After So Long Has Anything Changed

I walked in slowly not knowing what to expect-I always expected something. It's always so mysterious when I go home to a house what's shrouded in darkness. I sighed in relief but hidden sorrow as I turned on the light to find myself standing in this lonely deserted empty hallway. It's been like this since my mum died.

I closed the door behind me, Stopping the draft and darkness from creeping in any farther torturing my already cold and shattered heart. I flung my bag of at the wall, slipping my shoes of. I took my time going up the stairs, trailing my hand along it remembering about her-she always looked after me since my mum died. I missed her, she captured my heart but I never told her. And then she was gone I should of told Shizuru how I felt. I scowled myself as I flopped backwards onto my bed with a few tears already filling up my eyes.

I curled up into a ball just wishing I could die or at least see her one more time, so I could confess my feelings to her. Tears were slowly running down my cheeks, dripping onto the blanket soaking it lightly. I closed my eyes letting the darkness consume my sorrowful self again as I drifted off to sleep.

I dreamt o her then suddenly I shot up out of my bed, the light burning my eyes as I tried to see. I collapsed back onto my bed to try and get rid of the major headache that the sun and standing cause me. "Shizuru." I said lowly to myself: Picturing her shimmering golden brown hair; her crimson red eyes; her beautiful face and her perfect figure.

I slowly got out of my bed trying to think of what I had to do today. I went to the bathroom, stripping down; stepping into the shower. I stood there for a while letting the water cleanse my face of any residue of tears from last night. I thought back to when we were all in school; I miss all of that... I sighed as I returned to reality to face the world and its many tortures again.

After I had my shower I walked back to my room drip... drip... drip. I listened to the drips for a little. I stopped myself from remembering anymore memories, it hurt too much. It was so painful and unbearable, sometimes I just wanted to die and be rid of it. All I wanted to do was turn back time and confess my feelings to Shizuru-my life would be so different with her in it.

I git changed, drying my hair and brushing it back so I could tie it up out of the way so no oil would get in it. I looked at the time, it said 10:30. My mouth dropped and my eyes grew wide looking at the clock. I ran out of my house as fast as I could, swinging my leg over my bike, starting the engine, speeding away down the road to my work.

I crept in slowly, hoping Nao wouldn't catch me coming in late. Splash! I was soaking wet, "Now what's this little wet pup, hmm?" I turned round glaring at her, she smirked at me, "I'm sorry Nao but who owns this business again? And I slept in." "Sure sure, whatever. You left me with those two knuckleheads though." She pointed at two men working on bikes.

"Your vice president Nao, grow up. I sauntered of to my office with Nao following me eugh she's such a pain sometimes. I sat down in my office seat as Nao slid onto my desk with a sly smirk on her face. "What is it?" "I don't know what you mean Natsuki." Her smirk grew wider, "Stop messing around and tell me what you've done, I know that smirk to well." She pouted at me as there was a knock on the door.

I looked at Nao suspiciously then nodded at toward the door for her to open it; she hopped of my desk slowly opening the door to reveal a medium tall woman with light brown hair, shimmering in what light there was. I leaned forward on my desk to get a closer inspection of the woman, my heart started beating rapidly. SHIZURU! It's her I knew it and so did my heart.

She walked in slowly but gracefully, a tall man with black hair followed her into my chest, my heart sank slowly but kept beating fast. Is she married? No it can't be...Was I truly this later? So many things flew through my mind while I stared at the man. I calmed myself down and got up holding my hand out to Shizuru greeting her-ignoring the tall man behind her.

"Nice to see you again Shizuru, anything I can do to help?" She smiled at me then turned to the man behind her, "Reito its ok they're old friends of mine, they won't harm me." The man called Reito grunted at Shizuru and left the room. Shizuru turned and faced me again. "Well I got a one week vacation so I thought I come back and meet up with a few people." Nao slipped out of the door as I leant against my desk a few blushes crossing my face.

"How come Shizuru?" She just kept smiling at me getting a full observation of my body, "Well you're a person who's incredibly special to me and it's been about one maybe two years since I've seen you." My heart thumped heavily against my chest as my face grew redder. I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL! Went screaming of in my head. "Thank you Shizuru." I smiled at her holding back so many emotions at this stage, "Do you want to go to lunch tomorrow Natsuki, my treat."

My head was nodding before I got a chance to process what she said and she was already heading out the door. As the door closed my heart sank again and I used my desk to support me as my legs were like jelly. I walked around the desk, sinking into my seat as Nao came walking into my office without knocking. "So what did the witch want, hmm Natsuki?" I looked up at her with an expressionless face, "Oh, umm nothing just a friendly drop by was all." She looked at me questioningly knowing I was hiding something but let me of with it.

"Go back to work Nao." She gave me evils while turning to leave my office, "Oh aye, you're in charge at lunch tomorrow or maybe longer." She groaned as she slammed the door, clearly unhappy about it. I relaxed into my seat trying to get control of the explosion of emotions; Love, anger, sorrow and regret were drowning me at this point.

I closed my eyes, raising my hands to my temples and rubbing them trying to think clearly and think everything through. Too much was happening at once for me to cope with. But I got my chance to confess to Shizuru...But would I?

A/N: Heck I wrote that up in school, I was in one of my moods again so I just had to plus its fun letting out emotions in stories LOL. Well hope you like it, I'll get a second chapter up as soon as I can get the plot for it, haha takes some time for it. Please review