The life he's given me
Disclaimer- I don't own H2o or its characters
Note- This is a poem
Enjoy
Pushed to the ground
Beaten in the rain
insulted
Forced to live in a broken trailer
This is my life
There was no need to question this way of living
I clearly deserve it
A Kohinata can't be loved
Only hated
Hated worse then any criminal
For my crimes are worse then any murder or rape
The lives of many are on my hands
For the sins of my father
Friends
Yea right
That's something I'm not allowed to have
I was friends with a princess once
She now now hates me
She's one step above the high horse
She may not beat me
But she still calls me roach
I don't care anymore
I'd rather be hated now
Why want something I'll never have
Its better this way
Or so I thought
There was this new student today
and I've never met an odder person in my life
For one he's blind
He was nice to me
called me chan
Did he not know who I am
Maybe he didn't care
The more I spent time with him
the more crazier he seemed
He defended me when there wasn't enough food
I had to save him
In a rage I threw the remaining food on the floor
Its better if they just beat me a little
Sure enough I ran into him again
He wanted some of my ramen
He's just so cute and handsome
Whats this
Why am I thinking these things
There's no way he'll return these feelings
I'm evil
Scum
A roach
I gave him one bite
He really enjoyed it
Justice was swift
They came with one purposes
To pound me
But that fool tried to protect me again
I told him not to get involved with me and I followed them
To receive my punishment
After that I dragged myself home
With that foolish boy on my mind
I ran into him the next day
Somehow... he can see
the more time I send with him
The more stupid he acts
He asked me to hang out with his friends
He must be... really stupid
I refused
He wouldn't have fun with me around
Unable to persuade me he went on
Whats his problem anyway
The only time I really can relax
Is when I bath in the pond
It may be ice cold
But there is a certain relaxation with cold water
I can't imagine using hot water to relax
But this time I would have a surprise
That foolish boy again
Was he watching me take a bath
He saw my body
he must of thought, 'wow, she's ugly'
My face red as roses
I had to send a message
I tied him to a tree
Acted like I was gonna hurt him
I guess I was angry
But I couldn't hurt him
I can't hurt anyone
When I swiped the knife
I aimed for the rope
I stared at him blankly
'why are you here' I asked
'I came to see the monster' he replied
My eyes widened
Why did it hurt so much
I thought I shielded myself from this
This feeling
I fed him again,
This was it
I had to make him hate me
He had to accept how things are
'No good will come of being near me' I told him
'I don't see it that way, at least I got this tasty food'
my cooking... tasty
I can't see what his deal is
Why does he do this
Does he not know
He could lose his life
Is he brain dead
or maybe... he doesn't care
'brings us closer to being friends' he says
Flashbacks ran though my head
When I had a friend
A friend who betrayed me
I never want to feel like that again
To think I'm a person
Just to find what I really am
'I don't need friends.' I reply, 'Stay away from me. Its better this way'
I start to go to bed
'why?' he asked, 'why does everyone hate you? Its not fair!'
Is it fair... that I took so much life
'its... better if I'm hated.'
I followed him as he left
The princess was waiting for him
She's been wanting him for a while
And she's prettier then me
I'm sure he'll fall for her
And forget about me
Things will get back to normal
But... what is this feeling
Why am I so angry
'you must stay away from Kohinata-san!' she cried
This was it
I had to face the truth
Roaches can't be loved
I hate him
Why did he send me on this trip
I never want to see him again
he probably hates me anyway
His false kindness
Hurts worse then the smacks of the high horse
Oddly enough I slept like a rock
I slept so good I rolled off of my bed
'are you okay?'
I didn't realize I was awake
'yea, it doesn't hurt' I replied
'soy sauce or salty, which would you like?"
I should of known who it was
and I shouldn't of been surprised
"cup ramen? We shouldn't have such special...'
I bolted and saw him
idiot
'morning Hayami-chan'
My cheeks flushed
Red as roses
What was he doing here
'I told you to stay away' I groaned
We both know what I thought
He was creeping on me
He had to
'Hayami-chan, its not like that. I wanted to make sure you've eaten before you went to school.'
Either he was sent to hurt me and was doing it well
Or... he just that sweet and he was trying to capture my heart
Either way
I was pissed
'the roaches have multiplied' the others laughed
The princess got angry
I don't understand him
Whats his deal with me
Why me
The princess is prettier
Sweeter
And she deserves him more
I couldn't handle this
we had a science project in class
we was allowed to have parnters
by now I realized this wasen't gonna be a normal day
sure enough...
the dummy wanted to work with me
when the princess wanted to work with him
He wanted a tiro
me him and the princess
that... baka
The class was in an uproar
'why do you pair the special one with that roach?' the high horse cried
This had to be the end of this stunt
He would agree
And everything would go back to normal
'Yui-chan, there is no roach here.' he replied
Once again
He defended me
But this time...
they was gonna kill him for it
His stubbornness laughed in the face of there hate
stupid, brain dead, foolish moron
'I've worn out my welcome.' I say and I walk out
'Tabata-san, why don't you have fun with me?'
I knew that would enrage her
That followed me for another beating
When is he gonna learn
The hard smack was a familiar feeling
I pounded hard against the ground
'you're too full of yourself for a roach.' the high horse exclaimed
she gave the order
and water was dumped on me
It smelled really bad
I realized that...
It was toilet water
any pride I had left me instantly
And makes us closer to becoming friends
Why
Why does he words ring though my head now
He's finally learned his lesson
He's no longer chasing-
'Hayami-chan!'
There's no...
I heard a sliding noise and there he was
soil like eyes full of determination
'No!' I cried, "Stay away, don't get mixed up with me. I-"
"Shut up!" the high horse cried and kicked me
He didn't listen
He never listens
'Hirose, if you touch her. You'll be a roach too.'
I look up at him
Debating what I want
safety
or beatings
I think back to that friend
Who betrayed me
That fire
When my life completely changed
Would it change again
I bury my face in the ground
I... want saftey
Can you give that to me... Hirose
'Hirose, i'm warning you. Touching her will make you like her' The high horse warned
'she's covered in toilet water!' a follower cried
'Yuck! Disgusting!' cried another
I heard gasp
and I felt his arms around me
I still can't believe it
He held me
'Hayami-chan isn't filth!' he cried taking in my stench
'Hirose, let go...'
I didn't want that
I wanted to stay in his arms
I didn't know why he was going this
I didn't care anymore
Maybe... I can be loved
Maybe Hirose will be that man
Who will sweep me away
and heal the scars
on my broken heart
'He's a roach!' They called him
'Roach Hirose' they chanted
'wait.' The princess came rushing in
As much as I didn't want to see her
she saved us
'I'll keep him away from the roach' she swore
But sure enough
Hirose walked me home
'you really are stupid'
I had to try one last time
To make him stay away
I... was starting to love him
I didn't want to see him hurt
'you have to say sorry to Yui tomorrow.' I said, 'and don't do anything next time'
'you're still saying that to me?' he asked, 'come, take my hand'
I couldn't resist the temptation
his hand was like a calling from Heaven
reaching for me
I stretched out and touched his hand
so soft and warm
A feeling I've never felt before
We completed the project together
This time a had a feeling of happiness
As we worked I felt more comfortable
is this what it means... to feel safe
I reached to help him, I was inches from his face
faces burning like fire
This must be love
and it felts perfectly
'a new wind is gonna create change' I exclaimed
Probably a lie
But if he wants to protect me
Then I can want to love him
Hirose... thank you
