Can You Feel my Heart

(Listen to the song Can you feel my heart by bring me the horizon)

Shuu's POV

I remember sitting in a quiet little coffee shop when he walked in the very first time. He was wearing simple jeans and a tank top with a backpack, skateboard, and headphones. He ordered, ironically, the same thing I did before sitting one table in front of me. He pulled out a rather thick book and engrossed himself into it.

He was so handsome; his eyes were a pale grey, hair so black it was blue, and three scars across his right cheek that were silverish-pink. The waitress set his cup down with a smile before walking away and allowing him to return to his book. I smiled, taking a sip of my coffee before I too returned to my book.

And so it continued to be just like this, everyday of the week we would sit across from each other and keep to our books and coffee. I found that he read a lot of fantasy yet the occasional Shakespeare or Poe would appear every now and again. We sat like this for months before I finally said something to him.

"I couldn't help but notice that you are reading the many fine works of Mr. Poe. May I ask which one is your favorite?" He looked up at me, giving me a small smile, "The Raven by far. I too could not help but see you are reading The Inheritance Cycle: Book 1. May I inquire which character you are fond of?"

I chuckle, "I am rather fond of Murtag however I do rather love that Shade." He grins, "Would you care to have a seat with me?" I sat down in front of him with my bag and coffee and we resumed reading in a beautiful silence. Again a few more months had passed, but I had learned so much about him including his name; Dorian Moreau.

Time was beginning to catch up with us however; over the year we had spent together, Dorian had developed three different types of cancer. Colorectal, bone neoplasm, and hepatic cancer*. He had a 5% chance of living and I was watching him die in this hospital bed. One evening after he ate his dinner, I held his hand and smoothed back his hair, "Dorian can I ask you something?"

He nodded slowly, "If I had the means to save your life, no matter the cost, no matter the amount of money it may cost, would you let me save you?" He blinked so slowly before answering, "Tsukiyama...I would...let you...have my soul...if it meant...one more...day with you." He was so tired and pushing himself so hard to answer me; I couldn't deny it any longer as much as I had tried, but I was in love with Dorian.

I pulled his doctor outside the room, who happened to be my best friend since we were children, "Alex I"m going to get the organs he needs and help him become one of us." Alex sighed, "Shuu this isn't as easy as it may seem! I have to gather our doctors and get them here, I need more blood of our type that matches his, and many, many months will have to go into getting him accustomed to our lifestyle! Are you prepared to spend the next year getting him back to his normal self?"

I looked at Alex, tears forming, "Alex get them here within the fort night and I'll have the organs ready to go." Two days passed as our friends came to our aid, and I scoured the underworld for the right male to give me the right organs and the right blood type. Finally I had decided upon a young man who looked physically fit and was not smoking or drinking while I sat with him in the bar.

"Are you sure you want to do this in the middle of an alleyway?" he asked, as I pressed him into the cold wall as snow started to collect on us. "Are you scared mon amour? This isn't your first is it?" I purred in his ear, giving his ear a nip causing him to shudder before his hands started rubbing my chest. "Of course not, I just don't want someone as handsome as you to get sick is all." He groaned, grinding up against me needingly. I was growing increasingly uncomfortable the more he touched me; 'Do it for Dorian, it's just meaningless half sex you idiot.' I thought to myself as I kissed the man's throat teasingly, grinding back harder. The foreplay went on for a few moments before I turned him around and bent him over while he whined from loss of contact.

"Don't whine mon cher for the fun has only began." I teased as I pulled my zipper down and released my throbbing cock from its confines; "Are you ready?" I asked hesitantly, hoping he'd say no so I could snap his neck and be done. He nodded; I groaned pushing into him not even being gentle at this point. I continued to assault his body for what felt like forever; him moaning while I grunted every now and again. Finally, he pushed himself up onto my chest grabbing my hair, giving me the perfect angle to snap his neck. I laughed, pausing mid thrust; he groans again, "What's so funny?" I smirk, running a hand up his chest to grab the underside of his chin to turn it facing me, "You're so fucking easy to lie to." Before he could reply or run, I snapped his neck swiftly and let him drop to the ground.

I quickly wiped my member off and zipped my jeans up before setting to work.

