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Prolog
Callies POV
I am 30 years old, specialist lawyer, one of the best in LA, and my life is the biggest disappointment yet.
Many will wonder why, I'm grown up in a very respectable family.
My family consists of lawyers are several generations. For generations my family has several offices, not only in LA, all over America.
Since my birth was sure what to do once, working in the family businesses. This is certainly not the biggest problem of my family. Since my birth I am a disappointment to all, my parents, my grandparents and many others.
I was born as girl and educated, and do not get me wrong, I am in any case to 100% a girl. But I'm not a normal girl next door.
I fought for a place in my own family. As a little girl I was hiding from everything, no friends in the neighborhood, visit the nursery, unimaginable for my parents.
Since I can remember I have a nanny. And not alla Mary Poppins. No, my nanny were like the wicked stepmother from fairy tales we all know. And over the years I had a lot of it.
I learned very early that I was my best friend. So I spent most of the time in my rooms. The first big fight I had with my parents when it was time for me to go to school. My parents wanted to find a teacher and let me teach at home. My rescue at that time, not one teacher, wanted to work with a child like me.
After a very generous donation made it possible for my parents to enroll me in one of the best Catholic schools. But please believe me when I say, it was not the best time for me.
At the beginning I had major difficulties to find my way. The first few years I was the quiet retreated, rich girl who thought of everyone, I was too fine to talk with the other children. At the express wish of my parents I was never wore the normal school uniform for girls. I always wore pants, always. Only at home I was allowed to wear dresses.
On certain school events I could not attend. Certain classes were not allowed me. Swimming, for example, I was allowed just at home under the supervision of my nanny and never when guests were in the house.
So passed my first school years for me very slowly, I had no friends, in my free time I studied. I've always tried to prove to my parents that I'm not a disappointment. My performing duties at school were always perfect, but never enough for my family.
My parents, I rarely saw at that time, they were too busy with themselves. They came only from their offices, when one of my nanny had terminated or a huge party came in our house.
Parties in our house I hated. On those days we were the happy family. On these days, my father took me in his arms around me to his friends and business partners to introduce. My mother managed to force a slight smile when one of her friends talked about me.
Otherwise, I saw my parents just for the holidays and also because the whole family was present. My grandparents, aunts, uncles and everyone else. But again, everyone made me feel that I was not the normal girl. Talking with me led nobody, the only thing I always felt were their eyes. Some with disgust and others with compassion.
One of my nannys thought at the time it did a good deed and told me why I was so disappointing. But as a child I understood her words never right. In my mind were only a few words. Words that I heard over and over again, not only from my nanny. Words that had lodged in my head. These words were my whole truth.
Something changed when I got to middle school. I was still the quiet, reclusive girl but at that time I met my best and only friend. Addison Montgomery. She was that drew me from my dark corner of the classroom, and it was her with whom I could talk about anything. Addie made me realize that I was not wrong, just as I was. Addie could not be put off by my nanny, yeah I still had, and also my parents she faced herself.
And oh miracle, my parents have nothing against our friendship. What perhaps was because Addie's parents were traveling in the same circles. But it did not bother us. Our friendship was unique, definitely for me. With Addie I never had the feeling of being different from others. With Addie by my side I felt safe. Addison helped me with so many things, but most important for me were my questions about my sexuality. Knowing that I was not a normal girl who did not make it easier for me, as I found out, I felt attracted to girls.
In all the years Addison was my only real constant. She was always at my side through it, I managed to convince my parents that I no longer need a nanny. She was at my side, as I told my parents that I like girls, romantic. With her I could talk about my dreams, hopes and wishes. We went together to college, made both our financial statements as specialist lawyer with honors. Addison was at my side when again broke a relationship and Addie's the reason why I am sitting in a waiting room of a psychiatrist.
So this is my life now.
Arizonas POV
I'm wrapping the last box of my new destination: Los Angeles. I'm 30 years old and never really left this town. Some short vacations? Yeah, but it doesn't count. I went to the local University to study psychology, then I got a job in the local hospital and lived in the same town I was born. So, my point is: big step for a small city girl.
When I was younger, my plans were never to stay. But I met someone and it worth the recreation of my dreams and plans, because, sometimes, things happen for a reason. My reason at the time was my source of joy and happiness. And, suddenly, it was all gone.
I love this town. I love the life I build here, my house, my family nearby, and my folks. I lived the best and some of the worst days of my life here, this place is important to me, it helped to make who I am today; but then comes a point in life that you have to let it go.
This house walls have so many memories. This was our safe place. I can play every moment in my head that I came home after a long day of work and the food smell was all over the place, our laughs on late night conversations or our lazy Sunday mornings, where I got plenty time to feel her smooth skin and her perfume on the pillow.
The opportunity came to change the miserable days I've been living in the past six months. Some days are better than others, although, the emptiness is always present and I don't want to be consumed by my own sadness. I know she wouldn't be happy to know it, to see me not smiling like I used to, not enjoying life like I used to do.
So, when Teddy Altman called me to be part of her clinic team, I didn't hesitate to say yes. I know her since we were kids; the difference is that Teddy could never settle down in this town, even if she met someone, she wanted the world, and she got it. As soon as she heard what happened, she came back to see me and offered me to go to L.A with her.
That was not the moment, though; I couldn't leave this house we once called home. The walls there once were so warm became completely cold, the bed was empty, and there were no laughs, no music, and no smelling food. It was just me and my sorrow.
I feel like it's time for me to remake my life and bring back my teenage dreams; it's never late to do that. New beginning means new adventures, and that's what I want, something to make me feel alive again. Might take some time, yet I know L.A can bring me such joy.
I already said goodbye to my parents, with lots of tears and hugs. Tim was waiting for me outside to take me to the city and to the airport, he's the person I'm gonna miss the most. He watches my back since we were kids and the thought of having me away scares him, I can read in his eyes.
"Ya ready, sis?" Tim greets from his truck, putting my last bag in the back.
"Yes, I'm ready." I close the door behind me, locking my memories and everything what this house once represented. I'm not forgetting, just letting it go, so I can move forward. I have to walk with my own legs. And the sensation to start over, having my best friend with me, feels great, feels free, and feels right.