This is the first Haruhi oneshot I've done in a while, so I might be a little rusty. But still, please review! :) I'm really getting back into the swing of writing.
Written But Never Received
Dear Haruhi,
You've been keeping me alive, all this time. I should probably thank you for that, but if I did then you'd hit me over the head with an angry expression and say, "Kyon, you idiot! I can't believe it took this long for you to say that!"
And trust me, your smacks hurt. A lot.
As a Brigade Chief I am actually shocked that you don't treat me worse. Sure, it would be nice if you treated me with a tiny bit more delicacy, but what can I say? At least you don't dress me up in maid outfits.
I could've died a number of times: the time when Asakura tried to kill me (although I supposed in that situation, Nagato was the one who came to my rescue); the time when we were trapped in that Closed Space, cut off from everyone else; when I went to the parallel universe on December 18th and I woke up after a long coma due to your will for me to live; the Endless August when you helped me out with my homework and saved us all from being trapped in that reoccurring loop forever, and so much more.
I am truly grateful, Haruhi, and I'm sorry I can't always do the same for you. I'm forever making you angry and pissed off, but the truth is I enjoy having you around. I love spending time with everyone. Especially you, Haruhi. I love being with you.
I can't believe I'm writing this. How stupid am I? I honestly thought that I was going to give this to you, then I realised the mistake I'd made. I can't ever let you read this letter, in fear that the world would end should you find out the truth. I know that I'm with Nagato now, but I wouldn't feel good if I didn't thank you for it.
You were so strong, too. I didn't realise that you loved me until I'd already fallen for Nagato, and when we confessed you were brilliant. You didn't cry, and you didn't storm off in a rage. You just stood there, silent and strong, smiling. Your eyes were shiny with tears but I can honestly say you didn't shed a single teardrop in front of me. You were so brave, more brave than I could ever be.
I used to think that you were selfish and bratty and truth behold you used to be, but since that day you've been nothing but a credit to us all. You're such an amazing person, Haruhi. More amazing to me than you are to yourself.
We don't have much longer at North High, so I'm really going to feel lonely once you leave us behind to study abroad like you wanted to. I really do love having you around, Haruhi. The days are getting colder, so I know that I'm really going to be alone soon. But I still hope that we can remain close friends after we part.
Where am I going to go, damn it? Nagato and Koizumi are going to college somewhere in Osaka, Asahina is returning back to her own time, and you're studying in Germany. I still haven't decided where to go. I'll probably go wherever Taniguchi and Kunikida are, to make my parents happy. But I still don't have a clue.
Even now, I know that it's too late to make things okay for real, but I still just want you to know that you are keeping me alive. So thank you. Thank you for everything you've done for me.
From yours truly,
Kyon.
Whew! That was short =( Please review!
