Chapter 1
Goku's Point Of View
A/N: Gojyo and Goku talk about relationships. It was gonna be 59, but I got lazy.
If I was...just a little bit better. Maybe he would like me.
I've been so confused lately. I don't really know what I'm supposed to like, who I'm supposed to like. And I guess everybody goes through this feeling where they need somebody, anybody to make them feel special.
I guess I just need comfirmation that I exist...through love...
" Hey Gojyo?" I asked quietly from underneath the sheets in my bed.
" What is it?" he asked, lighting a cigarette.
" How do you know if you like somebody?" I asked, a little louder.
" I don't know..." He shrugged. " I guess if they don't hate you?"
" No, I mean, like somebody." I said a little more clearly.
" Oh, oh, like that?"
" Uh huh." I nodded.
" I don't know..." He shrugged again.
" But you like Hakkai, don't you?"
Gojyo's cigarette almost fell from between his lips, and just dangled lightly. " H-Hakkai?"
" Yeah. You really like him."
" How you figure that?" He asked, running his hands through his hair.
" Just the way you look at him and stuff. I always see you guys giving each other looks. It's obvious."
" Why are you talking to me about this kinda stuff?" Gojyo asked suspiciously.
" Well, have you ever really wanted somebody to love you? Not for any real reason. You just kinda need it."
" Goku, where have you been hearing this kind of stuff?" Gojyo asked, really, really confused.
" I don't know." I shrugged, looking at Gojyo.
" Well stop with all this love-talk. It's scaring me."
" But I want answers, Gojyo." I whined.
" I don't know." He said sharply. " It's a funny think about love. There are no answers."
" What?" I asked, a little confused.
" Some people find it in different places." He said in a tone that was very unfamiliar to Goku. " Some people find it in hate, some in relatives, some in the same sex, some find it in somebody they've never met or somebody they've known forever. And how they fall into it is different each time. It's strange, but there aren't really any answers. You just know it's there and need to find it."
" But what if you can't find it?" I asked, childishly.
" Then you're screwed." He said, with a bit more attitude.
" That's doesn't help me any." I growled.
" Shut up, you don't need love right now anyway. It's all complicated and shit. Plus what are you, like twelve?"
" I'm eighteen, dumbass."
" Whatever, you're still too young."
Goku glanced at Gojyo, " You do like Hakkai, don't you?"
" Yes, he's fucking sexy. Shut up and go to sleep." He said sarcastically.
" Fine." I growled. " Stupid kappa."
" Fucking monkey." Gojyo hissed, turning off the light.
A/N: Aww. Gojyo's Views on Love.