SQ SUMMER WEEK 2016 – DAY 1 : Confession.
Hi everyone!
So this is my first sq one-shot and my first participation to the sq week so let's say that i'm really nervous about this lol. Still, i do hope you will all enjoy this! Also, english is not my first language so i apologize for any mistakes you may find.
the characters are not mine, of course!
prompt : After Killian and Robin's death, Regina and Emma stick together to get through the loss. Soon, something more than friendship grows between them, forcing them to be brave enough to admit just how much they care about each other.
Regina Mills was a complicated woman, to say the least. One thing probably everyone knew about her was that she didn't love easily. It took her ages to truly open up her heart to Robin and when he died, she had built even higher walls around her heart. She was determined to remain alone and never let anyone love her again.
But that was without counting on Emma Swan.
It all started a few hours after she had to kill Killian.
A few weeks before...
Lying on her couch, Emma was looking at her roof, her thoughts lost to the man she cared so much about. The man she had to kill in order to save the whole town. She barely registered Regina's presence close to her before she gently kneeled next to the blond and took her hand, letting her presence be known
« Emma ? I... do you hear me ? »
But Emma couldn't answer. She couldn't move, or even find any way to let her know that she heard her. She was in shock, and all she could do was stay there and listen.
« I just... I don't even know why i am here to be honest. But there is something you need to know. It gets... better with time. You learn to live with it. The guilt, the sadness... I'm truly sorry you have to go through this and even if it doesn't feel like it right now, you will get better. »
With that said, Regina got up, tears in her eyes. She glanced one last time at Emma and turned around to leave her house and give her space to mourn. As she opened the door, she heard a faint whisper, barely audible, « thank you. »
After that, when Emma realised that she had a chance to bring back her love, they all went to the Underworld to help her where so many things happened.
Unfortunately, it was too late to save Killian. He had been dead for too long which prevented Emma from splitting her heart in two.
So they came back.
Without him.
Leaving Emma completely broken all over again.
But she wasn't the only one who was broken now.
Only a few hours after they came back, Robin and herself had decided to go get his daughter back. Was it fate ? Or was it karma ? Regina didn't know. All she knew was that one minute before the man she loved was holding his daughter in his arms reassuring her that everything would be fine and the second he was jumping in front of her, sacrificing his life to protect hers.
When the funerals came, she almost broke all her resolves and let the evilqueen come back.
She almost did.
But then she saw Emma. The blond was in the back of Granny's, probably trying to hide from her, eaten by her guilt. After all, if she hadn't gone to the Underworld Hades would have never been in Storybrooke and would have never have killed Robin. But Regina knew better.
Emma couldn't have known that Hades would be such an awful person, she couldn't have known that he was in love with her sister. And finally she couldn't have guessed that he would try to kill her and Robin to have Storybrooke all to himself and Zelena. How was she supposed to blame her when she cared so much about her ? The answer was simple : she couldn't. When did she begin to care that much? With that realisation in mind, she got up and went to see her. When she got closer to Emma, she could see how nervous she looked and how hard she was trying not to run away. Her sight stubbornly blocked on her glass from the moment she realized that Regina was coming to talk to her.
Emma ?
Regina, i... i'm... i'm so sorry about Robin...i don't...
let's... let's not talk about that for now, please ? I had enough people telling me how sorry they were for me when all i want to do is scream at them that it won't bring him back so let's... talk about something else... she answered.
Okay, Emma answered with the hint of a smile on her lips.
How... How did you find those pages... to defeat Hades ?...
Killian... i don't know how, but he found a way to send them to me from the underworld and... her voice cracked, and then he moved on...
Regina's heart felt for the woman. She, too, lost many people she loved and the Regina knew all too well how hard it still is. You don't get used to it. It wasn't the conversation of the year, but both of them knew that it meant a lot for their relationship. For the first time, they didn't blame each other for anything, they trusted one another and they knew that they could go through this. Together.