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After about ten hours, I finally made it back to the hospital where all the doctors stood waiting for my arrival. "Shuu! God lord man! You're covered in blood!" Alex cried out as I made my way to him with two cooler bags. I smiled, "Just save Dorian and I'll go clean up once he is in surgery." I walked into his room and sat down, taking his hand again, "Dorian sweetheart, I'm back." He barely opened his eyes and gave a small half smile; I kissed his palm as the door opened; Alex came in wearing his blue scrubs, "It's time Shuu."

I kissed Dorian's forehead before they rolled him back into the surgery room, my heart leaving with him. My phone vibrated signaling a text message; it was Kaneki:

K: Tsukiyama where are you?

T: At the hospital, Dorian just went into surgery. Why?

K: The Gourmets are out of control, they took Uta.

T: HOW THE HELL DID THEY TAKE UTA!?

K: They ambushed him and knocked him out cold. We need to get him back, so help me Shuu if anything happens to my mate I will kill all of you!

I sigh, feeling a headache coming on. God damn it they can't ever wait for my return!

T: Alright alright I'm on my way, meet me there in ten minutes.

After leaving a note for Alex in Dorian's room, I dart out the hospital and make my way back to my home. I smelled the blood the mile before I reached my destination and cursed; "Alright how are we getting in?" a voice asked, running up right beside me. I knew it was Kaneki; "We are jumping through the sky view at the top of the building. If they are anything like me, they will have him in the pit where I had you on your very first visit." I smirked, knowing it got under his skin but I was very cautious due to the fact that he'd kill me if I said too much.

Kaneki growled but did not say more as we leap to the top of my building; I jumped a little higher than him and made sure to stick my heel out as I came crashing down through the glass. Kaneki jumped after me yelling, "Are you serious!? You could hurt Uta!" I laugh as I crash through the thin floor and into the pit, "Indeed I am!" As I landed I took my surroundings in and finally spotted Uta, chained to the floor still unconscious.

Cries of terror then joy filled my ears which only further angered me; they stole Kaneki's mate and that was an extreme offence to him, his partner, and his ward. I walked up to Uta, Kaneki beating me to checking his pulse. I could tell he was alive but just to be safe; I turned and looked around me to find my second hand sitting in my chair with my girls next to him. I growled, "What are you doing James?! Do you realize what all of you have done?!"

James laughed, "We simply did what you couldn't do! Take down the 1st and 4th ward and steal Ken Kaneki's mate to kill then eat him! You have failed to take down them down and now we are replacing you and killing you three." The girls laughed as did James and the rest of my Gourmets; ''This must be what the old man was talking about when he said that my family will not always be my family much longer.' I thought to myself as I jumped up to the ledge of the balcony. I looked down at James, "I trusted you, took you in when no one else would. I made you my second, I treated you like a brother mon ami. But this has gone over the line." I stepped down a held his face as I leaned closer, "I loved you at some point, but you hurt Kaneki, his mate, me and their wards. You have forfeited the right to live" With that I ripped his heart out of his chest and crushed it. "I'm sorry." I whispered in his ear.

I stood and looked down at Kaneki, "You know what to do mon ami." With that we began to slaughter all of the people I called friend or family, sparring no one as they all helped James take Uta and lured us here. Kaneki had gone wild killing four or five people at a time, yelling at them all the while. It reeked of blood and sorrow, but Uta was safe again and Kaneki was sastified with the punishment; Uta stirred as I broke the chains and took a step back for Kaneki to get to him.

"Uta! Are you okay?" Kaneki asked, holding his face and searching for any signs of comprehension or maybe just relief. Uta swallowed before opening his eyes, "Ken I'm okay. But get me the fuck out of this building before his people end up dead." I chuckled and Kaneki laughed, "We just finished killing them all Uta but we need to get back home. You need rest love and food; Tsukiyama can I take some of these remains with us?" I nodded as my phone started to ring; it was Alex! "Alex what is it?"

"Dorian is awake."

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*: Colorectal is intestinal cancer ortherwise known as colon cancer, bone neoplasm is bone cancer, and liver cancer. Sadly cancer is no joke and I know a lot about cancer seeing as how cancer runs in my family. However if I missed things or I mess up please correct me.

This is only part one and part two should be up in the next hour or so.