Jeff Hardy walled into the arena for Raw that night, pulling his blue and purple hair back into a bun. He sighed as he started doing a few arm stretches on his way to the locker room. This was going to be his first show in a long, long time. He had just recently been suspended to sort out his drug addictions, but Jeff felt better than ever and ready to get back to wrestling. Of course, he wasn't so sure how the other guys would react. Jeff had been watching recently to familiarize himself with who was around right now, and one person who really caught his eye was CM Punk. So much so, he actually started developing a little crush on Punk. Or, a massive crush on Punk, but it didn't matter. He knew Punk was straightest, so he'd be surprised if Punk would even talk to him at this point. Even though Jeff had been clean for a while, he knew Punk had to know about his history. When Jeff walked into the locker room, he was immediately squeezed into the arms of an old friend. Jeff chuckled and smiled as John Cena pulled away from him. John had been his right hand man the last few years of his career. How they actually became friends, neither of them had any idea, but they were always down to party with each other.

Jeff's friendship with John had fizzled a little over his suspension. John always wanted to talk about parties and sex, and Jeff wasn't actually experiencing any of that during his time off. Now that Jeff was back though, he was sure they'd be just as close as they used to be in no time.

"How are you?" said John, turning away to pull his newest t-shirt on. Jeff could never keep track of which shirt it was this time, the colors changed as often as his hair.

"Great," said Jeff, looking around the locker room. It didn't look like much had changed. Everyone seemed just as messy as usual. "I hear someone' dating a Bella twin now."

"Yep! Nikki," said John.

"Ah, sweet," said Jeff, taking a seat next to John's bag. He wasn't technically back on the show yet. Jeff was just here to get back into the feel of things, discuss last minute contract details, and say hi to everyone.

"Who are you sleeping with these days?" asked John.

"Okay, one, I'm not like you, I don't just sleep with people," said Jeff playfully. "And two, I haven't dated anyone since I left."

John smirked. "Yeah yeah, dating, sleeping with, same thing. And really, not since Trish?"

"Nope," said Jeff. His relationship with the blonde Canadian bombshell quickly ended after he left. It was never that serious to begin with, and Jeff found himself finding an interest in… other things.

"Have you talked to her at all since you broke up?" said John.

"Not really," said Jeff.

"Well, this is gonna be awkward," said John.

"What?" said Jeff.

"She's my tag partner tonight," said John.

"You're kidding? She's here?" said Jeff.

"She is," said John. "You should talk to her. Who knows, there might be something to rekindle there."

"I dunno, John," said Jeff.

"What's stopping you?" said John.

'Maybe the fact that I'm gay,' thought Jeff. "Nothing. I'll see if I can find her later."

"Good, everyone needs a little lady luck in their lives," said John, heading for the door. "I'll see you later."

"Yeah, bye," said Jeff, biting his lip after John left. It's not like Trish was bad or anything, but he just wasn't into it anymore. He didn't know if he was ever into it in the first place. Jeff felt his breath hitch as CM Punk walked into the locker room. Punk looked over at Jeff and smiled. "Oh hey, you're Jeff Hardy right?"

"Yeah," said Jeff, clearing his throat and feeling his hand subconsciously go to his hair.

"It's so cool to meet you, I used to watch you all the time. You're an awesome wrestler," said Punk, setting his bag down.

"Oh, thank you," said Jeff, with a small, awkward chuckle. He saw Punk take his shirt off and toss it aside, and Jeff's heart immediately began racing. 'Fuck he's even hotter in person.' "Well, I'm gonna go say hi to everyone."

"Alright, I'll see you around," said Punk. Jeff caught a glance of Punk sliding his pants down before he left. He leant against the wall with a groan before walking to catering. 'Well, it went better than expected,' thought Jeff. 'I doubt he's gay though, and it's not like he'd like me if he was.' When he got there he was immediately greeted by Christian, giving Jeff a hug.

Jeff chuckled. "Good to see you too."

"How've you been?" said Christian.

"I've been good, anything change here?" said Jeff.

"Vince is really cracking down these days," said Christian. "You make one mistake out there and he's on your ass for an hour. I swear I feel like I'm in the military."

"Yeah, that's Vince," said Jeff. He looked over at the dining tables and saw Trish eating with some of the divas. 'Oh, she's brunette now,' thought Jeff. He'd be a liar of he said that didn't look good on her.

Christian followed Jeff's glance and smirked. "Someone has a crush."

"I do not," said Jeff. "I just haven't seen her in a while. It's awkward."

"Well, don't let me stand in your way," said Christian, walking past Jeff and giving him a gentle nudge in Trish's direction.

Jeff rolled his eyes and looked over at Trish again. He debated walking over for a while before just walking to guerrilla position to wait for John to get back. Jeff sighed as he leant against the wall. He did miss having a relationship. Having someone to hold, someone to love. 'Maybe I do still have at least some feelings for her,' thought Jeff, looking back towards catering.

John walked backstage and over to Jeff. "Yo! You talk to her yet?"

"No," said Jeff.

"Dude, she's right over there. Don't be shy," said John.

"I'm not, I'm just waiting for the right time," said Jeff, following John as he walked back to the locker room.

"Buck up, grow a pair," said John, ruffling Jeff's hair.

"You know I don't like that," said Jeff, fixing his hair and giving John a small glare.

"Talk to her at the party tonight," said John, as they walked into the locker room.

"What party?" said Jeff.

"Like half the roster is going to the club," said John. "It'll be fun."

Jeff bit his lip. Parties were still a risky situation for him, especially with him just getting back. He didn't want to do anything to blow this chance. "Um, I'm pretty tired."

"But you love parties," said John.

"I'm just not feeling it tonight," said Jeff.

"Well, alright," said John. "I guess I'll see you tomorrow."

"Yeah, have fun," said Jeff, as John left. He sighed and left for the parking lot. Right before he left he debated going to the party, but decided to just head to his hotel. 'We have weight training in the morning anyways,' said Jeff. 'I can't show up hangover to that.' When he got to his room he flopped on the bed and sighed, staring at the ceiling. 'Trish is nice, we had fun, it wouldn't be that bad to date her again. And I'd be dating her again…' He sighed and just let his eyes close, trying to get some sleep.

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