Prologue

That moment, wiping the fresh tears streaming from my face with the back of my hand. You would think I was used to feeling alone, I was always over looked, I never felt like I belonged, changing schools was to help me gain friends but the fear of previous rejections haunted me from the chance of actually trying to reach out and talk to someone. How could i? I was always different, growing up I was only the small annoying little sister. I was always as they put it "the smart one" but when the only friends you know were books that was all I ever was, all I could ever be. From an early age was I bullied for it, but being defended by an older sister wasn't even helping the situation if anything made it worse but how was I to tell her to back off and let me fight my own battles, I couldn't so I endured being teased and occasionally threaten. I learned that I didn't answer the questions and kept my mouth shut the teasing seemed to stop. I was no longer the smart one after days of silence I was one of them, just like they wanted. I was…normal I wasn't the freaky genius girl I was plain, simple, plain. I wasn't me….but in this world you see I learned we had to blend in to survive at an early age. I learned that we must do things we don't want to do for other people to accept us, we are to like everyone else if not they would "nail down the nail that was standing up" and I was that nail….

Hello my name is Clare Edwards, welcome to a side of me that many people don't know. This is the journey of my life. For you see this is a diary that I would hope one day to publish but for that to happen I need to make sure I document these "I learned.." correctly and remember every detail, every person that helped make these possible, you might laugh, you might smile, you might cry, you might be filled with rage, you might even be filled with pity for me, us… but just remember this: this is real whether you like it or not…

Author's note: this was something I came up with and I really feel inspired to write. Please bear with me for ill try to load up chapters as soon as I type them but that would just depend on the feedback I get.