The secret side of me, I never let you see
I keep it caged but I can't control it
So stay away from me, the beast is ugly
I feel the rage and I just can't hold it
He wasn't always an outlaw. He was… different, once. Like them. But then… the day his mother was killed… Something snapped inside him. The rage was insatiable. He didn't like to interact with people anymore, not since then. Unless of course it was a gunfight. But the anger, the hurt… It had been building, toiling and turning inside him without end. It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls
It comes awake and I can't control it
Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?
It wouldn't go away – it preferred to stick around and taunt him, bounce around his mind. When he lost his tail, he had a gun placed on it, the same day he became an outlaw. But it wasn't his choice. No, he hated it. He wished it would leave him be, but it wouldn't.
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster
He was horrified at the things he'd done when he thought about them. Killing innocent people, and for what? Fame and glory. It wasn't worth the bloodshed. I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
Yes, he felt like a monster. And the townsfolk saw him as one, too. He knew they did – the horrified faces, the way they tried to hide away from him. They were all giveaways. My secret side I keep hid under lock and key
I keep it caged but I can't control it
'Cause if I let him out he'll tear me up, break me down
Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?
So he hid his past away, safe under the rough exterior of his reputation of an outlaw, bloodthirsty and cold. Unbreakable. Where no one would see his pain and scars. But it was still there, an ugly reminder of what he had become. I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
If only he could take it all back…
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
Just beneath the rough scales of his body, a storm brewed… A tossing, turning, brewing storm that grew worse with every gunfight. He just couldn't escape it. It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp
There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart
No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream
Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster
Oh, if only it was just a dream! Then he could wake up and be rid of this madness. He could start over; make a new name for himself. He wouldn't be the monster that everyone knew he was. I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster
But it wouldn't happen. He was a monster, and the whole world probably knew it. I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I've gotta lose control, he something radical
I must confess that I feel like a monster
Yes, he had to admit it to himself… I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
I, I feel like a monster
He was a monster.