Hi! So this is my new attempt to try to write my story "All of the Stars" all over again. I wasn't happy about the way it all turned out, and I've tried so many times, to redo it, but I just get discourage, but I want to try again. If I can't get it right this time, then it's not meant to be.
But I'm not giving up yet. For those who have read my story before, will for sure recognize a lot in my story that I'm keeping just the same, but I felt this story going in the completely wrong direction, that the story didn't feel like mine anymore, and that I needed to please and do what others told me to do. So I want to do this my way, and not because others want it to go a different way. I've changed a lot when it comes to my writing, and I realize, that, even though I write for you, I also write for me.
So, please let me know if you like this version of this story as well, because I really want this to be an even better one.
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You're mine tonight, now I've got
You in my sight, with these
Hungry Eyes
"When someone you love dies, and you're not expecting it, you don't lose her all at once; you lose her in pieces over a long time—the way the mail stops coming, and her scent fades from the pillows and even from the clothes in her closet and drawers. Gradually, you accumulate the parts of her that are gone. Just when the day comes—when there's a particular missing part that overwhelms you with the feeling that she's gone, forever—there comes another day, and another specifically missing part."
― John Irving, A Prayer for Owen Meany
July 2009.
I finally feel numb...
I drunkenly stumbled out of my bathroom, trying to figure out why the threshold was place exactly where my stupid parents put it when they built me my own room after my brother was born.
Being drunk was the only way to dull the pain I've held in my heart, ever since my parents died. I'm only 17, going on 18 next week, and just finished my junior year in high school and shouldn't be drinking. But hey, who cares right? I certainly do not.
I looked at the picture on my nightstand; it was a picture of me with my parents and the one-year younger little sister of mine.
Perfect little Elena.
Everyone loves her, even after everyone knows that if she hadn't called mom and dad to come get her from that stupid party, I asked her not to go to, my parents would still be here and I wouldn't have to feel like this. I felt disgusted by it all, the guilt, the anger, the sadness, and wanted no more than to end it all. I felt the anger rise in my body and all of my senses became extremely agitated. I picked up the frame, threw it against the wall in pure anger, and then trashed my room.
When the silence came over me, and I broke down in tears, I looked down at the shattered glass, lying there all around me. I missed my parents so much. Maybe it would all get better, if I just let go?
I watched as the glass cut through my skin, but I didn't feel the pain at all. I only felt relief. Maybe I got to see my parents again, I thought through my tears.
"Sarah! What are you doing?!" My aunt Jenna came crashing through the door with my dear little sister on her tail.
"What does it look like?" I said and picked up the bloodied glass one more time, putting it against my other wrist.
"I`m trying to end it all." I said and cut my wrist as quickly as I could.
The blood was going everywhere and the next thing I knew, Jenna held me tightly in her arms, as she tried to stop the bleeding. I gave up trying to get away from her and sobbed uncontrollably. Jenna weren't able to calm me down but my brother, Jeremy, could.
He managed to get Aunt Jenna to call 911, and they rushed me to the hospital. Everything was such a blur, but all I knew is that I didn't want to see either Jenna or Elena. Jeremy sat with me for hours not wanting to leave me and I finally fell asleep, exhausted from crying my eyes out. The last thing I heard was;
"I will always be there for you Sarah. No matter what." Jeremy whispered and kissed my forehead.
The next morning, I woke up in the hospital room, with a dull ache in my wrists where the glass went through, and to the whispers of my family talking to the doctor.
"She can't stay here anymore. It's not safe for either of us. We can't handle her anymore." I heard aunt Jenna said, and it made me feel like a liability to them.
"I agree. She needs help. She can't go on like this." I heard Elena say, because she didn't want to have a sister that was such a mess and unstable like I was.
"Is there something you can do?" I heard Jenna ask the doctor.
"There is a facility in Denver, that may be able to help her. They offer education, so she could keep up with her senior year in high school." The doctor answered, and that was when my brother spoke up.
"You can't just send her away. She's our sister and she needs us." He argued back.
"She just tried to kill herself in front of us, Jeremy and you know her history. She's been depressed before, and losing our parents only brought that on even stronger." Elena tried to reason with her little brother. He was only nearly 16. He didn't understand as much as she did. Or so she thought. She didn't even realize that I could hear everything they talked about.
"This is the best for her and we need to this now because the minute she turns 18, she can decide for herself." The doctor told them, trying to get them to admit like a crazy person.
"But won't she leave the minute she turns 18?" Aunt Jenna asks.
"If we admit her now, the treatment will be binding for 7 months." Jenna and Elena nodded but Jeremy refused.
"I really don't like this. What if it was I who reacted like this? I know for sure that I wouldn't want to be separated from my own family, when they needed me the most. This is bullshit!" Jeremy exclaimed, and walked into my room, leaving the other three behind. He could see that I was awake and closed the door quickly.
"Hey. You're awake, finally." He said and hurried over to the bed giving me a hug. He was careful not to come in contact with my bandages. I hugged him back carefully.
"How are you feeling?" He asked me but I didn't want to answer that at all, and just stared out on my so-called family.
"They are talking about me, aren't they? They want me gone." I whispered quietly. Jeremy didn't want to answer me.
"They want to send me away." I stated more than asked.
"I don't want you to go, but Aunt Jenna is in charge and she says it's for the best even though I don't agree." Jeremy answered, and stroked my hair.
"I don't want to go, Jeremy. Please, don't make me." I said with a pleading voice. That was when the door opened, the others came in, and they told about what was going to happen. I didn't want to go quietly, and started screaming and refused them of getting closer to me. I threw stuff at them, and told them how much I hated them. Elena started to cry and left the room, because she couldn't handle me acting like this. What would her friends think?
Sadly, I couldn't stop anything from happening, and already two days later, I was discharged from the hospital, and my uncle John came and picked me up. He was the only one besides Jeremy I wanted to see, and he drove me to the facility in Denver. During my last two days in Mystic Falls, I didn't see or talked to any of my friends, and I didn't know why.
Uncle John and Jeremy helped me set up my small room at the facility. They both promised me that they would visit me every weekend. When they finally left, I was all by myself in a place where I didn't know anyone, far away from my family and friends. How was I going to get through this without them? That night, I cried myself to sleep.
Present day.
Six and a half months later
I was brought out of the memory of how I ended up in this place sitting on the brown couch in the psychiatrist office, fiddling with my hands, looking at my lap. I hated telling someone about how it was back then.
"Have you dreamed about those days a lot lately?" My psychologist asked me and I forced myself to look at him. Not that he was bad to look at.
"I think so. At least for the last few days. I keep thinking about how it's been so long since I've been back home, and how long it's been since I've seen my family and friends." I said with a sigh.
"I thought you were close with your brother and uncle." The doctor stated, looking through his papers.
"Well, you're relatively new here, and to answer your question: Yes, I am close to them, but I haven't seen them or heard from my uncle since before Christmas, and I haven`t seen Jeremy since right before Halloween." I told him.
