Moon glow
Part 1: Sea of Tranquility
A/N: This is my first Kingdom hearts fanfic, so be gentle, please : ) This fic was inspired by a song by Rod Stewart which is called (gasp) "Moon Glow" ha…go figure…
Summary: (Riku x Sora/ Riku x Ansem) What would have happened if Kairi hadn't recognized Sora as a heartless? Would Riku have been able to break free from Ansem's grasp in time to save Sora's heart from being completely destroyed by The Darkness? Let's find out, shall we?
Disclaimer: man…haven't written one of these in a looooong time…. But yeah, as much as I love Kingdom Hearts and all the charries involved in the game, Alas, it's not mine. I wish I had enough money to change that though.
/It must have been moonglow way up in the blue
It must have been moonglow that led me straight to you…
I still hear you saying "dear one, hold me fast"
And I start to praying "Dear Lord please let this last"
We seemed to float right through the air
Heavenly songs seemed to come from everywhere
And now when there's a moonglow way up in the blue,
I'll always remember that the moonglow gave me you/
-Rod Stewart "Moonglow"
-What's happening? -
-Where am I? -
-Why can't I see? -
His body felt so frozen and small; like he was being compressed into a form that wasn't his at all and it hurt…Oh did it hurt! He wanted to curl up into a ball and cry himself into oblivion…but he was already there it seemed.
-But if I'm dead... Then why does my heart hurt so badly? If this is oblivion…how am I still conscious? -
Suddenly, the icy void seemed to thrust him violently forward toward a white glow and he landed on cool marble. He wanted to cry out from the sudden shock but his mouth didn't work! He moved to take a step forward, expecting to hear the thud of his shoes but heard the scraping of claws instead as he hobbled along. That was when he took a moment to look at his surroundings…
-Everything looks like I'm looking at it through a magnifying glass…. -
Then at his hands…or claws rather…
-I'm a heartless!? But how?! I don't- why's this happening!?-
He tried to dig through his memories for an answer to any of his questions, but found them fading fast. Desperately, he tried to grasp onto them so he could find an answer, but it was like trying to catch papers fluttering away in a fierce wind. Soon, he was left with the barest and strongest of his memories, two names and two faces.
-Kairi?…..Riku…-
He had to find either one of them! Why? He wasn't sure but he had to! He hobbled on as fast as his short legs could take him, moving past the other heartless as they tugged themselves from their mother Darkness. They only gave him passing glances with their fierce, soulless yellow eyes before they moved in that grotesquely hypnotizing dance of theirs, clawing at the marble in the same direction as he was moving in. The began hissing in their same cryptic voices, only this time, he could understand those familiar whispers…
Save me…
I want you…
I need a heart…
Please reach for me…
Don't forsake me again….
Don't you remember my name…?
Please give me your heart…Give me redemption…
Remember me….
I need you…
Save me…
Each hissing cry began as the one before it ended; a continuous cycle of misery. But surely, the girl, Kairi, would know him. Kairi loved him, didn't she? Kairi would know him anywhere! The thought of her made him propel himself faster than his new brethren. She had to be that way! But where was he? Where did that way lead? What did she mean to him?
He bounded down stairs, stumbling and falling where his fellows leapt like graceful dancers despite their hideousness. The swarm made it's way toward a large area with a high ceiling. He recognized this place…and there she was! There was that girl! Who was she with? What were they? Were they heartless like he was?
They drew their weapons to protect her from the onslaught of Those without Hearts….from him… He barely dodged a fireball shot at the core of the legion. Their dying screams rang through his tiny, frail body and he felt numb as he tried to hobble over to the girl, praying she's know how to save him from what he had become… He knew she had to remember him…
But she didn't.
As he reached out for her, thinking her name as loudly as he could, since his mouth didn't work, she only recoiled and screamed.
-Don't push me away! Kairi! It's me! It's- -
But who was he? He saw another flicker of a memory…a picture of him and the girl and the boy and another boy with dark brown hair and dark blue eyes with a warm smile that radiated pure innocence. No…that wasn't important. He didn't know who that other person was…it couldn't be him! He was a heartless…he had always been a heartless… Hadn't he?
Again he reached out for the only living memory he had, his claws sinking down hard into her leg as he tried to pull her closer. He heard a sharp hissing emit from where his mouth should have been.
Kairi…
Save me…
Who am I?
Tell me Kairi!
Who am I!?
Hold me!
Kairi!
She screamed again and this time, the taller of the others rushed at him with a shield. Somewhere in his mind, he knew he would die if he remained there… He didn't want to die! Not until he remembered who he was!
