and leaned in to give him a passionate kiss. At first Freddie wasn't really sure what to do, but finally he opened his mouth for Carlys tongue and she then willingly explored every inch of Freddies mouth. Sam couldn't bear the site of the two kissing so she straightly looked at Jake.
End of Flashback
Carly sighed and deeply thought about what she should do now, she hadn't told anyone about her real feelings for her best friend not even Spencer, who she had told a lot of private things in the past. Carly then went downstairs, to get herself something to drink and maybe she could tray set her on something else then the kiss with Freddie. Not that the kiss was bad, she really had enjoyed but at this time, she desperately needed to think about something else because of the kiss so many questions had popped it up in her head and were giving her a headache. Later that day Carly and Spencer ate dinner together in the kitchen, and all the time Carly was very quite what was a very unusal behaviour of her. Spencer then finally stopped eating and asked his little sister: "I think ive know you enough, to know that something is really bugging you at the moment so whats up?"
"Its really nothing Spence but thx for caring so much about my feelings." But Spencer wasn't nearly satisfied with his little sisters answer so he pushed a little harder to get the truth out of her. But Carly kept on saying she was ok, because she just couldn't give up her secret at the moment. Spencer then finally gave up, because he didn't want to fight with Carly and they both continued eating their spaghetti tacos. Suddenly Carly dropped her fork and blurted out loud: "Im in love with Freddie Benson and that's really bugging me!"
"And why is that so, I mean: why don't you just tell him what you feel?" Carly sighed and then said: "I really whish that it would be that easy but it isn't." Spencer thought a moment about what Carly said and then asked his little sister: "Youre afraid that he might not love you back anymore, because you have turned him down in the past so many times?" Carly looked a little bit amazed and scared at her brother, because it felt a little like her big brother could read her mind. She then finished her spaghetti taco and went back upstairs to her room, to think a little bit more about the complicated situation she was in at the moment. Carly wouldn't be mad at Freddie, if he wouldn't love her anymore she would even understand it because she would probably do the same thing. But on the other hand she would be really dissappointed, because after the cute Jake Krandall went back to his ex-girlfriend Stephanie, she was really hoping to get together with Freddie.
AN: That was the first chapter, I hope you liked it and this is my first icarly fanfic. Please review and im open for any good suggestions to improve the quality of my story.