A/N: after watching funeral tonight, this idea pops out of my head. Sorry in advance for killing of you know who. But this is a kind of spin-off going towards Finn's way. I thought it would be nice to redeem Finn's 'Rachel' obsessed character in 'Prom my version'. Hope you all like it. Cheers! X Rose

Inspired a little by my friend Matthew, love you mate! Shall see you again one day! I can now remember you and just smile at the memories!

Disclaimer: I don't own glee, but I've heard so many people wishing they did ;) ehehe much love to you guys :D


A Love Lost and Found

"I love you Rachel!" the love of my life whispered in my ear as he nuzzled my neck with his face, his usual way of saying goodbye to me, leaving a bit mark just behind my ear, so only he could find it next time we were together. Apparently it was to be after he had picked up something special.

He had been very vague about it all. Even though I had tried to prise it out of him a million times already, but his lips were sealed. Even my puppy dog eyes and sexy smile couldn't even get it out of him this time.

I sighed as I knew I had to wait when he was ready to spill his beans to me, and HE ALWAYS SPILT THE BEANS TO ME NO MATTER WHAT IT WAS. He couldn't help share EVERYTHING with me; we were each other's inspiration.

"I love you too" he said to me before he started to walked across the road, turning around slightly to blow me a kiss that I pretended to catch. In that moment a car turned the corner and came bustling straight for him.

I gasped as I saw the look on his face, it wasn't a look that meant that he was scared of dying, but the look that said that he loved me so much and everything was going to be okay. I was going to be okay.

The breath was soccer punched out of me, as a loud scream evaporated out of my lungs and into the air, "Nooooo! Jesse!" I yelled as the car impacted against him like he was nothing at all. It stopped for a second to go around him, while it screeched its tires to make a fast getaway.

"No No NO! This could not be happening! Not to my all perfect Jesse St James, who did wrong, but redeemed himself by helping us win Nationals! Not the Jesse that I had dreamt a whole lot of possibilities with! No no no! Not the Jesse who was going to move to New York so I could attend the greatest college I had dreamed about all my life. No this way not happening'

But it was. I ran towards him, knowing that he was already gone. The car had been going way too fast to have left him alive. My phone was dialling nine-one-one, and somehow I had managed to make the phone call, and they were sending someone out immediately! No no no! you are too late!

I cradled his head to my chest. Tears streaming down in buckets, I no longer had control of myself, howls of desperation and loss streamed out of me. 'No no no' I wailed into the air, as I held his lifeless body. 'Not my man! Not my perfect man! He was... Oh god why?'

The sirens of the ambulance were bustling close by, almost too where we were situated by the sounds of its sirens going off. 'You're too late' I whispered to myself. 'You are too late' I kept whispering as they pulled me gently away from his body, but I couldn't leave him.

"Make room please miss" they tried once again, but the way his legs and body parts were sitting, everyone could already tell that the young man that I didn't want to be apart from, was high up into the air and gone like yesterday's wind.

"No. No NO! You can't have him!" I yelled at them! "No no no!" I kept yelling at them. Already accepting that he was gone for good, and not just in California visiting some college mates, or visiting his parents at which ever place they were, he was gone.


I watched from the window as they placed a cover over his face. It was too surreal to be happening; my guy was just here a moment ago. I shook my head slowly, as I watched the nurses and doctors stream out of the room. Deeming him dead, which duh, she had already known from the way the car had hit him way too fast, the way his body had flown up in the air like he weighed nothing, and falling to the ground like a rag doll, his body had fallen in such a way that said it all.

Jesse 'perfect' St James was gone. I remembered the last moments, when he had looked at me, knowing full well that it was the end for him. And he had even managed to give me a look of hope and inspiration. I walked towards the closed door and gently opened it, not caring by the sounds of the nurses who tried to protest, but another nurse just shook her head for the lady to stop in her tracts. I nodded to her, and she gave me a slight smile, like she knew just how I felt.

"Jesse, well you always like to go out in a bang!" a voice came at me from behind. It came without remorse or sadness, but just a knowing look like he didn't deserve to die, but was kind of relieved that he was. I felt a shiver run over me. Stephanie St James.

She looked a little like him, except her curls were longer and more darker than his, her skin tanned like she had been working under the sun for such a long time. This was the 'Teph' that Jesse had described to a tee.


"What importance do you seek here?" She asked me coldly, like I didn't have a right to be in the same room as them. Like I was some sort of rag that was hovering around her brother.

"R-Rachel Berry, his girlfriend" I stammered at her coldness, feeling slightly out of place, wishing she would disappear so she could say her final goodbye to him alone.

"Ah so your THAT girlfriend huh? The one that turned his heart of stone into..?" she purposely left the air cold. "Putty?" she said to me in amusement, she definitely showed signs of the old Jesse St James, who was so cocky and confident, he didn't care who he squashed or hurt in the process of his game of cat and mouse. A mannerism that ran in the family, apparently, it made me feel so awful, and now brought the way he was full circle. I was NOT looking forward to meeting his parent, and I knew it was going to come up soon.

