Hi everybody!

Here is a new story I started to write a while ago. I hope you like it.

Everything is written out of Starfire's view.

Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans…, but I wish I would…

Description: She had lost everything: Her love, her home, and her powers. But she is still fighting against so many things. Starfire thinks she is alone, but soon she will find out, what it means to have nothing. And soon she will learn thinks about somebody, she never wanted to know. But she also will learn about the past and future. And she is going to fight again. There will be new and old friends in this story.

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Chapter one: Down Hill

Once again, I looked at the clock, next to my bed and sighed.

One year…was it really one year?

So much happened in these past 12 months.

I smiled to myself, something I hardly did in this year…

Destiny is really a funny thing. First you fly over the world, want to hug everybody and everything and then…you fall. You fall and there are so many people, who can catch you, but no one does.

My whole life went so down hill. Well…if the fact of loosing your boyfriend, get into a giant fight with him and afterwards you loose your home planet, is down hill, then yes, I fell so deep.

That isn't even the worst. Okay…it is the worst, but it is not the only thing.

I have lost my powers because of our dear archenemy. Slade… Only the sound of this name made my blood boil.

I hate him…because of him I am caught in this human body.

What…You don´t know about this things?

Well…then I think, I have to show you…

Flashback:

I sat on the roof of the Titans Tower and watched the sunset.

Suddenly the door opened and I heard footsteps coming towards me.

I didn't even have to turn around to see, who it was.

"Hi, Robin…" I said and looked up at him and smiled. But soon my smile vanished, when I saw the stern expression on his face.

After he said the next words, I knew it would not be a pleased conversation.

"Starfire, we have to talk!"

I blankly nodded. Robin only used our full names, when it meant business.

After he told me the situation we both were in, I was shocked.

"But…Robin, why can't we be together…as heroes and civilian persons?"

"Because of the danger we both are in…if Slade finds out-"

"Slade and the other villains already know!" I cut in.

"Star…" he sighed and stretched the back of his neck.

"Star…I ask you again. Do you still want to be my girlfriend…as Kori Anders?"

I went silent.

"No…" I hardly could whisper.

"Robin…I don´t want to play such a game…"

"And why not?! You know I like you very much!"

"And so do I…But you can't expect from me, that I do this! I am not a toy you can be with the one second and the other not!"

"You know, I would never see you like that!" he said with a slightly louder voice.

"But I think you do! I tell you something: I am not this naïve alien girl anymore! I know what happens on this world!"

"I don´t think so! You are the one who run up to people and hug them out of nowhere!"

I stood up and began to walk to the door.

"Fine! And you are an egoistic, with girls playing womanizer!" I screamed and reached the door.

"STARFIRE! If you leave the roof like this, then it's over!" he yelled.

I stopped. This sentence did not just mean him and me as boy-and girlfriend. It also meant our relationship as best friends. As friend…it firmly screams: ´We are over´

But I don´t want to be hurt, when I play something I am not….

The next thing I knew was that tears streamed down my cheeks and that I was on the other side of the door…

End Flashback…

I blinked back my tears. I was so stupid…

It still hurts so much, even if we go along well together…

We are friends again. Just friends…

I rolled over, so I could see the starry night outside my window.

Robin…or rather Nightwing now. He changed his name shortly after we broke up.

He was the reason that I am human now.

I saved him, when we were under attack.

I can still remember everything so clearly…

It happened five weeks after Robin and I broke up.

We never talked at each other at this time. We not even dared to look at each other.

Then, Slade attacked…

It was a fierce fight.

At the end, Slade aimed with a laser at Robin and I noticed it…

As fast as I could I flew in his direction and pushed him out of the way.

Instead of Robin, the laser hit me…

I still remember this horrible feeling, as my powers were tore away from me.

Then everything went black.

The next thing I knew was that I laid in the hospital wing of the tower.

There, the next calamity hit me. Tamaran, my home planet was destroyed.

My brother, Darkfire was the only one who survived.

He is now a Titan, and helps in the city.

It was a strange feeling for me to be human…to have no powers…

My friends even forbid me to fight as a hero. I wasn't allowed to be Starfire…

And for the world, Starfire died…

I gripped a cushion and nuzzled my head in it.

I was not the only one…

Nearly every Titan disappeared and we don´t now how or where. Only Bumble Bee and Speedy remained. They stayed now here in the Tower.

I knew that the others were still alive. I have a feeling in my stomach.

Or I just ate to much ice cream.

And now?

Well, I was surrounded by happy couples: Terra and Beast Boy; Cyborg and Bee; Speedy and Barbara-yes Nightwing´s other ex stays here. Even Raven found somebody…my dear brother Darkfire…

And Nightwing? Nightwing-or should I say Richard- had his civilian girlfriend-Christine-or Christy for short. Why do I blame myself? Christine was our Little Miss Perfect. A perfect body…blonde hair with bright blue eyes…which didn't mean she is stupid. This did not mean I come along well with her. In fact no one of the girls does. Her character is strange…to strange for my taste… I think our dear princess has something to hide…

And I? With my twenty-one years, I still had not any guy. What didn't mean, I don´t date. I already had many boys at my side. But no one wanted me for…, well…me. They just want my body to lie next to theirs on the bed the next morning. They just think that I am a stupid little bitch. But I am not. I did not even make it once. Yes…you heard right. I am still a virgin.

Suddenly a knock appeared at the door to my room and the voice of Tera Marcow, or just Terra, sounded from the other side of it.

"Kori! I know you are in there! Open now that dawn door!"

I rolled my eyes and got up. I opened the door, to see a certain blonde-haired woman behind it.

"Girl! Look at you! You look horrible!"

"It's nice to see you, too…"

"Can you get ready in ten minutes?"

I looked up and down on Tera. She was in a party outfit. Then it clicked.

"Girls night…" we said at the same time and laughed.

God, I love Tera like my own sister…That is why she is my very best friend.

"Can you please find something to wear for me? I go shower first…´kay?"

"Sure thing." She said and made her way in my room.

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That was the first chapter, and I hoped you liked it...

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