So, he cast one last look at the girl from his memory and regretfully stepped back into the womb of his creation, back into the Darkness because he knew the shadows were now the only safety he could have. The light he saw within the few memories he had left only seemed to hurt him. Why did he feel so guilty? Why didn't she remember him!? She loved him! She should have known!
Now, because of her, he was damned into wandering through a place where no one knew him. He hated that girl now even though he knew that that hatred would only shove him further into this new place. Here was where misery seemed to be peace, where sorrow was your very breath, where being alone meant you were among family, where the waves of screams were only part of the sea of tranquility…his new Hell.
There was only one small wisp of hope he had left…The boy…
Riku….
-Riku…Someone show me where he is! Where's Riku!?-
As if someone heard his plea, a pale silver light shone down through the Darkness, casting aside the monsters that lurked under the cover of the seemingly impenetrable shadows. Even that gentle light burned his wide yellow eyes, but he didn't want to ignore this chance to find the boy. He set out on the path illuminated by the light.
Something dragged him into painful consciousness.
Riku….
Who was calling him?
Riku….
It didn't sound like Ansem….He knew it and yet—He couldn't bring himself to hope that-
Riku…"Sora…" He felt himself whisper and then he quickly swallowed a yelp of pain as his restraints pulled him back against the wall. How did he get there again? Oh right…Ansem. Oh how he hated that man! He used him like a puppet…And Riku willingly let his new master pull the strings, didn't he? Now, he was tangled in the very ties of darkness he allowed himself to be fettered in.
He had betrayed everyone by letting that man use his body to come back into the world. He could deny ever knowing about Ansem's plans to unlock Kingdom Hearts and let Darkness and Chaos reign over all of the worlds in existence…But how could he not now? The man was part of him…Ansem was him…
"No…NO! You and I are different!" He shouted into the darkness, thrashing as best he could and refusing to cry out as the thick ropes of shadows pulled just a little tighter, threatening to break him in every way they could.
"We are the same…" Came Ansem's voice from all around. "How could we be any different?"
"Because…" he searched for an answer, but came up empty handed…Until that name came into his head again. "Sora…I have Sora! I have a light…You don't!"
"You snuffed out your light…"
The darkness before him swirled and shifted to show his body attacking Sora again and again, viciously, as if he never loved him. He watched his Light fight back valiantly but to no avail…The attacks came again and again and again. Then the image cut away right as he was about to bring down his sword on Sora, whom was too busy trying to heal to fight off the attack.
"You and I are one and the same… Darkness Incarnate. Sora is dead, accept it."
"He can't be dead! He CAN'T be!" He felt the tears cut through the numbness of his cheeks and sting his eyes. He wouldn't believe that Sora was dead….His Light couldn't be put out! He was Sora, he was resilient, he was immortal in Riku's heart. "I know you're out there Sora….find me, please find me…"
"He won't ever find you, my love… He's gone forever….but I'm still here…I'll always be here…" He stepped into Riku's line of sight, his golden eyes gleaming with a source of light no one else there could see. He reached out and took Riku's pallid face in his hands. "You love me Riku…You gave me your heart…" The older man leaned in, his vicious eyes boring into the boy's. "remember?" He let one hand trace Riku's jaw before falling to his chest, right over where his heart should have been.
The silver-haired boy wanted to recoil, to retaliate but he was held firmly in place. Ansem was right…. He knew he was right.
"So why fight any more beloved?" Ansem whispered before pressing his lips to Riku's.
How could the pale, broken boy ever hope to rebel against someone so strong, someone so right? The life in his eyes fluttered away as he closed them, letting his master do whatever he wanted to him just like he had so many, many times before. After all, puppets can't break free from their strings without losing all semblance of life and he didn't want to die…Not yet.
TBC…
A/N: Meh…not so bad…a great deal of OOC-ness but it's not SO bad…least I didn't have em running around in frilly pink dresses, having tea parties and playing dolls, right? Oh god…Ansem in a dress…that's so wrong and yet so hysterically funny lmao!!! ANYWAY! I hope it's alright…I'm a big fan of AnsemxRiku because, let's face it, though he is a creepy bastard, Ansem ownz the pretty-boy. I may try some Ansem x Sora just to see how that tastes…but that seems kinda weird. Oh well! First time for everything!
Oh yeah! And please don't like maim me for starting another fic before I finish AKW…I know I need to work on that one but I want KH! WAAAAH! ( and I wanna play the game to see if I got that scene right but my PS2 is broke and my friend Heather has my copy of KH so meh..I'm screwed…so sorry if that scene's wrong)
I think I used the words Darkness and Shadows atleast 50 times… Bah
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