"I got a card from my uncle, and some gifts just before Christmas but that's it." I said and looked at the doctor, sitting opposite me. He was handsome for sure, with his gorgeous eyes and handsome smile. And don't forget about the British accent. For the last two months, this man had been my doctor, because I scared all the others away, and he has managed in those two months, more than any other doctors could do. I had opened up, and I started to heal, slowly. I felt comfortable around him, and he made it easy to talk to him.
"How about your Aunt Jenna, and your younger sister Elena?" He asked looking at their names in my files.
"I haven't seen them since I threw them out of the hospital room when I tried to kill myself last July." I said and looked down at my wrists.
The scars were visible, they had a pinkish color, and I felt disgusted by them now and pulled my sweater down my arms. My doctor noticed, but decided not to ask me about them today.
"Do you feel any anger about not hearing from your family?" He asked as he scribbled on his notepad.
"I don't feel that much anger anymore, only hurt and left with a lot of questions." I said.
"Such as?"
"I know that it was a reason they did this, but I keep wondering why they didn't at least try to contact me. Send a letter or an email, something just to let them know that they're there. I'm left with the questions; Do they hate me for what I did? Do they miss me or think about me at all? How are my friends doing? And things like that." I said wiping away a tear that escaped my eye.
My doctor looked at me as if he wanted to drop everything, and keep me safe, telling me that everything would be okay. But he controlled himself, and took a deep breath.
"I don't think that they hate you for what you did but maybe they are afraid of the thought of losing you." The doctor said, and I felt my heart skip a beat, trying to see if it was a hidden meaning behind his words.
"Well, they have a strange way of showing it." I muttered under my breath. My doctor could see that I was struggling with the terms of my family, and changed the subject.
"So, how is school going?" He asked me.
"Well, I have a good point average but it seems like I have to spend 6 months in high school back home because of the lack of P.E in this place." I said shrugging.
"That's good that you're keeping up with your academics. How do you feel about moving back home and attend your old high school?"
"I think everything will be different, but kind of nice too. I just hope I can take the pressure of dealing with all the drama they made me leave behind. Seeing my ex-boyfriend again." I thought back at when I broke things off with Tyler Lockwood. He is one-year younger than me but that didn't stop us from seeing each other. He was my first love but when my parents died, we became distant and we broke up a month after my parents died.
"And I'm dreading seeing my parents' grave again. I don't think I'm ready to see it yet." I said looking up at him. Oh, those gorgeous eyes of his!
"You have to do things at your own speed. You should take control over your own life and take things gradually. Do not overdo things. Take it slow, and as far as your ex-boyfriend goes; He's a fool to not take you back. You're too beautiful to let go." When he said that, my heartrate picked up. I couldn't understand how he could say things like that to a patient. He was my doctor for crying out loud! I was going to reply that comment but our time was out for the day.
"Well then, Ms. Gilbert. I believe we a scheduled for a new appointment in three days' time and that will be our second to last before you're leaving." My doctor said as he closed his notebook. I stood up at the same time he did, and he reached out for my hand.
"Seen you then, Dr. Smith." I said shaking his hand. I didn't want to admit it, but it sent shivers down my spine, and I could get lost in those eyes of his. That man knew how to make a girl blush that's for sure and it didn't hurt that he was good-looking but he was my therapist in the end and I knew that. That doesn't mean a girl can't dream right.
I returned to my room, trying to figure out how was going to move all of my stuff out of here, without getting help from anyone. How was I going to do this? I decided to think about that later, and sat down reading a book. It's easier to forget my problems, when I can get lost in another world. A knock on my door, dragged me out of the world of werewolves and vampires and I jumped up and opened the door. The leader of the facilities stood there and she gave me a worried look.
"Hello Dr. Martin is there something wrong?" I asked her with concern in my voice.
"Good afternoon Sarah. May I come in?" She asked and I opened the door wider. Dr. Martin sat down in one of my chairs.
"What's going on?" I asked.
"Sarah, I just got a phone call from the sheriff's department back in Mystic Falls telling me that your uncle and one of your friends have had an accident and is in the hospital." She said seriously and I felt my heart clench.
"Are they, all right?" I asked with tears in my eyes.
"I don't know anymore, but your family will need you to come home and since you only have another two weeks left here, you're allowed to go if you wish too." She told me and I didn't have to think twice about it. I wanted to go right now.
"I have to go back home." I said panicky.
"I though you would say that and that's why we've arranged with the movers to take your things back already today and there's a car with your name on it outside. I jumped up from my seat and hugged her.
"Thank you, Dr. Martin." I whispered happily. I know I didn't owe my family anything, since I haven't heard from them in months, but all in all, they're still my family.
"You've earned it, Sarah. You've come a long way in these last few months and I'm so glad to see the woman that you've become. I wish you all the best." Dr. Martin told me and with that, I started packing a few of my things in a bag.
"And remember that if you should ever need us, we're only just a phone call away." She added and it felt good to have someone to fall back on. And I would for sure miss my time with the therapist, but my family was more important.
Everything happened so quickly and before I knew it, I was standing by the front desk discharging myself from the facility. I did get some papers and I got my own therapist back in Mystic Falls that I had to make appointments with, once I got back. I also got my prescriptions for my medication before I hugged everyone goodbye. I was a little scared of going all by myself, so one of the doctors, James Linn drove with me the few hours back to Mystic Falls. It felt good in one way but mostly because now I could finally confront my so-called family.
When I finally reached Mystic Falls Hospital, I ran out of the car and through the doors before James even could get out of the car.
"Sarah, wait for me!" He shouted after me but I didn't listen. I ran to the front desk out of breath.
"Excuse me, but I'm looking for John Gilbert." I told the nurse.
"Are you family?" She asked not looking up from the computer.
"I`m his niece, Sarah Gilbert." I told her quickly.
"He's in recovery, but he's sleeping right now." She said when James caught up with me.
"Are you ok?" James asked me.
"As soon as I can see my uncle then yes." I said looking at him.
"Sarah?" I heard from behind me. I looked up, and saw the local sheriff.
"Sheriff Forbes. What are you doing here?" I asked and walked closer to her.
"It's so good to see you." She said and hugged me tight.
"Liz, tell me what's going on here?" I pleaded her, and I knew something was wrong, because she looked like she was going to cry.
"It's Caroline. She's in surgery. She, Matt and Tyler where in a car accident and it's not looking good." She said, as she started crying. I held on tightly, not wanting to let the woman go.
"There's more." Liz told me.
"There was a fire in your father's old practice tonight, after the parade. Mayor Lockwood is dead." Liz told me, and I thought I would fall to the ground. The mayor was dead, John and Caroline was in the hospital. What the hell is going on? I thought. James could see my facial expressions and made his way over to us.
"Maybe you should go home to your house, Sarah. This could be too much for you." He tried to say.
"I`m not going anywhere." I snapped at him. "There's no way in hell I will leave this hospital.
"I have to make sure that you are being taken good care of." James argued back.
"She's fine with me. I'll take responsibility for her until her aunt gets here." Liz told him and he nodded. James gave me a hug.
"Remember that if you need us, you know who to call." He said in my ear.
"Thank you for everything." I told him a little sadly.
"Also, can you tell Dr. Smith that I`m sorry I`ll miss the last two sessions with him?" I asked.
