NO WAY I CAN LEAVE HER
"Then you're as good as gone, aren't you?"
I didn't know that my heart could hurt so much. Those few words make my stomach lurch, and the look on her face nearly makes me cry.
Remember, I'm Han Solo and I don't cry about anything. Not since Dewlanna's death, anyway, and that was a long time ago.
The problem is, my life's been changed. Irreversibly so. And it's all because of the woman standing in front of me. Dressed in deep red and pure white, her hair styled in braids, her beauty both takes my breath away and gives me a reason to get it back. She's tough as they come but there's a vulnerability about her that makes me want to protect her from anything that could harm her.
I fell in love with her, say, about thirty minutes after I met her. I remember casually asking Luke, whaddya think, a princess and a guy like me, he said no, way too fast. I could tell that he saw it, and it bugged him. That made me smile.
The hard part was getting her to see it.
I'm supposed to have been long gone by now. I've got a death mark on my head and every bounty hunter in the galaxy is just waiting to haul me back to Jabba for the sort of credits I could retire on. But Hoth fell under attack and getting Leia to her transport proved impossible. The Falcon's hyperdrive completely failed and it took us several weeks just to get to Bespin, where we are now.
According to my old friend Lando Calrissian, the ship's nearly ready and we'll be on our way. Leia's expressed her concerns as to the whereabouts of C3PO, The Most Annoying Droid In The Universe. I told her not to worry, but fact is, I'm worried myself. She doesn't trust Lando. I don't trust him, either, but we didn't have a lot of options as to where to find a safe port. I wasn't sure it was a good idea, but there was a nice byproduct.
Leia and I finally admitted we had feelings for each other, and we settled into a new relationship. You know, the sort where you start learning about each other, you share meals and you talk a lot and your physical relationship develops.
I've been in relationships with women in the past; I'm no virgin. But with Leia, it's so different than anything I've experienced before. I never understood the expression 'making love.' Now I do. It's not just sex. It's communication at a whole other level.
She's an incredible woman, the best thing that's ever happened to me.
Screw the bounty hunters.
No way can I leave her. Not now. Not ever. I have a decision to make, and I've made it.
"I'm not going anywhere, sweetheart."