From this day on, they spent every morning together at Granny's with a simple cup of coffee. Both unable to sleep, they decided that it was better to share a few words with a friend and some coffee rather than crying alone in their bed. It wasn't always just them not wanting to be alone. They had come to truly enjoy each other's company. Sometimes, they just shared a laugh about Henry's growing relationship with Violet, some other times all they did was look at the sight in front of them, lost in their own thoughts.
But since everything is always more complicated than it has to be, after a while, their daily breakfast together became more important to both of them than it probably should have been. They started to open up to one another and realize just how much they had in common. When they started to miss each other during the day, it was already too late. They tried to deny it, as much as they could, but soon enough, they had to face the truth. Emma was the first one to realise what was actually happening. When she started to think about Regina at every chance she got, when she started to see just how beautiful and sexy she was, she knew she was doomed.
They both had sexual encounters with women before, so there wasn't any trouble in admitting to each other how beautiful they were. The problem came when they had to put a name on their relationship. They kept calling themselves « friends » but it didn't felt right to either of them. Love had left it's mark on the both of them, may it be someone who broke their heart, or the loss of the people they loved... neither of them wanted to fall in love once again. And yet, they did.
Emma was the first to admit her feelings to Regina. It was a monday. In december. When she got the words out, she expected basically any reactions from Regina, except for the one she had. The brunette just got up and left Granny's. Without so much of a goodbye or even a look.
Nothing.
After that, she even avoided her for two weeks. They felt miserable, realizing that they maybe needed each other more than they cared to admit which was both a good and bad realization. And when Regina finally started to talk to her again, she did her best never to mention it. She just texted Emma one day, out of the blue, to inform her that she would be meeting her the next day for their morning coffee. The savior was too grateful to have to woman she loved close to her to dare to bring her confession of love back, but she couldn't help feeling her heart beat faster everytime she saw her.
Soon, their feelings for each other became harder and harder to hide and all it took was a bit too much of wine for them to end up in bed together. They tried to stay friends, too scared to commit to a relationship and what the consequences would be. But they couldn't keep their hands off each other, and when the tension became impossible to ignore, they started sleeping together.
That was weeks ago. Regina mills wasn't one to love easily. But when she kissed Emma, when her hands couldn't stop touching every parts of her body that she could reach, when she looked into her eyes as she was giving her as much pleasure as she could until she was coming undone for her, she couln't deny the feeling inside her belly. Love. She loved her. God, she loved her so much ! When she first realized, she wanted to stop seeing her completely but she quickly knew that with Henry and Storybrooke being as small as it was, she couldn't have such a luck. And then she remembered Emma's confession, she knew the savior shared her feelings so she decided that she had to tell her. She owed her that much.
Emma was holding her in her arms one night after hours of love making when she turned around. At first, she wasn't sure if she wanted to say it now, or wait. She wanted it to be everything they would hope for. For Emma, for herself. But when she saw the look of utter love and devotion in Emma's eyes, she knew the perfect moment was now. So she gattered her courage, cleared her throat and opened her mouth.
Emma there's... there's something i need to tell you...
what ? Answered Emma, somehow anxious
i love you... i know it's probably early and i know you feel it t...
She was stopped by Emma lips on her, giving her everything she was also feeling in a reasurring kiss.
i love you too Regina... i'm so completely, entirely and passionately in love with you ! And you better not get used to hear me say things like this because that's not who i am but i just... i love you.
Oh, don't worry, that's not who i am either... but i never got the chance to tell Robin how i felt about him and i needed to tell you... if anythings happens to you i needed you to know... that i love you...
Don't you worry for a second your majesty i will never leave your side.
Then Emma took Regina in her arms and they spent more time cuddling and kissing in bed.
That day started the rest of their lives as a family. It wasn't perfect, but nothing ever is. But was them, and if you asked anyone in town, it was true and it was all that mattered.
