Yuri on Ice's characters don't belong to me.
Chapter 1: Sorry, grandpa
The door was hit furiously. His green eyes were semi closed, while he took a look at the punch marks of his fist, his hands were shaking against the metal. He didn't know why was the reason he was there, what did he powered to keep on that way. The Europe Final was settled on Moscow and he, after placed in fifth position, returned to the same steps he was on six years ago when he chased Yuuri Katsuki.
And there he was, in front to the same locker where he had confronted that japanese guy when he was leaving the Junior Category. It was ridiculous being in those shoes right now, longing for hiding there and breaking into tears like an idiot. It was ridiculous wanted to meet him right now and being brave enough, taking into his arms and telling him: "I understand".
Yuri Plisetsky, and his Short Program mark, although being one of the best of the world and the youngest winner in the Grand Prix Final Series, felt as he was broken into pieces.
And he was only 21 years old.
The pony tail, which was holding up his golden hair, was almost undone as he grasped his teeth. With his fists now side to side of his body he was unsure if succumbing was a good idea. Yakov had spoken no word, no scold. Silence more than a support, felt just like pity. He wanted to be scolded, be challenged. He wanted to feel like being spited out in the face as the loser he was in that moment.
No consideration, no indulgence. He understood now: he didn't know how to lose.
"Yuri."
He heard a known voice, and barely moved his face in order to look between his blond bunch blond of hair to his friend's boots. Otabek stood there, his hands into his pockets. He was there to support Mila, who he had being into a relationship since three years ago, and also to support him. Mila had achieved gold in the female division and now she had a new medal for Russia. He, he has nothing.
He didn't notice when tears began running down his cheeks. He squeezed his lips impotently and felt, although he tried, he was showing himself as a lame duck. Otabek sighed and got close to him. No matter what, he was still a young boy, who had just turned 21 years old, and who had passed through so much after had earned his first gold medal of the Grand Prix. Otabek was also growed up, not as much as the Russian instead. Additionally, he achieved to earn some gold medals since his first Grand Prix Final.
As a kind of support, Otabek gave him his handkerchief. Yuri took it carefully and dried his face in intent to recover his composure.
"I think my eyes aren't the same as the soldiers, are they?" He said trying to joke, pretending laughing of his own misery.
"You are a proud soldier"
Otabek hadn't lost the capacity of calming him down. Changing the way he was thinking of himself, as the trash he thought he was just being by his side. He was able to reassure him, to cheer him up… sometimes, he felt envy of Mila, however, he had rather not to think about what was the main reason why he felt envy just not to feel more hurt.
He felt his strong palm in his back and he finally aimed for some air. He look for one more time that metal door where six years ago, Yuuri Katsuki was hiding for crying. As if just giving one kick, he could see that tearful figure pretending to show that nothing had happened in there.
Just like that wall was gross enough to tuck away his wasted talent.
"Yuri." He heard one more time his words and smile nostalgically "What happened?"
"Nothing…"
He turned and looked at his best friend, calmer as before. It was a waste keeping on the idea that he was the loser, it was better finding a new way to win. He left with him to finally see the award ceremony. Otabek stayed at his side while he saw a spanish taking the gold medal which now it was his, with Michele and a swiss competitor at his side. Rumor has it, that was the last season of the Italian skater, same rumor had been said before with Viktor and then he left to Hasetsu. He didn't believe in any of them anymore because he saw in Michele the desire of keep competing.
They saw Mila got closer to them when they were walking for the corridor. She didn't find them in nowhere, so she was worried. She immediately noticed Yuri's mood, who was crestfallen and didn't give back to see her. So, she decided to betake him, and hugged him as soon as she had him close enough. He wasn't a kid anymore; she had to stand on tiptoe in order to hug him properly.
"I don't want you to be sad, ok? It was just a bad season." She smile and took his face. Mila had changed too. Yuri thought Otabek had been such a good influence to her because she had now that "maternal air" in her that reminded him to Yuko. Although she wasn't his real mother. "Yet you have Nationals and the World Champion."