"What are you even doing here?" I asked curiously. She hadn't seen Jesse for almost four years now. And even when she was in town, it was to cause some sort of freak out in the St James house hold. Apparently she left destruction where ever she went. This WAS NOT a good sign.

"What is it to you?" she smiled riley at me, thoughts going through her mind like a house on fire. The look that I had seen in Jesse's face a million times. "Family only time" she smirked at me, knowing fair well that I had every right to be there to say my final goodbyes to him. 'She wanted me out of here.' I thought to myself sadly.


"She can stay as long as she wants to Stephanie" there uncle said to her crossly, putting a stop to her smirk, and replacing it with a scold. "She has every right to be here, and as for you. WHAT are YOU doing here?" he asked her coldly, letting me see the St James air about him, which sounded so out of place, even though he was a St James himself. He was always sweet and cheerful, and it had rubbed off onto Jesse.

"It's okay Jimmy. She has a right to be here too" I said softly, letting Jaime St James bring me tightly in to one of his famous hugs that Jesse and I loved so much. It always felt like home. I was glad that Jesse had spent a lot of time with his uncle; his father had never had enough time for him. Though showing that he was proud of his accomplishments with Vocal Adrenaline (which brought on the heartlessness of his two younger siblings) he preferred not to take an active role in their lives.

"No it's not okay at all Rachel. You watched everything happen to him, from the last seconds of his life. You more than deserve to be here that any of us does" he said sadly, both wishing that they were talking about something else. Something heart-warming like they always did when I was over at their place.

"Stop with all this crap, Jimmy" she said with such coldness, that I saw Jimmy's knuckles turn white with rage.

"Have respect for your dead brother and the one who showed him how to really love"

"Spare me that nonsense. You're making Jesse sound like a god or something" she cackled with laughter. "You know what the real him was like?" she said with such nastiness, that my hand suddenly found its way towards her cheeks. It stunned us all in to silence. She took flight then, leaving the two of us reeling with anger, and relieved that she had gone.

"I'm sorry you had to witness Stephanie. She had always been jealous of Jesse and the pride that their father doesn't hide. It's sad really, the coldness that my brother taught them to be. Their mother is always at some day spar. Jesse changed the moment he met you!" he place an arm around me then and kissed me lightly on my forehead.

"Where are Jesse's parent's?" I was curious to know if they had even heard of the news yet.

"Well yeah I left a message with Jarrod's secretary and Alina's personal assistant. They'll get back to me as soon as possible I guess" he said with doubt lingering in the air, not so sure if they would even attempt to come or not. "I will organise the funeral for next week and wait for their response before I confirm the exact day" he walked over to Jesse, and hugged the boy to him tightly, surely feeling the coldness that was radiating off him, kissing him, with tears now falling down his cheeks, murmuring words of sorrow and pain.

I walked out of the room, leaving uncle and nephew to say their goodbyes. It was such a sad display, knowing how much they had loved and respected each other. He had taught him to be a real man, and how to treat people. He had opened Jesse's heart in more ways that they could explain. Jaime and Katherine couldn't have kids, so he felt like he had one in Jesse and also in me.

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'Sorry to hear about Jesse' a familiar number she hadn't seen grace her phone for such a long time.

'Thanks Finn. Appreciate it' I texted back to the boy, happy to know that bygones be bygones, and Finn had finally accepted that she and Jesse were in love. Had been in love she thought sadly.

'Want me to come around?' he asked her with hope. He kicked himself mentally in the groin. Of course she was going to say no! He felt like a complete douche bag. She would probably prefer someone like Kurt, Blaine or Mercedes to come to her aid.

'Do you mind picking me up and taking me far away from here?' I text back to him, rather glad that he had offered her his company. I felt a tinge of guilt, like she was running into the arms of her ex-lover's arms. My loves mortal enemy, his foe. I regretted sending the message now.

I walked out of the hospital and down by the trees that hid me from the hospital. I knew I was hiding from Jaime. I admitted that I didn't want him seeing me getting into my ex-boyfriends truck. I wouldn't want to see me, getting into his truck either.


Ten minutes later, Finn arrived. I signal him to where I stood in my hiding spot.

"Geez Rachel, you would think you were hiding" he joked to me, and I was rather amused that he caught on to me so easily, like he always did.

"Yeah something like that" I respond quickly, too quickly that said that he was right on the ball. He nodded and I buckle my belt and he drives out of the hospital parking lot.

"Where too?" he asked me, I had no clue where to go. Moment's ago she had been with Jesse, and now? I felt so lost that I closed my eyes, willing that I was actually in Jesse's car, going to some unknown destination. Jesse always liked to surprise her with something unique and out of the blue. She would miss his unpredicatbleness.

Tears stream down my face before I know it, and I feel the car come to a crawl and stop by the side f the road. Arms come around me, bringing me into a cuddle, letting me run my tears away.

"Sorry" I said apologetically, I didn't want to be crying in my ex-boyfriend's car. It felt wrong in a million different ways.