After I had written Good-bye, my love this little plot bunny popped up and wouldn't stop bugging me so I toyed with it and I think I got it to work.

It's put into Zexion's point of view from the future, remembering until a future chapter. any time Zexion say's 'her' or 'she' he'll normally mean my OC Xynah.

disclaimer: (I will only put this up once) I do not own kingdom hearts or any of its characters though I do own my OC's Xynah Zenga and Satoshi Zenga


I had read the letter; yeah, I read it over and over hoping, praying, that it was all a lie and she was about to jump out and say 'gotcha!' but that never happened. No matter how much I prayed, she would never walk into the room and tell me it was a joke. She would never laugh at nothing just to make someone else smile. She would never tell me another secret she never told anybody else. No; she would never do any of this again, because she was dead.

I had walked into the apartment we shared, (it was nothing special and broken, just something cheap and inhabitable. It was a one room apartment on the ground floor.) as soon as I walk in I knew something was wrong. The first thing I noticed was she tackle me to the ground with a hug/glomp this time, she always liked greeting people when they came into the house.

The second thing I noticed was the faint metallic scent. With a combination of the two, I knew something was terrible wrong. I ran past our living room to our bed room, where the scent was coming from, not even bothering to close the door behind me. I burst through the door, all I expected was her to be in bed caring for some wound she got from who knows where, but what I saw was much worse.

She was on the bed like I expected but there was blood, so much blood. She had apparently cut herself on her wrists and ankles, where the major arteries where. she was pale, more pale then she ever was, almost ghost white. She had stains on her cheeks where tears once were and a faint smile. This smile was nothing like the giant smiles laced with deep-seated sorrow that I've seen before. It was serene and blissful, like she finally found peace within herself.

Tears were already freely falling from me at this point. I shifted my gaze to what was our dresser, unable to look at the horrible scene before me, and saw a pink envelope. I walk over and grabbed it, flipping it around to look at the front of it. It had a drawing of her (with her normal smile) and me (perpetually frowning) on it and in big, beautifully written letters was my name. I opened the envelope and found a one-paged letter.

There were spots that looked damaged due to water, 'most likely tears' I decided. As I read the letter, my tears fell, mixing with her old tears and the inks spots that were once words. After I read the letter I put it back into the envelope and put that into my pocket carefully. My tears still wouldn't stop but I knew I had to call the police and our friends. I went and dealt with that.

The police ask many questions but I could barely control myself enough to no break down crying. I answer their questions though and kept my voice steady as I talk to them. Soon, the call was over and the police were on their way to our, my, apartment.

Next on the Agenda was to call our friends. Each of their reactions varied. Axel thought I was joking at first only to realize I don't joke about anything. Xion, Namine and Demyx were in hysterics when I told them. Larxene Grumbled something incoherent but I coud hear the stifled hics from crying, Marluxia (who was with Larxene) seemed somewhat remorseful. Roxas and Sora were in shock and didn't say anything but am 'I'm so sorry' that wavered at the end.

I called her older brother last, not really wanting to tell him his younger sister just killed herself; I had to, and eventually I did. He said he wasn't surprised in a broken voice.

The police had arrived long before I had even gotten half-way through with my calls. They had taped off the apartment didn't let anyone in except family of her's. they wouldn't stop asking me questions after I finished calling everyone. Questions about her, if she ever had suicidal tendencies, ect. I answered best I could but at some point I couldn't take it and broke down crying.

A crowd had gathered to see what was going on, not that they actually knew her. Like her letter said, none of them cared enough. They just wanted something to gossip about.

Soon after I had finished talking with the police, I noticed that everyone I called had come over (and then some, too.) I walked over to them, hoping to find some solace in a group of people I knew and that actually cared about what happened.

I remember seeing Xigbar there too which was strange because he was never the closest to her but I supposed even he never truly hated the peace-loving brunette. He was over helping comfort Xion while axel was trying to get Roxas to calm down. apparently he ran off soon after getting there, rambling about how he should have noticed. (I honestly should have been the one in his place seeing as I was the closest one to her. No; I shouldn't think that way, it would make her sad.) Kairi was crying with sora while Riku was trying to console them. Marluxia and Larxene were off the side looking as if they didn't really care but the fact that their eyes were slightly red and puffy said everything. Demyx was in hysterics and Namine had seemed to be talking to him while she drew, silent tears of her own falling.

Eventually the crowned left, followed by the police. Then Xigbar left with Xion and Namine, Riku left with Kairi and Sora, Axel with Roxas, Marluxia with Larxene. In the end it was just Demyx (who had calmed down a bit) and me (who had been quite with only a few stray tears left.) Demyx offered me to stay with him until the whole thing calmed down which, me being tired physically as well as mentally, had swiftly agreed. We drove in his car, once we got to his house he gave me the guest bedroom and I had gone to bed, falling asleep before my head hit the pillow. Simply praying this had all mean a bad dream.


Please tell me what you think, also, this is not a one-shot.