chapter one
I make a splash in the puddle that i step in , all i can think about is him, clear . I walk up the the steps , fiddling to try to find my keys. eventually i find them and open the door carefully and quietly trying not to disturb him from him sleeping. i place the card and present on the nightstand next to him. watching him sleep is so peaceful, it makes me want to fall asleep next to him. he moves and whispers my name "aoba-san." my face tints lightly with blush. oh clear if knew how much i loved you. i walk into the kitchen , trying to remember what i was going to cook . " i remember now!" i run into the kitchen and pull out the hot dogs for which i was going to make octopus shaped for clears bento. i turn the begin to cut the slits in so it makes the tentacles. when i finish i put them to my nose and nuzzle it softly. " look at you , you are so cute!" i put them back on the plate and turn the stove on and wait for it to heat up, a choking feeling starts to get at my throat, what if im not good enough for him? i clench my fists and a tear creeps down my flush face. suddenly i begin crying , slowing falling down to the kitchen floor , putting my hood over my head. does clear even have feelings for men?
The floor creaks and clear rubs his eyes sleeply and holds the blanket around his body " aoba?" he notices me and runs towards me clumsily, falling over and crawling near me. he removes the hood from my face. " whats wrong?" he tilts his head, his eyes , those beautiful eyes. i eventually speak " clear -…" i push him over and put myself on top of him and leaning in to his face " clear , do you like men…. in that way?" he blushes with deep red and begins to sweat. he leans his delicate face in to mine and kisses me , holding the sides of my head. he runs his fingers through my hair. : did that answer your question?" he smiles.