"I`ll make sure he knows." James said before leaving me behind with Liz.
I was standing with her signing some papers when a man approached us and I had to admit he looked good with his raven hair and icy blue eyes.
"Liz. I came as soon as I got the message. Is she ok?" He asked and he looked concerned.
"She's still in surgery. They`re doing everything they can." Liz told him. The man looked quickly at me. Measuring me up and down.
" I`m Damon, and who are you, charming girl?" He said taking my hand kissing it. God what a sleaze ball. But oh, so good looking.
"My name is Sarah…" I said, but then the nurse interrupted us.
"Ms. Gilbert. You`re uncle's awake now. He wishes to see you." She told me.
"Thank you. Can you show me the way?" I asked the nurse and she nodded. I turned towards Liz again.
"Come and find me when you hear anything ok?" I said to her and quickly glanced at Damon who looked like he was trying to figure me out before I walked down the hall after the nurse, wanting to see John. I opened the door and walked in. I looked at my uncle and he didn't look so good and I let out a little sob. It made him open his eyes slowly.
"Hey, pumpkin." He said hoarsely and I walked over to the bed.
"Hey, Uncle John." I said taking his un-injured hand in mine.
"I know you have every excuse not to come visit me but don't you think this is a little extreme?" I said with a little humor.
"It's nice to see you in such good shape Sarah and I'm sorry that I didn't visit you these last couple of months." He said weakly.
"It's ok John. You`re not the one I`m most upset with. It's my other family I'm most hurt by." I said kissing his forehead.
"Not to worry. I'm home for good." I said smiling at him.
Elena's p.o.v
So much has happened tonight and I don't understand how all of this is happening. John was apparently my biological father, and he was stabbed, and Caroline's in the hospital after a car accident. I ran into the hospital trying to find my friend, Bonnie. I found her at the front desk.
"Bonnie, how's Caroline?" I asked worried.
"She's weak. They don`t know if she's going to make it." Bonnie told me and I couldn't understand anything.
"What?" I managed to get out as Bonnie hugged me.
"Is there something that you can do? A spell or something?" I asked frantically.
"She doesn't know how." Damon said as he approached us.
"Do you?" He asked Bonnie.
"No. I don't." Bonnie shot back, glaring at the vampire in front of her.
"No, you don't because it took Emily years to learn a spell like that." Damon said with a smirk.
"Well I can take down a vampire, that spell was easy to learn." Bonnie shot back, and Damon only frowned before turning to me.
"I can give Caroline some blood." Damon said, and I couldn't let that happened.
"No, no way." I said quickly.
"Just enough to heal her, she'll be safe here in the hospital and it will be out of her system in a day, she will be better Elena." Damon told me but I still couldn't agree to it.
"It`s too risky, I can't agree to that." I said
"Do it." Bonnie said surprisingly, and it made both Damon and I to look at her.
"This is Caroline, we can't let her die. Do it." She told Damon.
"If I do this. You and me, call it a truce?" He asked.
"No but you`ll do it anyway. For Elena." Bonnie said and left us. Damon turned to me again.
"I know this is probably the last thing you want to do right now but we have to talk about what happened tonight." He said.
"Yes, one of the tomb vampires got into my house, and stabbed John." I told him.
"What, When? After I left?" He asked and I didn't understand what he was talking about.
"You were there?" I asked.
"Come on Elena, you know I was."
"When were you at the house?"
"Really? Earlier on the porch?" He asked but I still looked like a question mark.
"We kissed Elena." He told me and that blew me away.
"Ok, I don't have time for this, Damon." I said trying to walk away from him but he grabbed me.
"Hey, if you want to forget what happened tonight, fine but I can't." Damon told me as Jenna came into the hospital.
"Elena! I came as soon as I got your message. How's John?" She asked.
"Where have you been?" I asked her and she looked confused.
"At the fire department, I had to fill out a report. I told you earlier." Jenna told me.
"No, you didn't." I said.
"Yes I did."
"No Jenna you didn't." I argued back, thinking that my aunt must have been too stressed out to even remember things.
"Yes, I did!" Jenna argued again.
"Oh, you've got to be kidding me!" Damon exclaimed making both Jenna and me to look at him. He covered it up quickly and looked back at us.
"Hey, by the way. Is there a Gilbert that you haven't told us about?" He asked me and it made my stomach turn.
"What are you talking about?" both Jenna and I asked.
"Earlier, I ran into a girl, big blue eyes, and long curly milky brown hair and looks a lot like an older version of you." Damon said, and I looked over at Jenna.
"Sarah!" We both said at the same time and ran towards John's room.
Sarah's p.o.v
John had fallen asleep again, and I needed to go and get me some coffee, if I were supposed to stay up with him all night. It hadn't occurred to me to call Jenna, Elena or even Jeremy. Right now, John and Caroline was the most important thing. The rest of my family would just have to wait.
I was standing at the coffee machine when I heard a voice behind me.
"Sarah, is that you?" I turned around and looked directly at Tyler. It was weird seeing him again, after me going all crazy on him, and breaking up with him in front of the entire school.
"Hey, Ty. Yes, it's me." I said and walked over to him.
"I`m sorry about your father." I told him and gave him a hug. Tyler hugged me back tightly and, buried his face in the crook of my neck.
"I`m glad you're back." He told me, still holding onto me.
"Sarah!" We heard from somewhere behind me. I turned around and looked at Jenna and Elena. I was not ready to deal with this right now.
"Hey." Was all I said,as Jenna practically jumped into my arms and sobbed.
"I've missed you so much." She whispered. Elena kept her distance from me, and that even got me angrier.
"Oh, really? You missed me so much that you couldn't keep in touch with me for almost 7 months?" I said raising my voice but I knew I had to contain myself.
"No, this is not the place to talk about this. I'm here for John and Caroline and that's it." I said walking pass both Jenna and Elena. They both walked after me.
"Sarah, we need to talk about this." Jenna said.
"No, we don't, not right now anyway." I said as I reach John's room. Elena stopped me from going in, and I saw red. How dare she?
"Elena now is not the time." I told her. By this time, that man Damon from before, came over to us.
"Look, John is sleeping, and he won't even know that you`re there. Please come home with us so that we can talk. Please." Elena pleaded me.
"Elena's right, Sarah. You can't do anything for him now." Jenna agreed. I really didn't want to leave him but finally I agreed to go home with Elena and Damon.
"Fine but I`m only going to talk to Jeremy. You, I can't look at right now." I said to Elena, stomping away from all of them.
In the car on the way home down familiar streets, I clutched onto my bag and didn't say anything. Damon looked at me and tried to gage in a conversation but it didn't go so well.
"So, you're Elena's big sister am I right?" he asked me.
"Yes." I said, not wanting to carry on a conversation.
"Ok. I didn't even know that she had one, that's all." I tore my gaze from the window and looked at my so-called sister in the front seat.
"You didn't even tell people that you had a bigger sister?" I asked angrily, but she didn't even answer me. By then we reached the house that I hadn't been in for nearly seven months.
"You are unbelievable, do you know that?" I spat as I walked up the stairs to the front door. I just walked right in and was met by an unknown man at laying on my living room floor.
