Just a friend….

She greets me with a smile and winks in my direction

I wave at her friendly for my own protection

Because she can't ever know what its is I truly feel

I've tried so hard to let it go but her rejection I couldn't deal

I hurt her so much in the past and sometimes I wonder how

I decided so suddenly she was the one why this time why now

It hurts me to see her smile at him and kiss him full of passion

When all she ever does with me is talk of him books and fashion

But I cant let her know how this jealousy burns inside my heart

Or how every time she goes to leave it kills me for us to be apart

But I put on a brave face and smile at him as he goes and walk by her side

It gets harder every single day trying to conceal these feelings I cant hide

So I ask how he is and what they got planned tonight

She smiles as she talks of him it should be me but no that's not right

We tried it once and it was all in vain

Our love caused so much deceit and pain

But I can't help wishing it was me who made her eyes so bright

I can't help wondering if it's me on her mind at night

And no matter how hard I try

A love like this I can't let pass me by

So I'll tell her the truth and tell no lies

But the sight that greets me I can't believe my eyes

They're sat on the bed in a loving embrace

His hands in her hair as he softly kisses her face

I back away from her door and walk down the street

I can't believe what I just saw but I wont admit defeat

Because she and I are meant to be and my heart will mend

But until that day three words are said to me I'll settle being just a friend