Hi, so I know I have to update my other story and I have a chapter basically finished I just have to review it, but I've honestly had this idea for a story for the longest and needed to get it out. There are a few trigger warnings that will be addressed when the time come, but for now I hope you enjoy it and yeah please review so I know what you guys are thinking.

Emily

Dear Gracie,

Do you remember that time when you were a kid and nothing else in the world seemed to matter. The world was painted in a kaleidoscope of colors rather than the sickly gray that now fills it. I remember having dreams and wishing upon stars that they may come true. Though that seems like an eternity ago. And maybe it was. I've learned the hard way that dreams are just notions people come with because they know they'll never actual attain what they want. I've given up on the idea of true happiness and instead settled for any bliss life presents me. I know this isn't what you wanted for me or what you expected me to be and for that I'm sorry. It's just so hard to be here. To live in a world that hurt and treated you so badly I…

Knock…Knock…Knock

"Emily you in there." A deep voice asked from the other side of the door.

"Yeah lolo(grandpa) I was just on my way down just give me a second." I respond from my spot on my bed.

"Ok just hurry Jacob is asking for you." He said. I waited to hear the retreating footsteps before I let out a sigh. I look down at the journal in my hands before picking up my pen.

Well I guess I have to go now. Talk to you soon.

Love,

Emmy

I quickly get up and crawl under my bed where I lift two of the floor boards and place the journal back with the others. I crawl back out and stand in front of the mirror and dust myself off. I can't help but to stare at my reflection. My hair is an nice blend of milk chocolate to blonde highlights that only further brings attention to my tan skin. My eyes are dark brown with golden flecks. The white v-neck I'm wearing is tight on my body displaying every curve and muscle. I finish it off with a pair of dark blue skinny jeans and black combat boots.

The silver tags on my neck catch my attention before I push them under my shirt. I know what people think of me. The "bad" Apple. The player. The heart breaker. I was 10 when I realized I was gay. By now at the age of 17 I've attracted my fair share of the female population though I make it known that I'm not interested in a relationship. That doesn't mean I go around and sleep with every girl I see. Quite the opposite actually. A few kisses here and there though the female population at my school would say I've done a lot more with a wider scale of people. I've accepted people will see what they want rather what is actually there.

I walk toward the closet and pull out my black leather jacket. With one more glance I walk downstairs to dining room.

"There you are I thought I would have to send Maria to go get you." My grandfather said form his spot t the table.

"Where's Jacob." I asked looking around to see if he was hiding.

"Maria took him to go get cleaned up. Which is good because I wanted to talk to you about something." He said pointing to the seat next to him. I sat down shifting my chair to look at him better. My grandfather was the very image of success. His hair perfectly trimmed. His black Armani suit with a perfect white smile to bring it together. He was a handsome man especially for his age and often had women after him. If not for his looks then for his money.

"So we've discussed this before so you know I'm grooming you to take over the business when I am no longer able to." Why was he telling me this again. We've discussed this thousands of times. A zone out he continues his speech about how I am to take over the family business. It's been passed down through our family for generations and now it's my turn to start to learn the ins and outs of the business blah blah blah blah….

"A opportunity has come up and we'll be moving." Wait what.

"What do you mean we're leaving." I look at him as if he's crazy.

"Well as I was saying I opened a new branch in Pennsylvania and need to be there to insure everything goes ok."

"But we just got here. Jacob already started making friends. We just can't…"

"Emily this is not up for discussion. This was just me telling what is going to happen. Now since I'm starting this new branch fresh I thought it would be a good idea if you were to manage and look over this branch as trail run and a chance for you to get some experience." He said taking a sip of the bourbon he had next to him.

"You think I'm ready for something like that? And even if I did whose going to take me seriously. I'm 17 years old no one is going to respect or even listen to what I have to say." I look at him as if he's crazy he must be if he think this is actually going to happen.

"Emily you have to make them respect you. You're a fields. No matter your age you must make these people understand that you are in charge and deserve to be treated as such." He was looking me straight in the eyes now. I nod my head before breaking eye contact.

"Ok.. When do we leave?" I say looking down the hall at the approaching voices.

"The day after tomorrow so pack your bags after dinner." Before I could respond a bundle of energy jumped on me.

"Emmmyyyyy." The hyper active three year old said as I grasped him mid jump and started tickling him.

I look up to see Maria enter the room with a smile on her face. "How was he?" I ask looking down a the perfect bundle in my arms as he tried snuggle even further into my embrace.