"Uhm, who are you?" I asked him but then Elena and Damon came inside.
"Stefan, what happened?" Elena asked frantically.
"Katherine happened." Was all he said and I didn't understand anything.
"How's Jeremy?" Elena asked.
"Fine under the circumstances. He's sleeping right now." the boy Stefan said.
"Wait, what happened to Jeremy?" I asked.
"Little wonderboy tried to kill himself with painkillers." Damon said and I gasped.
"Damon!" Elena exclaimed, and I ran upstairs to look for my brother. I was terrified. I ran down his door and there I saw him, asleep on his bed. He looked peaceful and that was good. I sat down on the bed beside him and that was when I started to cry. This was all too much for me. I didn't want to wake him up but of course he woke up from my sobs.
"Sarah? Is that you?" Jeremy said sleepy.
"Yeah, Jeremy I'm home." I said as he hugged me.
"I've missed you so much!" Jeremy exclaimed, and hugged me even tighter.
"Then why did you stop coming to see me? You promised you would come and see me every weekend." I told him softly, because I couldn't be angry with him. Jeremy sat himself up and took my hand.
"I have to tell you something and it's not going to be easy to hear but I need you to listen to everything I have to say, ok?" Jeremy told me and I nodded.
"I promise I will listen." I said and Jeremy started to tell me the unbelievable story about the supernatural creatures of Mystic Falls.
Third person's p.o.v
"Did she say what she wanted?" Damon asked Stefan about Katherine, trying his best not to listening to the conversation that was taking place on the second floor.
"No." Stefan said as he was pacing back and forth.
"Well, she does know how to make an entrance." Damon sighed.
"But she did say something about managing to fool one brother. Do you know what she meant by that?" Stefan asked his brother.
"She pretended to be Elena too when I came by earlier tonight." Damon said as Elena came back.
"I wanted to tell Jeremy but I couldn't now that Sarah is up in his room. She too fragile for me to tell her about all of this. So we need to make sure she doesn't learn about this." Elena said.
"Are you all right?" Stefan asked.
"No, I am not all right. I thought that with all of the tomb vampires gone, things would get better." She said.
"I know, we all did."
"Katherine was in this house, that means that she's been invited in. What are we going to do?" Elena asked.
"Move." Damon said simply with a grin on his face.
"That's very helpful, thank you."
"Katherine wants you dead and there's zero you can do about it, you would be dead but you're not. So clearly, she has other plans." Damon said.
"Right and we need to know what those other plans are, not provoke her in the process." Stefan told mostly Damon.
"What happened tonight when you thought she was Elena?" Stefan asked but Damon wouldn`t answer right away.
"Well, not to make things even more awkward than it already is, now that Elena's supposed sister is back in town. I kissed Katherine." Damon said.
"And you thought it was me?" Elena asked dumbfounded.
"What do you mean you kissed?" Stefan said.
"You know when two lips pucker and make kissing noises." Damon taunted Stefan who tried to attack him.
"Don't be too obvious Stefan." Damon told him and that was when Elena got up from her chair.
"Whoa! He kissed Katherine not me. I wouldn't do that." Elena said.
"We don't have time for this, you guys. There's a reason she tried to kill John." Elena started but then they heard someone shout from upstairs.
"SHE DID WHAT?!" They heard someone roar and it made Damon smile.
"You were saying about not letting her know about this?" He asked, trying not to sound too cocky.
Sarah's p.o.v
I couldn't believe everything Jeremy told me was true. This was all too weird for me, but when he showed me Elena's diary, I had to believe him. I had to believe that the stories Uncle John told me when I grew up, were true.
"Ok, say that I believe you, and that the wonder brothers downstairs with our sister are both vampires, that doesn't explain why you stopped visiting me." I told him.
"Well, right before Halloween, Damon managed to turn Vicky into a vampire and she tried to kill me and Elena. Stefan had to kill Vicky to save the both of us. I was too broken up about it, so Damon compelled me to forget everything including my arrangement with seeing you every weekend. Elena told him to erase everything I used to do, and start over again. I knew that you were my sister but I couldn't talk about you." Jeremy explained and I was two seconds from exploding.
"SHE DID WHAT?!" I roared and I leaped off the bed making my way through the door.
"Sarah, please calm down." Jeremy tried to explain but I didn't listen. I stomped downstairs. I spotted my sister and the two vampires looking at me. In another circumstance, I would have been terrified about being in the same room as them but right now, I was too angry with my sister.
"You have some nerve!" I said as I reached my sister.
"I don't know what you're talking about." Elena tried to argue but I lost control and slapped her hard across the face. Damon moved closer to me, probably to protect Elena, but I practically growled at him.
"You're next on my list vampire boy, so I suggest you back the hell off!" I told him and it surprised me that he actually listened. I think he was stunned at the way I was talking to him. He wasn't used to that. Or at least that's what I chose to believe.
"In what world gives you the right for you to ask the pompous ass over here to erase the memory of visiting his sister every weekend? Were you really that ashamed of me to even let Jeremy have the pleasure of seeing me? Was it only because we were closer than you two ever was?" I roared but Elena still didn't say anything, because she felt guilty.
"I never felt more alone than I did right there and then. For the last four months, I didn't hear from any of you, only Uncle John but he stopped coming around to see me around Christmas. Was that your doings as well?" I asked and I could see the tears forming in Elena's eyes.
"Sarah, I…" Elena started. "I'm sorry."
"I can't believe that in the first place, you and Aunt Jenna would just send me away but I was going to talk to you about it, and maybe we could start over but this, I don't think I can forgive." I said fighting to control my tears.
"What is she talking about?" Stefan asked Elena.
"Go on Elena. Tell your boyfriend what I did that was so terrible." I urged on but she couldn't even speak.
"Well, let me tell you boys. Hi, I am Sarah Gilbert, Elena and Jeremy's big sister. In July, last year I had I breakdown, and tried to kill myself." I said showing the scars on my wrists. The two vampires noticed the pink scars, and their eyes soften.
"Then they sent me off to a rehab center in Denver before I turned 18, so I couldn't decide for myself if I wanted to go or not. But that's not the worst part. Neither she nor Jenna even contacted me during those seven months I was gone. I sent letters and emails but nothing. What kind of family does that?" I said panting for breath. No one said anything. It was an absolute silence around us. Everyone looked at Elena and she looked really uncomfortable and I just gave up.
"I should never have come back here." I said and picked up my bag and walked out the door.
"Sarah, wait! I didn't mean for it to happen." Elena called after me.
"I'm sure you didn't. You did it so you could live your life, and not trouble yourself with your disturbed sister. But let me ask you; did you ever mention me to your boyfriend?" I asked one last time.
"I didn't even know that you existed before meeting you now." Stefan said quietly and that's when I knew that I in reality didn't have a home anymore. I didn't feel welcome in my own house.
"I`ll find somewhere else to sleep for the night. Wouldn't want to screw up your world even more than I already have." I said walking down the driveway. I was angry, hurt and didn't have anywhere to go really. I had been walking for five minutes, when a car slowed down beside me. It turned out to be Damon.
"You know, walking around here in Mystic Falls at night is not safe." He told me but I kept on walking.