"I don't know if race…"
"Yuri!" Mila exclaimed shocked and Otabek look at him steadily. Yuri had a huge desolation in his face, like he was going under. He didn't believe his results improve just some weeks after, and he didn't want to feel crushed again.
He didn't want to give to the press a reason to point his faults, comparing him with Viktor's achieves.
"If I want my next season to be a better season, I need to focus…" answered clenching fists. "I'll talk to Yakov about it…"
Mila try to convince him to not abandon the season, but Otabek preferred keep in silence. With his eyes fixed on him, he felt a deep feeling of impotence as he didn't know a way to help him to recover himself. It was so evident, Yuri had lost himself, since Yuuri Katsuki's retire and his grandpa's death, Yuri had lost much more than people was able to see.
They decided to keep walking and didn't stop to talk to the press. Yuri took his backpack and collected everything, with the intent of not look at his comrades. He carried his backpack on his back and turned, still his hair holding up, to the ice rink. He wanted to feel that adrenalin while skating again, that desire to conquer the world. He wanted to leave apart the feeling of losing the meaning of skate, although his whole life had been dedicated to skate.
Anyway, they celebrated that night, because they didn't have to disregard Mila's victory. The whole team enjoyed her triumph in a restaurant; they talk cheerfully with themselves, and stayed very late. Yakov had rather to leave early, he was exhausted. Mila and Otabek followed Yuri when he also decided to rest.
Moscow filled him with nostalgia. It hurt breath in its air and walk through its streets covered by snow. It hurt see its black sky and remember the times his grandpa took him home after training. His face full of proud and his tired hands making dinner and preparing him to sleep. It hurt remember every time he slept by his side all curled up, every time he hugged him at night, every time he called him and he cheered up just because he listened to him.
"Yuri" the advance that the woman could have made was disrupted by Otabek, who placed his hand in her arm in order she didn't approach him.
Yuri had stopped in the middle of a snow bridge, looking at nothing while his cheeks were filled with tears again. Moscow was like a stake in his chest that wouldn't stop bleeding.
"I'm sorry, grandpa… I lost again"
One month after, the World Championship was settled in Shangai. After the defeat in Moscow he discussed with Yakov and then decided to stop his season, so Yuri would be able to focus on resolving what was stopping to shine as he did before. His body had changed, now he understood the exigency he had when the flexibility wasn't his best ally anymore. He wasn't able to achieve any of his jumps, and he wasn't able to concentrate enough in performance which low the quality of his programs.
Georgie, interested in helping to improve for the new season coming, offered Yuri to choreograph his new routines. Yuri wasn't sure if would accept, however he admitted it was one of the best offers he had at this moment. Lilia might also be a help, but she was abroad since a couple of years. She had been offered such a heavy proposal in which she would be able to lead one of the best ballet schools in the world and, of course, she didn't decline it.
Regardless, Yuri hadn't been absent to practice and he still looking at that stunted, black haired with green eyes guys, who was the new sensation in Russia. A fourteen years old dwarf, very talented who was born in a known family of figure skaters. He can look something of him in that boy, but he didn't like the idea of thinking of him as a replacement. He still must be at the top, still there even before retire completely, maybe at the age of 32 years old.
"Yuri! It began!"
A comrade pointed him the beginning of the World Championship free program. Otabek was competing at that moment, expecting to earn his second gold medal for Kazakhstan. Yuri hurried and enter to the dining, where more people was expecting the beginning of the programmation. He sat down thinking about Mila and Yakov, who were there disputing a gold medal for Russia, there was no one in the male division to do it, though.
There were very known faces at that Mundial. The favorite was that spanish skater, who had won in the World Champion, Michele seemed minded to be victorious and Otabek surely didn't give up, of course. From Asia, was Guang who expect to hold back the medal in home, after improving through the years to become in one of the most talented skaters of China, and represented Japan there was Minami, who still in the senior division after six years.
