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Well... this is my FIRST everr fanfic so i'l be very excited to hear what everyone thinks of it! XD

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Warning:there are a few quotes from the books so just bear that in mind :P

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Disclaimer: As much as I LOVE twilight and it's characters... i don't own them. XDD

Edward.or.Jacob

I stared uninterested out the window. I felt Edward's hand slip around my waist. His other hand gently brushed my cheek. His hands were as cold as stone, but smooth and gentle. I reacted to his touch, as always. I should be used to it by now, but his perfection charmed me over and over again.

"Are we okay?" he asked, his beautiful velvet voice catching my attention. I stared at him glumly, not really focusing on what he was saying. Suddenly, I realized he was talking to me.

"Yeah, I'm fine!" I stuttered. "I'm just a little worried what Jacob's up to these days." I admitted. Edward sighed, but pulled me closer to him.

"It's just that…well, Jacob is having a hard time. He's hurting right now. I feel like it's my fault, Edward. He's in pain." I flinched at the last word, but it was only the truth.

"Bella", he said softly, "You don't have to do this to yourself. You didn't do anything wrong. To see you like this hurts me as well, you know. If he's so important to you… maybe you should reconsider your decision." He reached down and kissed me on the forehead.

"No, Edward. This is what I want. You know that I can't live without you. Every time you leave for the shortest period of time I feel as if half of me wasn't here, that it'd been taken away… with you. My heart is no longer mine, it's yours." I remembered the time he'd left because he thought it was best for me. I was torn, wrecked, no longer human. It was as if my brain had stopped working, and every-time I thought of Edward it just made everything worse. I had to constantly hold myself to keep myself together; I was afraid… that maybe one-day I might have fallen apart.

Edward seemed to have read my thoughts.

"I will never forgive myself for leaving you, Bella. It was wrong of me, and I promise you it will never happen again. In fact, I don't think I'd be strong enough to live without you myself. But Bella, I'm not forcing you to do anything. If you're happy, I'm happy. Whatever you choose."

I rolled my eyes. I hated it when Edward was being like this. So understanding. It made me even guiltier to know that both of them really needed me, and I needed them too.

That reminded me of Jacob again. I thought back to the times we've had together, the bikes he's spent so much time and hard work on. The times we'd walked hand in hand along the beach, feeling so comfortable with each other's presence. But the image that stood out the most; his big, warm face as he laughed carelessly. It was the most natural thing in the world. I wasn't ready to lose him as a friend yet, and yet I don't think I ever will. He was my best friend, and even though he's changed a lot now, he still is, and nothing can change that.

I rested my head against Edward's smooth, hard chest. His face was expressionless; it was hard to tell what he was thinking.

"Edward", I breathed. "I love you. I don't think it's possible to express how much I love you but I expect you to know, and I'm not going anywhere without you. You know that." I reached up and kissed the side of his neck.

He sighed, and relaxed a little. "I know, Bella. But I know how much you care for him and I don't want you to be hurt, whatever you decide." He smiled crookedly, knowing that I couldn't resist it, but I still wasn't convinced.

Staring deeply into Edward's eyes, I suddenly realized that I didn't care about anything anymore. I remembered all those times he'd thoughtlessly risked his life to save mine, all the time not caring whether it killed him or not… as long as I was safe. I felt tears well up in my eyes. How could I ever repay Edward. He has given me so much, I was positive no one in this world was luckier than me to have this beautiful, caring, loving, unselfish and trustworthy friend who was always there for me, and protected me against anything even slightly dangerous. I felt my heart beat steadily increase as he held me with those warm, caring eyes. I remembered what Jacob had told me about imprinting. "It isn't the world holding you up anymore, it's her." He'd said. As I continued to look stare at Edward, I realized that that's exactly how I felt.

Edward. The only person I wanted to be with. For the rest of eternity. Forever.

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