"Does it look like I care?" I said and ignored his presence.
"At least let me drive you back to the hospital." Damon said, but I kept on walking.
"Come on sunshine, help me out here."
"Give me one good reason why I should trust you." I asked as I stopped and finally looked at him.
"Because I haven't given you a reason not to trust me." Damon stated and in theory, he was right. I really didn't want to walk all the way back to the hospital, so I decided to go against my instincts and got in his car.
"Thank you." Damon said and drove off towards Mystic Falls hospital.
"You're only doing this because Elena asked you to." I stated after a few minutes of silence.
"And why would I do that?" He asked me curiously.
"Because I can see from a mile away that you're in love with her." I said with tears in my eyes. "Everyone usually is."
Damon didn't comment on my statement, which confirmed what I just said, and we drove in silence until we reached the hospital.
"I know it's not worth much but Elena feels really bad about what happened back at the house. It's been a long day for her. She's been through a lot." Damon said as I stepped out of the car.
"That may be true Damon but that doesn't justify her not talking to me for seven months and making you compelling my brother so he would stop seeing me." I explained. "She wasn't the only one hurting, and been through a lot."
"Sarah, if I had known that I would have erased you, I would never have done it and for that I'm sorry." Damon told me and it made me smile.
"Thank you, Damon." With that, I closed the door and walk back inside the hospital.
It was quieter here now, and beyond visiting hours. I found Liz sleeping in a chair next to Matt, and her blanket were on the floor. I picked it up and covered her. She woke up looking at me.
"Sarah? Is something wrong?" She asked me alarmed.
"No, I just couldn't stay at home, so I came here and hope that it's ok." I whispered not wanting to wake Matt up.
"Of course, it's ok to stay. I think your Aunt is still here somewhere. Maybe it's a good idea to talk to her." Liz suggested.
"I will." I told her and walked over to Uncle John's room. He was sleeping and Jenna was sitting next to him even though I knew they didn't like each other. She looked up at me and I knew that she was hurting too.
"Hey. How is he?" I asked quietly.
"The same. He's been asking for you tough." She said and patted on the seat next to her.
"I`m sorry about my blowout earlier." I told her but Jenna only shook her head.
"You have nothing to apologize for. We handled everything wrong and I'm so sorry for that. I never meant for you to feel abandoned." Jenna was in tears. I couldn't stand being angry with Jenna, and hugged her tight.
"Why are you here now? Didn't you go home with Elena?" She asked.
"I did but I blew up on her and couldn't stay there, so I decided to go back here. Jenna, I don't think I can live in that house right now, not when there's so much tension there. I need to do this gradually and then maybe I can live with you again." I said. Jenna didn't like it but she agreed with a little doubt.
"You should try to get some sleep. I`ll make sure to wake you if anything new happens." Jenna told me and I nodded. I went out to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, and took my night medicine before returning to the couch in the room. I laid down and looked over at Jenna.
"Aunt Jenna? Do you mind playing with my hair until I fall asleep like you used to do when I was little?" I asked. Jenna only smiled at me and walked over to the couch. She played with my hair and finally I found a little peace. I managed to fall asleep with one thing on my mind;
I wish I could have talked to Dr. Smith one more time before returning home. In my mind, I wasn't ready for this at all.
The next morning, Jenna was gone and John was awake. I stretched out as well as I could and turned to look at him.
"That didn't sound good." John said with a little laugh.
"Well I slept on the floor of my bedroom the first few weeks at the rehab center, remember? I think I can take an old couch like nothing. Good morning Uncle John." I said giving him a kiss on the cheek.
"Good morning. How are you feeling today?" He asked as I walked into the bathroom to brush my teeth.
"Well, I feel like I should try to talk to Elena without blowing up like I did on here yesterday." I said with a sigh.
"Probably a good idea." John said. After changing clothes, I needed a coffee.
"Do you want something from the cafeteria?" I asked as I put on my shoes.
"No thanks. I think I'll pass. Besides, I have this great hospital food to enjoy!" He said sarcastically and I couldn't help but laugh.
"I'll see you in a little bit." I told him as I walked outside and noticed Matt and Bonnie talking. I hadn't seen them for months and wanted to talk to them. I overheard to two of them talking.
"Matt, have you been here all night?" Bonnie asked.
"Yeah, with the sheriff." Matt said.
"No one else?" Bonnie asked.
"Stefan's elder brother stopped by here last night." Matt said and he looked tired.
"How is Caroline?"
"See for yourself." Matt said and showed Bonnie the way to Caroline`s room.
"Is it ok that I join too?" I asked from behind them. The both of them turned around at the same time.
"Sarah? Is that you?" Matt asked me and I nodded.
"What's the matter, quarterback? You don't remember how I look? It's only been what, seven months." I said with a smile. Bonnie ran up to me and hugged me.
"We've missed you so much. Elena told us you didn't want anyone to know where you were, that you didn't want to talk to us." She told me.
"Well, Elena told people all kinds of stuff." I said with a shrug.
"Hi Matt." I said and gave him a hug as well.
"Tyler told me that you were back in town, I just didn't believe it." He said as he kept his arm around my shoulder.
"Well, believe it brother. Now, can I come and meet Caroline?" I said with a smile and Matt nodded. He and Bonnie walked in first. I could hear the same old Caroline.
"Jersey Shore is on." She said in her cheerful voice. Bonnie ran in to say hi and to give her a hug. Caroline was one of my best friends besides Matt and Tyler. And I was a little nervous to meet her again.
"So, we have a surprise for you." Bonnie said as Caroline light up the room.
"Well don't just sit there. Give me." She demanded as she laughed.
"See for yourself." Bonnie said and cocked her head in my direction. Caroline was speechless.
"Hi!" She said with relief.
"Hi to you too, Ms. Forbes." I said not moving.
"Well, what are you waiting for? Come over here and give me a hug before I`ll jump out of bed and on you." She said and I did what she asked.
"I`ve missed you so much." She whispered into my shoulder.
"I've missed you too." I told her and the three of us girls sat together in bed and just talked about everything. Well, almost everything.
Matt tried to get a word in but it was rather difficult for him. We sat like this until Liz came into the room.
"I'm sorry to interrupt you girls and Matt but Sarah, I think it would be a good idea for you to come with me to the memorial for Mayor Lockwood. I know that you've just gotten back but you were one of Tyler's best friends before…" Liz started.
"Of course, I would come Liz. Just give me time to change and I'll join you. Unless you need me here, Caroline." I looked at the happy girl in bed.
"You should go. Both John and I will be here when you get back." Caroline said and gave me a hug.
"Ok. I'll talk to you later." I said and ran back to John's room and praised the lord that I packed one of my black dresses in my bag. The rest of my stuff wouldn't return before tomorrow. I put on a light black jacket so I could hide my scars and I tried my best to get my hair in line but my curls were all over the place. Oh, well it just had to stay that way.
I walked out to Liz and took the police car out to the Lockwood mansion. It was bigger than I remembered. Was I only gone for seven months? I thought to myself. Tyler were standing at the entrance greeting people. It looked like he was bored. I was about to walk up the stairs when Damon suddenly stood beside me just as handsome as the night before.
