A/N: This is a poem I wrote from the perspective of Dean. It's written to/about Castiel and is kind of a small story I guess. I've only worked on it for some hours (yesterday and today) so it may have some errors.
Other than that, I'm currently in France. I only wanted to throw that out there.
The first time you saved my life was we hadn't even met and still you saved me,
I was in hell and in pain and you gripped me tight and I was scared, so scared.
I woke up and didn't know where I was or how I got there but I could see,
could see where you held me.
The first time I saw you was when we were in that barn and I was furious,
You came after I called and there were lightning and I was scared, so scared.
You said you were my friend and an angel and but I didn't believe you, I only felt delirious,
delirious because you scared me.
The first time I saw you as a friend wasn't long after we met,
You said I could trust you and I did but I was still scared, so scared.
You were new to me but there was something different about you and you let,
you let me in.
The first time you rebelled for me I was neutral, I didn't understand,
You told me what you'd done and I remember I was scared, so scared.
You were not safe anymore and I should've had but didn't want to flee the land,
flee the land and run away.
The first time you died it hurt me and I felt very, very bad,
You just did it because of me and I was scared, so scared.
I didn't know it could hurt as much as it did and I nearly grew mad,
nearly grew mad but then you came back.
The first time we touched when both human was when we sat a table,
You were eating for the first time and you looked scared, so scared.
I reached out, I touched you with a shaky hand and you looked up, but you weren't able,
were not able to understand.
The first time we kissed was when you nearly died but somehow you didn't,
You lay still in your bed and I sat beside you and I was scared, so scared.
You opened your eyes and they searched for mine, and I will always remember the instant,
the instant your lips met mine.
The first time we saw a movie together was in June, in a city far away,
I watched you and I felt more than I've ever done and I was scared, so scared.
You laughed and said you liked the concept of movies and you'd love to see more one day,
one day if I were there.
The first time I said 'I love you' was a moonless night on the road,
You sat beside me and it was only us. I had realised my feelings and I was scared, so scared.
You touched my face and asked what I was thinking about. The words I said weren't broad,
were not broad but you heard.
The first time we talked to my brother about us was one week after the moonless night,
You were calm but I was sweating and I was scared, so scared.
You took my sweaty hand and I said the words to him and he laughed and said right,
right, was that a secret?
The first time we settled down was when we were getting old,
We were getting old and my back ached and I was scared, so scared.
You led me into our house and I knew you knew when you kissed me and said you're gold,
you are and will always be gold.
The last time we kissed was when you lay in your bed and you had nearly died,
I was happy you hadn't died but I was still scared, so scared.
You said that it wouldn't matter, you'd already lived long enough but I knew you lied,
you lied for me but I pretended I didn't know.
The last time we touched was when you lay on that same bed,
I touched your face and you closed your eyes and I was scared, so scared.
You stopped breathing and people started running and everything I could've had said,
all I could've had said was still in my head.
The last day I was alone without you was one week since I saw you alive last,
I had cried enough and my brother knew and I wasn't scared, I wasn't scared.
You had stopped breathing and I wanted that too so I took the pills very fast,
the pills that made me see you again.
The last second I was alone without you I lay in my bed without you by my side,
I was peaceful and full of thoughts but I wasn't scared, I wasn't scared.
I knew what was waiting and my life with you had been such a ride,
a ride full of wonderful moments.
The first time I saw you when both nonexistent was when I left my body for eternity,
You stood beside me and watched me and I was scared, so scared.
But you only took away my tears and we looked at each other for a short infinity,
a short infinity before we ran off.
A/N: PLEASE REVIEW.
Tell me where/if I've done something wrong, used a word wrong or done another wierd thing.