She is me
She can't remember what happened in her past. All she remembers are 2 things from kindergarten. Her bff building chains across the room with her and fighting over which plastic horse we got. That's it; the rest is just a mystery to her. All she remembers is now. And now she doesn't want to remember. It's painful and hurts her both physically and mentally. Her story starts with a bully. Ever since 4th grade, (only remembers this cuz she looked in a year book and remembered that the bully started bulling her ever since she came to her school) it was so peaceful, so happy, good friends, good teachers, and a good life. Until she came, the bully (name will not be stated.)
She picked her and stuck with her; she separated her from her friends, kept her to herself, said horrible things, and was a bad influence on her. But she was blinded. She was fooled. And this caused much pain for her later. She did so with her friends to. Her friends hated her because of what this bully did. And soon the bully would target her bff. And she would go through so much pain from that day forward. Her and her bff went through some tough times but nothing like this. She stole her bff away, she made her think and say bad things about me, and soon her bff became a bully too.
Soon it was 6th grade and she couldn't handle this anymore. Her awesome teacher helped her in this situation; however it was a harsh price to pay. She was split from her friend, and they got in a big fight that lasted a whole summer and a few days. But she had said some harsh things out of anger and apologized for it, the fight was no more, and her bff never hung out with the bully again. Those were harsh times and you would think this is a happy ending but the scars never went away. Later when her and her bff were finally 7th graders she got herself a boyfriend, for a little bit, only to find out that he would break up with her. And this gave her a scar that would never go away for as long as she lived.
She has felt suicidal many times; she is tired of being tired. She is tired of living when all she goes through is pain, she can never see the happy things or point them out; except for the instant they last and then fade away so quickly. Not only is she bipolar but has many tears and scars in her heart (figure of speech not literally.) She plays 4 sports but doesn't think she is good at them, doing so many sports makes her ache and bruise, she has sore muscles, and now just found out she has a disease, that hurts her ankles and heel. She doesn't know how much longer she can hold out, but she will keep on pushing through for as long as she can, just to look forward to that one instant of happiness. She is me.