"Well, don't you look nice after a night in the hospital." He said with a smirk.
"Oh god! You're not hitting on me, are you? Because that would be pathetic." I said with a grin.
"Can't a guy just give a gorgeous girl a compliment?" Damon said defensively.
"A guy can, you can't. Besides, I'm going to talk to my ex now if you don't mind." I said taking a step up.
"Really? Lockwood is your ex –boyfriend?" Damon asked me.
"Well yes. Is that so hard to believe?" I said raising an eyebrow.
"No not really but you could do so much better." He told me and wiggled his eyebrows.
"Ok. I'm leaving now." I said and walked up the stairs to meet Tyler.
"Hey Sarah. You didn't have to come here today but I'm glad you did." Tyler said to me.
"What, why wouldn't I be here? We may not be together anymore but that doesn't mean that we can't be friends and I`ll always be there for my friends." I said and gave him a hug. Damon only rolled his eyes and walked inside, leaving me alone to chat with Tyler.
"So how you been these last couple of months? I haven't seen you since that night you.. uhm.." Tyler said looking away. I knew he was referring to the night I tried to commit suicide, and pulled on my sleeves a little.
"Well, I'm doing much better. I have to go to therapy and take my meds but I feel a lot better." I said with a sad smile.
"That's good to know. I`m really glad you're back." Tyler said again, and hugged me. If felt safe to be in his arms but I didn't feel the same way about him anymore. Too much had changed. Suddenly, we heard a truck coming down the road and it was a truck I'd know anywhere. Tyler and I looked at each other.
"I can't be?" I asked him with a smile but of course, we both knew whom it was. The man looked up at me and smiled.
"Well, if it isn't the oldest Gilbert. I heard some rumors that you were back in town." He said and smiled at me. I jumped into his arms and hugged him tight.
"It's been a long time, Mason." I said into his neck.
"So, the black sheep returns." Tyler said and Mason let me go.
"Tyler?"
"Yeah."
"What happened to you? In my mind, you're twelve years old." Mason said, punching his shoulder lightly.
"Well, that's two years older than the last time I saw you, uncle Mason." Tyler said and hugged his uncle. I was only thirteen the last time I saw Mason but he was my favorite person to play with when I was at the Lockwood's when I was little. That's why he remembered me so good and we greeted each other as we did.
"It's good to see you both. The last I heard, you two were going strong." Mason said.
"Well, it's good to see you too, Mase, but we're not together anymore." I said and got a little awkward.
"Ah, my mistake." Mason said with an understanding.
"Come on, let's go inside." Tyler said and took both Mason and me inside the house.
"So,any exciting news?" Mason asked me as we went over to get coffee.
"Not much. I just got back yesterday, and I really wished I could have stayed away those two more weeks like I was going to do but things change." I said.
"Yeah, Carol told me what happened with you, and I know how uncomfortable it can get to talk about it but until you want to or need to, I'm here." Mason told me.
"Thank you." I said and gave him a hug. Carol came over to us.
"Mason! I'm so glad you could come." She said and gave him a hug.
"Of course, I would come. He was my brother after all." Mason said.
"And Sarah. It's so good to see you back here. All though I wished that you came back at a different time and that all of this didn't happen." Carol said and put her hand on my shoulder.
"I know but that's how it is, and I'm so sorry for your loss, Carol." I told her sincerely. I may not have liked Richard Lockwood, that man was a giant ass but he was still Carol's husband, Tyler's father and Mason's brother.
"Thank you, Sarah." Carol said with a sad smile. I looked around and saw Bonnie.
"Excuse me for a moment." I said and left the two of them but not before I heard Carol talk harshly to Mason.
"Stop looking like at her like that! She is Tyler's ex-girlfriend and one of his best friends. You shouldn't be looking at her like that." Carol whispered but I still heard it and it made me blush. Bonnie had disappeared and I found myself at the food table, still blushing by the way.
"So, the older Lockwood made you blush huh? Tell me, what is it with the Lockwood boys that gets your panties in a twist?" Damon asked behind me, and I turned around and nudged him in the shoulder.
"Stop that, you idiot!" I said before turning towards the table again.
"Ouch!" He said sarcastically, as Bonnie appeared behind us.
"Did you know that the Gilbert device affected Tyler as well?" Bonnie asked Damon but stopped when she saw me.
"It's ok. I already know." I said and the conversation continued.
"Well, I know it took the mayor down." Damon said.
"Don't you want to know why?"
"Yes, Bonnie, I would love to know why a none – vampire was tortured by the vampire torture device that you let John Gilbert use against us."
"Wait, what now?" I asked shocked but they both ignored me.
"Speaking of your guilt, how's Caroline?" Damon asked smugly and I hit him in the arm again.
"She is much better." Bonnie said and that was the truth.
"You're welcome." Damon said and I remembered Jeremy said something about vampire blood that could heal wounds.
"No, you're welcome. You get to live another day." Bonnie told Damon coldly.
"No good deed goes by unpunished with you, does it?" Damon mocked Bonnie. I felt as if this conversation got boring fast and I wanted to leave.
"It doesn't undo the bad. I know what you are Damon. You may have Elena and the sheriff and everybody else fooled, but not me." Bonnie said.
"Me neither!" I shot in, as I raised my hand. Damon only rolled his eyes at my statement. That was it. I didn't want to listen in to that conversation anymore and walked outside. I spotted Elena standing alone, and I took a deep breath and walked over to her. I knew I had to talk to her.
"Hey. I know that I said many things to you last night, and I'm sorry. If you still want to, we could still talk it out so that we can get on with our lives and I can move back in so that we can be a family again." I said before I lost my courage. Elena just stood there looking at me, as if she didn`t know what I was talking about.
"Are you ok?" I asked, as Bonnie came outside to us, fuming with anger.
"Oh my god! Damon drives me crazy. He's walking around like he's some kind of hero for healing Caroline, when it's his fault that all of this happened in the first place." She said blowing of some steam.
"I'm sorry Bonnie. What Damon's done is awful." Elena said but I could still feel like something was wrong.
"Ok, all better. Hateful Damon – moment over." Bonnie said and touched Elena. I could see that she reacted to something and she suddenly got nervous.
"Uhm. I'm going to find Tyler, pay my respects. Sarah, join me?" Bonnie said and grabbed my arm to get me out of there.
"Bonnie? What's going on?" I asked worriedly as she took out her phone to call Elena.
"Elena? Where are you?"
"Bonnie, I know I'm late. I was trying to find Sarah at the hospital but I'm getting in the car right now. Be there in five."
Elena hung up the phone, but how could she still be at home and here at the same time? Then it hit me. Katherine. Elena's doppelganger. Both Bonnie and I turned around to face the one vampire I actually had time to fear in the last 24 hours.
"We haven't officially met. I'm Katherine." She said smugly, and I just felt like we were never getting out of this alive.
"I know who you are." Bonnie said holding onto me.
"Of course, you do. You're the best friend but you. I hadn't expected to see you here. The last I heard, you were going to the nut house, after you tried to kill yourself last summer. Sarah Gilbert. The oldest of the Gilbert clan." Katherine said with a smirk. How did this Katherine chick know so much about me?