"Oh, he was the perfect little gentlemen Ms. Fields. Did everything I asked and said please and thank you." She said smiling down at a proud looking Jacob.

"He better." I said tickling him again before looking up at Maria, "and how many times do I have to tell you to call me Emily." She just smiled at me before walking away saying something about checking on dinner. I turn back towards my grandfather.

"So what about this house?" I ask while Jacob takes my hand and started to play with it.

"Well I plan on keeping it. It's not like we can't afford it." He said with a chuckle.

Dinner was basically conversation between me and Jacob as I he talks me about his day. The love I feel for this kid could never truly be expressed. He is the only reason why I'm still breathing. My little saving grace. He flicked his midnight black hair behind his ear. Perfectly showcasing his sparkling blue eyes with golden flecks.

He has his mothers eyes.

I take a deep breath before listening to his story about him chasing a bird around the park. Soon dinner was over and Jacob was in his pajamas asking me to tell him a story. As I finished the last page of "James and the Giant Peach" I saw Jacob staring up at me with an odd look.

"Hey what's wrong?" I said pushing a few strands from his face. He kept looking at me. She had that same look.

"Emmy Ms. Mary say we leaving soon." He said trying to somehow get closer to me.

"Yeah it seems we are but you know no matter where we go I'll always be there for you." I say looking down at him making sure he understood what I was saying.

He just smiled before saying "I know Emmy you always are." I felt tears prickle my eyes before I cleared my throat and kiss forehead and left the room. I head back to my room and allow sleep to overcome me while I can.

Two days later

It was finally the day we were moving. Apparently we were going to a town called Rosewood. I hop into my black 1967 Chevy Impala. Our stuff is already packed and the moving vans are supposed to be there by time we get there. I look in the rear view mirror at Jacob playing with his hot wheels before pulling off and following my grandfather to our new home.

It took us half a day to get there. I slowed down to look at the Welcome to Rosewood sign before continuing to follow lolo. From what I could see it was a small town. With a lot of forested area. My grandfather soon turned onto a dirt road and drove for about twenty minutes before I was presented with a beautiful mansion. It seemed to be the only house in the area with miles and miles of forest surrounding it.

I got out the car and went to the back to collect Jacob and was about to explore before my uncle stopped me. "The movers haven't finished putting everything together but said they should be done in about a hour or two. I asked about food places around here and the driver mentioned a Apple Rose Grille about a quarter mile away from here so I was thinking we head there for some food while we wait." I nodded my head before returning to my car and once again following my grandfather.

We pulled up to the restaurant which seemed to be pretty crowded. Once I got out and got Jacob situated on my arm I took a breathe before following my uncle inside. It was beautiful restaurant. It seemed to be a perfect blend between sophisticated and casual. Overall pretty nice.

"Hi may I help you?" Asked a pretty girl whose name tag read Heather.

"Yes, hello can we have a table for three with one booster seat." My grandfather said.

"Yes of course follow me." She led us to a nice corner table. We were seated right next to a group of girls who seemed to be around my age. Two pretty brunettes and two blondes. Though it was the blonde on the end that caught my attention. She wasn't just pretty. She was beautiful. Based on her style I could tell she was highly into fashion. Probably just another queen bee. I realized the waitress was looking at me.

"I'm sorry what was that?" I said looking apologetic.

"Oh it's fine." She said giving me a flirty smile. " I just asked what you wanted for a drink and entrée."

"Umm I'll have water for now and a burger and fries." Looking down at Jacob I continued "he'll have apple juice with chicken fingers and fries. Thanks." I smiled up at her before turning my attention back to the blonde to see she was staring right back at me. I quickly look away before starting a conversation with Jacob about a episode of Sesame Street he saw the other day.

Alison

"Who is that?" Looking at the beautiful girl sitting the table next to her.

"I don't know but she's hot." Said Hanna chewing on a French fry. I just look over giving her giving her a unimpressed look.

"What I'm just saying if I swung that way I'd totally fu.."

"HANNA!" Spencer yelled before she could get another word out. I just shook my head smiling. I loved my friends even if Hanna was sometimes inappropriate.

"I have to use the bathroom I'll be right back." I excuse myself. I head my head down as I exited the restroom and found myself bumping into something hard as well as something cold flowing down my shirt.

"Ahh." I yelled as the cold liquid made its way into my bra. I looked up to see brown eyes staring at me in shock.

Emily

Shit…..

Hello again so I hoped you enjoyed the first chapter of this story. Its going to be really crazy so if you have any questions or if you just want to chat you can PM and ill get back to you as soon as possible. :)