A/N this is just a brief one shot to emphasize the dynamics at play in Soubi's heart, I guess… this is how I'd imagine Ritsuka's first real order to take place. Please R & R!
I supressed a pained sigh after checking the cell phone. My lovely Ritsuka hadn't called or messaged for a couple of hours now. I longed to wait for him outside the school gate, but Ritsuka would get angry. I loved the crimson of his cheeks when he was furious with me, but I would not take the chance of being ordered to leave him. Then again, he never really did order… he merely asked angrily.
BAM!
I started when the door slammed shut.
"Ritsuka?"
"Soubi, why are you here?" I got up silently, trying to make sense of his heated glare.
"Did something happen?" I asked, unable to resist stroking his jet black ears. They fascinated me to no small extent even now. Perhaps because they still reminded me so painfully of Seimei.
"Nothing happened. Why are you here? I said I wanted to make memories with my friends today."
It was an immense struggle for me to not feel disappointed. I disliked it when he was away from me. How could I protect him if I am not always with him?
"Did your friends make you angry?"
"Soubi!" His beautiful ears pulled flat against his head when he shouted. Ritsuka truly was the most interesting Sacrifice I'd ever met. I had to work not to chuckle, but it was impossible to keep from smirking ever so slightly. That blush when he was yelling…
"I love you, Ritsuka," I murmured. As usual, this did not improve the furious child's mood.
"Stop that! I said I did not want to hear that," his eyes sparkled with a kind of eternal sorrow that made me feel helpless. He loved and hated those words from me equally. He couldn't have been more different from Seimei. More childlike, more alive… vibrant. Ritsuka was the only one who did not seem to notice that about himself. He was the one person he could even manage to draw a sincere smile from Seimei himself.
"Soubi, you're a liar! Go away, I don't want to see you today."
It took all of the restraint Seimei and Ritsu had punished into my body to not protest his order.
"Ritsuka will get lonely…" I smiled, hoping to soften his mood. No such luck.
"Soubi, you say you'll obey my orders… this is an order. You will go home and stay there for the rest of the day. You will not call or message me. Go home, now," he growled ferociously at me. It reminded me a lot of a lion cub trying to roar. Even though his order made my heart clench in pain, at the same time I felt better than I had since… since Seimei's death. Was that an order? The way Seimei would speak?
"Why are you grinning like that?" Ritsuka demanded. How demanding my beloved sacrifice could be. His fury seemed to evaporate ever so slightly at my involuntary smile.
"Ritsuka, was that an order?"
For a moment – a brief, beautiful moment – we stood in absolute silence. Blood crept into his fiery cheeks when he registered the reason for my smile. He had truly given me an order.
"Ritsuka…" I said, giving him a light kiss on the lips. As usual, he froze until I pulled back. The action hurt more than I ever expected it to.
"I love you, my Ritsuka," I smiled when I stepped outside, closing the door as quietly as possible. My step seemed lighter; filled with a purpose I had not so long ago lost.
A purpose given to me by my Ritsuka.