"I've been piecing every bit of Elena's life together. Isobel told me that it was a bit of a puzzle." She said to us.
"Who is Isobel?" I asked but Bonnie only shook her head.
"I'll tell you about it later." She told me.
"I do know who Jenna and Jeremy are and I've met the delicious ex-boyfriend Matt, who's sweet on Caroline and then There's you two. The witchy best friend and the mentally unstable, older sister." Katherine said and that comment made we want to strangle the vampire.
"Did I do good?" She asked and I tried to move forward but Bonnie held me back.
"Aw what's the matter? Did I hit a nerve?" Bonnie and I tried to push past Bonnie but Katherine flashed in front of us. Bonnie tried to use her powers on her but she wasn't strong enough.
"I've been around for a long time Bonnie. You'll have to do better than that." Katherine said and suddenly had Bonnie pinned up against the wall. I couldn't do anything but then the doors flew open so that everyone could see if something happened. Katherine seemed impressed.
"Katherine." That guy Stefan stood in the doorway.
"Stefan!" Katherine said with a smile. S,o she liked him. This was just too weird.
"Leave the both of them alone." Stefan told her.
"Ok." She said and let go of Bonnie. Before she left, she turned around and waved at me, making me sick. I looked over at Bonnie.
"Are you ok?" I asked her and she nodded.
"You?"
"Well, right now I just wished that I was back in my room in Denver. It's so much better and safer than this." I said with a shrug.
Then, I saw Jeremy and Jenna walking through the door. He looked at me and he looked happy that I was there. He came up to me as Bonnie went outside to talk to Elena and Damon.
"Hey. I'm so glad that you're here." He said and hugged me.
"Of course, I would be here." I said as I looked at Jenna over his shoulder. She was smiling at me before delivering the food she had brought for the Lockwood's.
"Could you really consider coming home?" He asked me and I knew that this wasn't the best place to talk about this.
"Come here." I said, and took Jeremy with me to the back where I knew from experience that no one dared to go near. They mayor's office. We walked through the doors and I saw Tyler sitting there, drinking alcohol.
"Oh, sorry." Jeremy started.
"Bathroom's down the hall." Tyler said without looking at us. I could tell that Tyler was not having a good time and sat down next to him.
"Hey, I'm sorry about your dad." Jeremy said trying to show respect.
"Today has been a day of sorry's for people that don't give a crap." Tyler told us and gave me the flask. I only shook my head. Alcohol and me, don't mix very well.
"When our father died we had the house full of strangers telling us what a great guy he was." Jeremy said but we both knew that I wasn't capable to even greet guests back then. I was too much of a mess to even meet anyone.
"Anyway. We both know how hard it is." I said grabbing his hand.
"Well, in your case it was true. My dad was a dick." Tyler said before looking over at me.
"Yeah, you're right. Your father really was a dick." I said, because I knew more about the family relationship than anyone else did around here. I was dating Tyler for almost two years before we broke up. Tyler looked down at the flask.
"I found this in his desk." He said and handed it to Jeremy.
"Don't worry, he won't mind, he's dead." Tyler said, but Jeremy was looking at me.
"Fine, you can drink this one time, but if I catch you doing it again, I will hurt you." I said and got up from the couch.
"I'll leave you boys alone, and you." I said pointing at Tyler.
"Don't give him too much. I don't want to hurt you too." I said with a smile. As I was about to walk out, Mason came in and he could tell that something was up.
"What's going on here?" He asked us.
"Nothing." Tyler said quickly. Mason took the flask from Jeremy.
"Do you have anywhere else to be?" He asked Jeremy calmly. I took a hold of Jeremy's arm and dragged him out of the office, knowing that Mason needed to talk to Tyler alone. I turned around one last time and I could see Mason staring at me for a moment, before turning towards Tyler.
Jeremy went to find Jenna and Damon stood beside me in an instant. I was to new with this vampire thing, and jumped two feet in the air. Or at least it felt like it.
"Don't do that you idiot!" I said as I tried to get my heart rate down.
"Oh, sorry sweet cheeks. I didn't know I had that effect on you." He smirked and I just rolled my eyes.
"What do you want, Damon?" I asked.
"So, I was thinking that you are going to be my new best friend." I he said and I had to laugh.
"And why is that?"
"Because, we are the coolest people in the world and we got to stick together." He said in all seriousness.
"Is that so?"
"Yes, we owe it to the world." I sighed, and looked at him.
"Fine but let's get one thing straight; I'm nothing like Elena, and I will never be anything like Elena so please, don't treat me like that, Ok?" I demanded more than asked.
"Ok, deal." He said grabbing my arm and leading me outside.
"Where are we going?" I asked not sure what he had in mind.
"We are going to find your sister and my brother. Apparently, Katherine has done something again." Damon said, and brought me out to the garden where Stefan and Elena sat for themselves.
"I tried to track her." Damon said when we reached them.
"Oh, cover up, Fabio. You have a crazy ex on the loose. You better watch out. It looks like Katherine's trying to steal your guy." Damon said, and I punched him arm on the arm. He glared at me.
"What? It's my duty to tell you when you're being an ass." I said and looked back at Elena and Stefan.
"It's not what's happening." Stefan tried to argue.
"Isn't it? I mean it's only fair after I went after your girl." Damon said and it just got more awkward.
"I'm going to go check on Jenna and Jeremy. You guys come find me when you're done." Elena said and I followed her.
"Hey. We need to talk about what happened last night." I said as I stopped Elena.
"I agree but I think we should wait until tonight, ok? It's too much going on. Can you promise me that you'll stay at the house tonight?" She asked me and I wanted to say no but I didn't want to mess it up again.
"Ok. I promise I will try ok. Is that good enough?" I asked and Elena only nodded.
"Come on. Let's find Jeremy and Jenna." Elena said and we walked back to the mansion. I decided to leave with my aunt and my brother because I was deadly tired and wanted to relax a little before I went back to the hospital to spend some time with John. As I walked to the car, Mason ran after me.
"Hey, Sarah wait up!" I turned around and I had to smile.
"Is it something wrong?" I asked.
"No, not at all. You forgot your purse, that's all. And I was thinking we should catch up more and maybe take a coffee at the grill while I'm here. Only as friends. It would be weird considering you've dated my nephew." He said with a grin.
"Uhm. Yeah, maybe. I'll call you." I said before getting in the car. Jenna looked at me.
"What?" I said innocently.
"What the hell was that?" She asked me with a high-pitched voice.
"What was what?" I asked.
"Did you just agree to go on a date with your ex – boyfriend's hot uncle?" She asked and Jeremy pretended he was gaging.
"Oh god no! It's not like that at all. We are just old friends wanting to catch up. I swear Aunt Jenna, sometimes you have a dirty mind." I said as we drove away from the mansion. I couldn't help but to look back to see if I could still see him.
When we got back to the house, I was completely drained and was actually too tired to go back to the hospital. I needed to take my medication and walked with my brother into the living room and what I found there surprised me. It was Uncle John, zipping up his bags. I think he was just as surprised to see me.
"Jeremy, Sarah." He said and that made Jeremy look up as well.