Each routine showed what was each of them made. Michele showed his great steep sequence again and jumps with high scores. Although his sister had to take a break after a fall, he continue competing in figure skating. Guang had an own style now, and had left trusting in whatever his couches recommend him on what his routine would look like and make his own. The mellowness and artistic beauty de Guang helped to hide the absence of very complicated jumps, left his programs with high scores.
Otabek and his originality, taken into account by the judges, shone again. His marvelous performance accompanied by Brahms took the audience ovation and more than one stand up to cheer him. However, Minami make the scenario his. His fresh and risky style made all his fans scream excitedly while he accomplished his jumps and pirouettes. Yuri could see more than one think he remind him of Yuuri. The way he moved, his devoted steps overflowing talent. It could been breathed what reminded him about Yuuri and he feel furious internally.
Of course, he had knew who he was. At the beginning of the last season he said he wanted to achieve as much as Yuuri have done. When he placed sixth at GPF, instead of getting down, he said he felt happy just for being there, the same place Yuuri got on his first GPF. He won Nationals one more time and placed fifth at Four Continents. In this new season, he achieved a second place on the GPF (which Yuri didn't classified), third on Four Continents and now he was on the podium.
His theme was called "gratitude" and his routine yelled it in each move. Guang unseated Michele the second place and Otabek was first without any effort. Minami was fourth just some tenths separated him from bronze. Yuri clenched fists.
He should have been there, he should have been fighting for the gold with otabek next to him. He should have spit on Minami's face that he never ever would shine as much as Yuuri did. He should have been there living the ice as he used to.
Frustrated, he decided to not see anymore of the event and went home. He only answered a couple of messages to Mila and Otabek congratulate them for her bronze and gold respectively. He look at the sky, the sea which caressed St. Petersburg and some seagulls was flying in the sunset. He squeezed his lips.
Meanwhile, in Shangai, Otabek look how Guang approached Minami and smiled content. The event was over and after the medal ceremony the enclosure was getting empty. There were some journalist waiting for them outside and a press conference was scheduled for the three first places. Otabek didn't like taking part in such events, but he had to. Guang and Minami waved hands in sign of fellowship and then leaded their gaze to him. Both of them got closed while he was thinking the best way of denying a probable invitation.
"As usual, It's very funny compete against you, Otabek" greeted Guang adorably just as him. Leo was right to say Guang was one of the most fragile and gentle people in the figure skating world.
"Thank you"
"Right now, my family is going to celebrate a banquette, I would like you to join us"
"No. I have another engagement, but I appreciate the invitation"
"Minami" They turned to see a recognized japanese journalist approached the skater of his same country. Minami still had his blond dyed hair, as usual, but now he also had some violet strands. "Tell me, What are your plans for the new season? Everyone in Japan support you and wish you to do your best!"
"I'm actually believe my next season will be the best if I accomplish my wish to be true"
"Your wish? Could we know what is your wish about?"
"No, it's yet a surprise. But I'm pretty sure if come true everyone will be very very happy!"
Although he didn't find any relevant, Otabek didn't lose any detail of the conversation until he listen to Guang's soft sigh. He was smiling sweetly again, as he know what was Minami talking about.
"I hope it can" was muttered by the chinese skater drawing the attention of Otabek. His natural reaction would be leaving, but even him didn't know what thrusted him to ask.
"What?" Guang look at him and then smiled.
In St. Petersburg, another televisor turned off after watched the end of the season. Walls covered of medals, prizes, achieves accomplished through 20 years of live dedicated to skate and in his bookcase different photographs of his comrade, that who never abandoned him until its last breath. That whom never could replace.
On the table was only some instant soup, he was in slippers and nobody's home.
Akira says: Hi! I have decided to write this fic which came up as one of the preliminary ideas for another event, but he ended being so big in my mind, so I decided write it for my own. I don't feel like thinking in a AU of Yuri on Ice, precisely because I need more of them as skaters, so this story is like a future hypothetical view. Surely I will be mentioned some things about the series through this fic.
I guess Kubo, surely will not add so much drama to the second season, 'cause she want us to focus in figure skating as a sport, but in my mind lots of things said by the characters are a potential future drama.
Thanks to everyone who dare to read this story
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