Chapter 1: Disgust

Cloto: so originally this was going to be a final fantasy seven fanfiction, but I decided to do Kingdom hearts instead because Kingdom Hearts is so much better! Well this is probably going to be my longest and most drama filled story. Enjoys :D

Key:

Roxas: POV like this

Axel: POV like this

Sora: POV like this

Riku: POV like this

High school shouldn't suck this much. Why is my life so fucked up? I mean seriously. I'm in love with one guy, but I'm seriously crushing on this other guy. I don't know what to do! My brother does like the guy I'm crushing on though, so I guess I shouldn't go for him. But I know he is gay. The guy I'm in love with. I'm not sure he is gay. He flirts with me a lot, but so do a lot of other straight guys.

Hi my name is Roxas. Currently my high school life has been perfectly normal except this year. I'm a junior at my Boarding school. I have an older brother named Sora. He isn't very smart either, and he complains a lot. Everything was fine until my best friend moved to our school. My best friend name is Axel. When I first met Axel we didn't get along at all, but over time we got to know each other. Unfortunately without realizing it, I fell in love with Axel. The problem is that first I don't think Axel is gay, and second Axel doesn't know I'm gay. If that wasn't enough over the last summer break I developed a crush on Sora's best friend Riku. I knew for sure Riku was gay. Him and Sora had a fling freshman year, but it didn't work because Riku didn't like the thought of being tied down to a person, which Sora had problems with.

"Hey Roxas!"

"Huh?" I replied.

"Whatcha doin?" Riku asked.

"Oh nothing really. Just trying to entertain myself." I replied.

"Ah I see. So umm I was wonderin if you liked anybody." Riku stated slyly.

"Why would you want to know that?" I asked.

"Because me and Sora were talking about how you followed Axel everywhere. Sora doesn't believe me when I say that you like Axel." Riku replied.

"Excuse me, but I do not follow him everywhere. I don't like Axel like that. He isn't gay anyways." I snapped.

"Calm down missy! I was only teasing you. I wouldn't blame you though. Axel is pretty sexy for a redhead." Riku laughed.

I looked at Riku with a quizzical face and just shook my head. Riku turned to me and grabbed my face. "Cheer up already!" he exclaimed. I just glared at him.

"You know you are kinda cute when you are mad." Riku stated.

I tried to turn to hide my blushing, but Riku wouldn't let go of my face. Riku just laughed at my attempts to escape his grasp.

"You know if you let me I'll give you what you want. I know you don't want to date me because of Axel, but you can't deny the hormones." Riku soothed.

I just looked at him waiting to see what he was going to do. Riku leaned in and connect his lips to mine.

"Why are you doing this?" I asked.

"Simple. I'm horny." Riku replied. He kissed me again harder than last time. He pressed his body to mine and groped me slightly.

"What about Sora?" I gasped.

"Sora? Well he just called. He said he wouldn't get home another hour or so. That's plenty of time for me." Riku replied. He pushed up against my body making me ache slightly.

"I can't believe this is happening!" I thought to myself.

I let Riku completely take over me. I let him do whatever he wished to do to me, and groaned slightly as he entered me. The sex lasted for about forty-five minutes, which was plenty of time for both of us to get satisfaction.

Afterward Riku said, "Hey, don't expect this to happen often. Sora has completely cut me off since I won't go out with him. He's trying to use sex to get me to go out with him."

I just nodded as a reply. Riku got dressed and went downstairs to wait for Sora. I laid in my bed and felt tears begin to trickle down my face. My life was so confusing and I didn't know what to do or who to turn to.

Hey I'm Riku. I'm currently a senior at the boarding school. My best friend is Sora. Sora is the only person I really care about. I love Sora, but I have commitment fears that prevent me from committing to him. Sora realized this a long time ago and I guess that is why he let me have sex with him. Lately though Sora has been denying me sex. This has caused me to release my sexual frustrations on other people. I never told Sora that even though we weren't dating he was the only person who I had sex with. I also never told Sora that he took my virginity. My sexual frustration and Sora's cut off has lead me to become a whore, and I'm completely ashamed of myself for it. After I screw someone I always act cold and distant to them.

I was at Sora's house waiting for him to get home. Sex or no sex, we were still best friends. My phone started ringing and I realized that it was Sora's ringer.

"Hello?" I answered.

"Hey Riku, I'm going to be a little late I'm just now getting seen by the orthodontist, and they said it be an hour or so." Sora informed me.

"Oh ok. Well I'll be at your house waiting for you." I replied.

"Ok see you soon." Sora said as he hung up.

Great! Let boredom ensue. Then suddenly I heard a bang from upstairs. Roxas. I went upstairs and peeked into Roxas's room. I saw Roxas sitting on his bed staring of into space.

"Hey Roxas," I said.

"Huh?" he replied.

"Whatcha doin?" I asked.

"Oh nothing really. Just trying to entertain myself." Roxas replied.

"Ah I see. So umm I was wonderin if you liked anybody." I stated slyly.

"Why would you want to know that?" Roxas asked.

"Because me and Sora were talking about how you followed Axel everywhere. Sora doesn't believe me when I say that you like Axel." I replied.

"Excuse me, but I do not follow him everywhere. I don't like Axel like that. He isn't gay anyways." Roxas snapped.

"Calm down missy! I was only teasing you. I wouldn't blame you though. Axel is pretty sexy for a redhead." I laughed.

I turned to look at Roxas face, which gave me a quizzical look. He shook his head and I grabbed his chin and looked into his eyes.

"Cheer up already!" I exclaimed. My reply was a glare. "You know you are kinda cute when you're mad," I said.

Roxas tried to turn away, but I noticed the redness in his cheeks increase. I laughed at him.

"You know if you let me I'll give you what you want. I know you don't want to date me because of Axel, but you can't deny the hormones." I soothed.

Roxas just sat and stared at me so I took advantage and pressed my lips to his.

"Why are you doing this?" Roxas asked.

"Simple. I'm horny," I replied. I kissed him again and pressed up against him. I placed my hand right on his crotch to get a reaction.

"What about Sora?" Roxas gasped.

"Sora? Well he just called. He said he wouldn't get home another hour or so. That's plenty of time for me." I replied. I pushed up against his body.

Roxas easily let me take over, and was silent for the most part. He was so unlike Sora who moaned and groaned aloud the whole time. I lasted for forty-five minutes and Roxas had cummed somewhere in between.

Afterward I said, "Hey, don't expect this to happen often. Sora has completely cut me off since I won't go out with him. He's trying to use sex to get me to go out with him."

Roxas just nodded as a reply. I got dressed and went back downstairs to wait for Sora to get home. While waiting I was completely disgusted with myself for what I had just done.