"What are you doing here?" Jeremy asked and I could understand why he was angry but I didn't want John to leave.
"I'm packing. I'm leaving town." John said looking at me and I could already feel the tears gathering in my eyes.
"So, you figured you would kill all your evil vampires, and then leave town?" Jeremy said and I couldn't help but agreeing with him.
"Not all but enough, for now. Could you tell Elena I said goodbye?" He asked us and I nodded my head but Jeremy wouldn`t hear it.
"Why don't you tell her yourself." He said walking away.
"You know Jeremy, I was taught to hate vampires. It's what I know, it's what your father knew." John said, and it agitated Jeremy more.
"Our father would have seen them differently." Jeremy said.
"He may have done things differently, but not the way to see it." Jeremy looked down and noticed something.
"That ring on your finger that is supposed to protect you, that's my father's right?" He asked and that was when I saw the ring.
"Yes." Was all John said.
"Then why didn't protect him? Why is he still dead?"
"What happened to your parents wasn't supernatural. It was an accident. There is nothing that can save us from that." John said, and I couldn't hold my tears in any longer. They both looked at me but I didn't want any attention for it and they could see that.
"I wonder what he would have thought about all of this and me." Jeremy said and I knew he missed our father just as much as I did. How could I have been so selfish?
"He'd think that you're still young, and still trying to find yourself. You both are, and you both are a Gilbert. You're going to expose this town's darkest secret and with that, comes responsibility." John said as he put his arm around me.
"I don't believe in that family legacy stuff." Jeremy said and I could see why.
"Sooner or later, you`re going to have to." With that, John took his bags and walked to the door. I didn't want him to go, but I knew that I would see him again.
"Uncle John?" I called after him and he turned around to look at me.
"Don't be a stranger, ok?" I said as I held onto my brother.
"I promise, Sarah. I'll talk to you soon." Then he walked out of the door and what felt like, out of my life. I walked upstairs and took a shower. I used Jeremy's and Elena's bathroom because I couldn't use the one I shared with Jenna. I shared the same with my parents. Elena came in when I brushed my teeth and she sat on the counter.
"Hey. Can we talk now?" She asked. I looked at her.
"Yes, but we'll have to make it quick. I have taken my meds and they're making me sleepy." I said honestly.
"Ok. I just want to say that I'm sorry about everything that's happened. It was wrong to do all those things I did. Not calling or sending you letter or emails." Elena said with a shrug.
"I know Elena, and I'm sorry for lounging at you yesterday but it was too much for me all at once." I said tiredly.
"Do you think you could ever forgive me?" She asked and I sighed.
"I think we should take one day at a time, and just hope for the best. I'm willing to work for it, if you are." I told her and she jumped off the counter to give me a hug.
"Of course, I am. All I want is my sister and my family back together." She said before I went into Jeremy's room.
"Wait, aren't you sleeping in your own room?" She asked me.
"No, it's a little too soon, so in the meantime, I'll share a bed with Jere." I said and I could hear Jeremy groan but he really didn't mean it.
"Good night Sarah." Elena said before closing the door.
"Good night." I said as I collapsed on the bed ready to let sleep take me. Jeremy was changing to go to bed, when we heard loud talking from Elena's room.
"What the hell is that?" Jeremy asked and walked through the bathroom with me on his tail. It surprised me to see Damon standing there and he looked upset.
"Elena? What's going on?" Jeremy asked.
"It's nothing Jeremy. Take Sarah, and go back to bed." Elena said and I had a bad feeling about this.
"No Elena, it's not ok. He wants to be a vampire." Damon said as I turned around to look at Jeremy. Before I could blink, Damon had Jeremy up against the wall pinned by the neck.
"No Damon don't!" Both Elena and I said but he didn't listen.
"You want to shut out the pain, it's the easiest thing in the world. The part of you that cares just goes away and all you have to do is flip the switch and snap!" In that moment, my world came crashing down. Damon snapped Jeremy's neck right before my eyes. It was the worst feeling in the world. Jeremy's dead body fell to the ground and I couldn't breathe. I couldn't hear any sound, not Elena screaming, I couldn't see the way Damon looked at me. He knew why I broke down in the first place, last year. This wouldn't be good for me at all. Damon disappeared and I managed to crawl my way over to Elena. I was completely in shock and I just grasped a hold of his shirt and didn't let go. I put my ear onto his heart and just waited for his heart to start beating. He wasn't dead. I refused to believe it. I couldn't even tell that Elena noticed that he had the Gilbert ring on his finger. Not until Stefan came by and physically had to move me away.
"He's dead, Jeremy is dead." I repeated at the verge of another breakdown. Stefan got down on my level and he almost had to slap me out of it.
"Sarah, listen to me. Jeremy is going to be fine. He's wearing the Gilbert ring. He will come back and you're not going to lose him." He told me as he shook me. For a moment, I managed to focus.
"Is he coming back, are you sure?" I asked trying to steady my panic attack. Stefan confirmed it three times before I believed him. I sat down next to Elena with my head on her shoulder as she held Jeremy in her arms.
"He saw the ring, that's why he did it." Stefan tried to find an explanation.
"He didn't see the ring." Elena said as tears streamed down her face.
"It's Katherine. She got under his skin; she undid everything good about him."
"There's nothing good about him." I said suddenly, and Elena agreed.
"If he wants to be hated then he got his wish. I hate him Stefan." Elena said as she started to cry for real. I clung myself to her at the same time as he came to us. In the next moment, Jeremy gasped for air and he was in panic. I didn't blame him, he was dead and now he wasn't.
"It's ok, it's ok." Stefan said. Jeremy reached out his hand to me, and I grabbed it tightly.
"He killed me. Damon killed me." Jeremy said and he was shaking so badly.
After some time, we finally got Jeremy in bed, and I laid down next to him. I had to take an extra sleeping pill in order to sleep. I held on to Jeremy until he fell asleep, and I made a mental note to contact my new therapist first thing in the morning but right now, all I could think about is my hate against Damon and how much I needed to talk to Dr. Smith right now. However, he wasn't here and I doubted that I would ever see him again. With a deep sigh and the sound of my brother's heavy sleep beside me, I let the sleeping pill do its magic and I finally fell asleep.
Third person p.o.v
Caroline was sleeping soundly in her bed at the hospital when she suddenly had the feeling she wasn't alone in her room and woke up. She got spooked when she saw someone in front of her bed.
"Elena?"
"Hello Caroline." She said calmly.
"What are you doing here?" Caroline asked sleepily.
"My name is Katherine. I was hoping you could give the Salvatore brother's a message from me."
"What are you talking about? What message?" Caroline didn't understand anything.
"Game on." Katherine said, and smothered Caroline with a pillow. Caroline tried her best to fight her, but she couldn`t get it off. With one last struggle, the last of life left Caroline for good.
Caroline Forbes was dead.
So, did you like it? Please tell me what you think and I hope you'll like this version better. I know it doesn't seem like I've changed a lot on this story yet, but It'll come later on.
Hopefully, you'll want to read more. Come join me on the new journey Sarah Gilbert will take in "Hungry Eyes"
Until next time xD
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