How
can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I
can't win your losing fight
All the time.
(APOV)
It
always happens when she is here, I just sit there and watch her and
feel like I am blind to her future, to any future. Not
gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But
you won't take away my pride.
No, not this time.
Not this time.
(APOV)
But
she is Edwards not mine to have and she will always be Edwards, as
far as I am concerned we are just friends, but when I have her alone
it is like she is mine like she would do anything to have me. How
did we get here?
When I used to know you so well.
But how did
we get here?
Well, I think I know.
(APOV)
I
always thought in knew her so well even better then Edward did, her
was not interested in her past or her future just the here and now
and that he had her and that was good enough for him, but me I always
like to hear about the Bella before I knew her, when she lived in
Phynix, what she was like at school and all the kind of things that
friends know about each other but boyfriends never have the time to
find out. The
truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue.
Just
boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can't see
What kind
of man that you are,
If you're a man at all.
Well, I will
figure this one out
On my own.
(I'm screaming, "I love you
so.")
On my own.
(My thoughts you can't decode)
(BPOV)
She
thinks I can't see her or the way she looks at me, she thinks I am
a dumb human but I see and feel it, in every touch, in every word,
but I do know and I feel the same for her, I just can't show her
because I have Edward and she has Jasper. How
did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah.
But how
did we get here?
Well, I think I know.
(BPOV)
i
dream of her every night, Edward says I smile in my sleep while I
dream about him but it is never him I am thinking about it is her she
is the one that is watching me sleep, she is the one with her arms
wrapped around me, whispering in my ear and she is the one kissing
me, I just cant get her out of my mind. Do
you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of
ourselves.
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such
fools
Of ourselves.
I'm
going to tell her how I feel, but that is as far as it will go, never
any further, I love Jasper and I don't want to brake his heart he
is the important one here not me or my feelings for Bella just him.
.
(APOV)
"Bella
I have something to talk to you about", no that will never work. I
might as well just wing it and hope she understands and hears me
out. How
did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.
(APOV)
"Bella" I yell at her as she arrives at the house with Edward, "yes Alice" she replied with that look in her eyes that I love so much, but it is always for Edward not for me. "can I talk to you" "alone" I add in my mind, but Edward has already see what I am about to do and doesn't want to leave us alone "I'm not going to take her away from you" I think in my mind so Edward can hear, "ok, see you guys later" he said adding in a whisper so only I could hear "I'll be watching you" and he turned and walked away.
How
did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.
I think I
know.
I think I know.
(APOV)
"Bella there is something I've been meaning to tell you for awhile now and I - I don't know how to say…." I trailed off of my sentence because she was looking straight into my eyes for the first time since she has seen Edward in all his shining glory, "yes Alice, you where saying" she said encouragingly "I cant really say it…… how about I show you instead" I said and I swear if I could have blushed I would have, I heard a growling in the distance "down Edward" Bella had heard him, how could she have heard him he was like a mile away. "How did you…" I trailed off again, "you have to be the weirdest human I have ever known" I said "no, I just knew he would follow us is all" she said with a smile on her face.
There
is something I see in you.
It might kill me.
I want it to be
true.
(APOV)
I couldn't take it anymore I leaned forward and was inches away from her face and her soft smooth human lips when, she leaned forward and kissed me before I could even get closer to her. It felt so good so right to be kissing her.
(BPOV)
I couldn't take it anymore she was taking so long to say something or just kiss me already when I saw her start to lean in to kiss me I could do nothing but be the first to make contact with her lips, we kissed for awhile then I realised that I had to breath before I fainted, I pushed away from Alice my face was probably as red as a beet but I didn't care I had just kissed Alice the one I had been in from the start and I realised that I never truly loved Edward…
