Here is the first entry of my new collection of Naruto drabbles. I really wanted to write a lot without worrying about how long it would have to be and everything, so I decided to start this collection. The couples will be of the following; ShikaTema, SakuNaru, and SasuSaku. There might be a possibility of other ones, but those are the main ones. Enjoy.
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto.
Swing Set
-SasuSaku-
He was probably the most complicated man I'd ever liked in my life. Well, actually I think he was the only guy I ever liked. There was just no one else like him… that's what made him so special to me. And I know that I could never stop liking him even though there's been many a day when I wish that my feelings would just stop and spare me the pain.
He has many sides to him. Most of the time, he stays in his usual 'cold' mood where he doesn't care about anything around him expect for being the best and killing his brother. I always feared this side of him, though I tried to hide my fear the best I could.
For some reason, I always thought that maybe if I tried hard enough that I could reach out to him and help him. I was always wrong. Any time I tried I got the usual 'shut up Sakura' or the infamous cold look. On rare occasions, he would resort to hitting me.
I never minded… if it made him feel better, then he could hit me if he wanted. But I don't think that he ever really wanted to… I should have realized sooner that he just didn't want me around. I could have spared myself so much pain… physically and emotionally, but I couldn't stop.
I couldn't stop because somewhere inside me, there was always hope for change. I always kept hoping that someday Sasuke will realize that I was there for him all along.
That time never came of course. My heart was shattered into I don't know how many pieces the day that he left. There was nothing I could do… nothing I could do to stop him. And it killed me to see him go.
I still believe that my soul died that day, but my body lived on. Things got easier over time, and daily functions started becoming routine again. However, something snapped inside of me that day and I tried my hardest to make sure that I never got hurt like that again.
After that things got easier, and I could go on in life without problem. I helped around anytime that I could and I made becoming a medical-nin my top priority in life. It was the only way I knew to make sure that nobody else got hurt in my life. If Naruto ever came back from a mission beaten and bruised, I could actually help him instead of sitting around waiting for him to get back on his feet.
I just wanted a purpose and I wanted a reason to keep on going in life after Sasuke left. My usually hope filled life was brought to an abrupt end, so there had to be something else for me to hold on to. I found my purpose through healing and helping other people, and that's all I needed.
Despite my comeback, I found myself thinking about him a lot. I couldn't help it. Sometimes, I would take a day off from training to become a medical-nin and go out to the waterfall near our village for some peace and quiet. I wanted to get away from everything else in this life to think about Sasuke.
I thought about all of our adventures together. I thought about the good and the bad times. I still remember the day he left. I still remember trying to stop Naruto and Sasuke from fighting. I can't help but laugh at how young and naïve I was back then. I should have realized earlier that he didn't need me. He was perfect, and perfectly fine without me.
I often wondered if he ever thought about me, if he ever got lonely. I doubted it, but still it was a nice thought… I can imagine him looking out at the stars and thinking about me. I know that in reality that he never would, but still… I couldn't help but day dream about it.
Sasuke took me through a lot of places in my life. When he pushed me away, I felt like I was worthless. I went through a lot of lows because of him, but the times that he smiled… my god, he had the most gorgeous smile I'd ever seen. The times that he was happy because of a successful mission or something was going good for him, I felt my heart soaring with happiness.
I knew in my heart that I would never get over him. If he ever came back, despite how well that I'm recovering.. I would fall in love with him all over again. I knew that once again my heart would be broken again in a vicious cycle that would never stop. He was like a swing set to me in that fact that I went through highs and lows rapidly all because of him.
But he's my swing set, one that I couldn't ever get off of.
I really liked the idea for this one. At first it was Naruto instead of Sasuke, but I couldn't make that work without making it extremely OOC, which is the hardest part about writing for Naruto for me. Anyway, I hope you liked it and leave me a review if you'd like.
