Just a poem. I have been reading Kai/Rei fanfiction and thinking about the difficulties faced when someone who had been dreadfully used childhood started a relationship with someone who hadn't.
And you find yourself wondering how much you can trust that person and even if you want to.
I know that it is a bit rushed and I haven't written for a while (and it has a dodgey AB rhyme sceme)

Please be gentle.

Dirty Secrets

If I told you everything I'd been through Would you look at me the same?
Would you think of me as dirty…
Fraught with scars that still remain.

If I told you the things I've seen,
The sickening places I have been;
If I told you the things I've done And all of it so very young...

Would you hate me if you knew The suffering I've caused others too?
Smiling, then hurting the easily abused;
Leaving them dirty, pathetic, and used.

If I slipped, let you know why It seems so rich for me to die,
Would you hate what I would say?
Would you leave me? Run far away?

Then tell me honestly, if you will,
Would it even give you a thrill?
To leave me afterwards bare, confused.
Alone on the floor as you watch amused.

So I say nothing, scowl it away, When you ask me sweetly if I'm ok.
Because I fear what you would do,
If I'm forced to reveal what I keep from you.