Glee, Rachel Berry after graduating.
New York
I'm still shocked. I miss Finn so much, and how could her just leave me? I wake up every morning just wanting him to be lying next to me, to hear his voice and feel his lips. . . I can't believe that I'm here, without him. . . I cry constantly and scream. I feel like Bella Swan after Edward left her. This is horrible only bright thing in my life is NYADA, but that is starting to dim now.
NYADA is going great in all but, It's weird. . I'm just a swaying figure in the back. I jump at every chance for a solo (like always) but I'm never picked. The talent here is not quite, NYADA material it seems. Kurt would have been better here.
There is this girl, Kathryn LaHood, she thinks she is so good, like she is a product of Barbra (which she totally isn't). I don't possibly see how she got in. She has very raw talent, and is not good, like she hasn't hit puberty. It's so annoying!
I'm constantly talking to Quinn. She said Yale is going good. She has already been pick for a practice type internship. She told me some really big news, Puck and her are in a relationship again. There was a part of me that expected that but yet another said 'not in a million years'.
Finn and I hardly talk anymore. He is in training for the Army. The other day he said he nearly broke his leg (as if that would comfort me). . I told him I was sorry, that's it.
I almost sent him the first day I was here in New York, this letter,
"You made me get on this train! You made me leave you! I love you SO much and I want you with me. You broke my heart, you made me so sad. Made me actually think about hating you! Finn I'm so in Love with you, I'm worried about you, about us. I have really nothing more to say"
Instead I sent the usual, how are you? Hope everything is going well. . . I wasn't sure really what else to say, I was still heart broken. . I still am. . .