Hey there Haylijah lovers :) So there you go my first Haylijah fanfiction which I wrote in English. Actually I am German so please forgive me if there are grammar mistakes. I try my best but sometimes its hard to write it in the way I want because I am just used to write in german ;) I just wanted to try this out if you guys like it so please write reviews and give me feedback. Maybe I will continue this afterwards.

In backing to S2E2.

Hayley was mad at him he knew that already but he had no choice. He had to act like that. If that was the only possibility to save his brother Niklaus from his fall-back to his old behavior he has to bring that sacrifice even though he wasn't sure if he could handle that. Elijah felt his hearth beating so hard while he was thinking about what he decided to do some days ago. Just the way that Hayley looks at him now and the way she did before his decision. He doesn't even know how to describe that change. Of course it was hard for her after all because of the loss of her children and Elijah understood why she was such cold at him since her daughter was gone. The original could only imagine how she must feel like inside of her. The crazy thing which really confused him was that since he made his decision to have as less contact with her as possible she actually wants to have more contact with him. She noticed that there's something different in his behavior but she just doesn't know what exactly was the reason for it. Maybe she thinks that Elijah decided to hate after all the unfriendly things she did to him. He could only imagine.
After Hope was gone Elijah tried to help her in his own way even though he didn't want to offend her in any way which was really difficult. Nothing worked and after all they were more apart of each other as never before. Elijah just sighed as he started thinking about that. The way they kissed. There was just no possibility for him to get this out of his mind. Since that day they have never been that close to each other and even though he knows that Niklaus finally knows his feelings for that woman he wasn't still sure if their relationship would have had a chance. And he will never find it out. Never.
As Elijah did many years before with Marcellus he now has to do the same thing with Hayley. Klaus doesn't feel anything for her but she's the only person who can reach him right now. Furthermore they both feel the same pain deep inside of them. They just lost their child. Elijah doesn't have the right to be with Hayley while knowing that his brother needs her much more now than he does.
Elijah always sacrificed everything for his family and especially for his little brother Niklaus. How often he already thought about how unfair that actually was but someone had to be the wise one in this family. Oh dear how much he loved Hayley. So close and still so far away for him. He was sure that Klaus didn't even know how hard this will be for him and he won't notice at all even though he knows Elijah's feelings for Hayley. Klaus just doesn't care at all. Same as ever. Nothing changed after all the centuries.

After all that thinking Elijah decided to move downstairs to read one of the many books in their living room. He just needed to relax now and he had to get Hayley out of his head if he doesn't want to get even more sad and crazy.
He just settled down as he noticed her standing in the door case. Elijah knew it was her. He smelled her. This smell was such exhilarating to him that he couldn't even find the perfect fitting words for it. How could a man just feel that way for a woman?
He just resisted to look up from his book but he never imagined that it would be that hard. Seconds passed and she didn't say any word and she didn't move towards him. Elijah just acted like he was reading in a very concentrated way but unfortunately he already knew that he wasn't able to play a game with her. Not with her. Not with the woman he adored that much.
"Why are you avoiding me lately, Elijah?", she just asked after a already painful long-lasting silence. The original who was always wearing a suit still didn't look up. Instead he turned to another page.
"I am not avoiding you, Hayley", he answered in a very short way but of course both knew that this wasn't true after all. The funny thing was that they knew each other better than they thought.
"Don't lie at me! Why are you doing this? You have never been that cold at me. You don't talk to me anymore and if you do so you only say the most necessary things. Hey, look at me!", she surprisingly screamed. She just couldn't see behind his curtain. His face hasn't changed at all but actually she wasn't really surprised by that. She could only recall a handful moments in which she saw the real Elijah. The Elijah who just accepted his feelings and was ready to show her that. Of course she could understand if he was kind of angry at her because she really wasn't that friendly towards him lately but she knew it better. Elijah wasn't such kind of guy who just gets pissed because of such a thing. Especially if it's her who's acting like that.
Elijah just looked at her for a few seconds before paying attention to his book on his lap again. He just couldn't stand it. Elijah knew if he would now look into her beautiful clear eyes he would just forget everything about his plan. He just had to avoid that and in a thousand years of living this was one of the most hardest things he ever had to do.
"I am not lying, Hayley." His voice was kind of frozen and he noticed by himself that his answer wasn't convincing at all. The point was that he just couldn't care about it. Hayley had to accept his behavior. After some time she will accept it, wont she? Oh dear, Elijah thought. She's going to hate him. They went through so many bad things since they met and now he tries to accept the fact that she's maybe going to hate him. The man she obviously loves. Him. The original vampire who loves her more than everything else.
"You do", she whispered in a desperate voice. From one second to another she was such calm. Elijah knew her and he didn't need to look up to know that she just started crying. Crying because of him. Because of his decision. Because he set his family over his own happiness. Always and forever. Sometimes Elijah cursed that day when he and his family swore that.
"I will find out why you are acting like that, Elijah. I will. I promise you that and as you always keep your promises so I will keep mine." Silence. Elijah knew that she wasn't saying that without any thinking. She just meant what she said. As he made his decision to help Niklaus the same way as he did in the past with starting to ignore Marcellus he knew it would be hard but now it pointed out that it was nearly impossible. Elijah could trick his brother, he could trick Marcellus but not her. Not Hayley.
"I guess you won't explain yourself. You won't even say one more word, will you? Believe me I will not give up that easy, Elijah. You know that. This game you are playing is really unfair you know", she added frustrated after that burdensome silence which she just couldn't stand anymore.
As Elijah was finally sure she was gone he looked up. He wasn't sure if he could have been besetting enough to his plan if she would be still here. Elijah just wasn't able to think in a normal way while she was around. Damn, this would really be unbelievable hard work, he thought while closing his book.