Sometimes, I wonder.

I wonder what it would have been like to have a family. A father and a mother, parents who love me just because I'm me. I wonder what it would have been like to be told to do my chores, instead of doing them because I lived alone. I wonder about having siblings. Brothers or sisters or both, older or younger. I wonder what it would have felt like to play games with them, instead of sitting at the edge of the park watching other families play.

Sometimes, I wonder.

I wonder how it would have felt to be a student. To have teachers who didn't hate me, who taught me and didn't taunt me. I wonder what it would have been like to have been taught how to read and write, instead of having to struggle with the simplest of words. I wonder about being welcomed in class. I wonder how it would have felt to be able to ask questions without fear, to be able to learn instead of being laughed at.

Sometimes, I wonder.

I wonder how it would feel to be human. Instead of a demon's container, a demon's prison. I wonder how it would feel to run out of charka, instead of always having more. I wonder what it would feel like to be tired or winded, instead of recovering in seconds. I wonder how it would feel to have scars, instead of having wounds that heal within minutes. I wonder how it would feel to break a bone, instead of being able to walk again after a night's rest.

Sometimes, I wonder.

But then, I realize that none of that matters. I had no parents, so I raised myself. I couldn't play, so I played pranks. I wasn't taught, so I taught myself. I couldn't learn, so I learned by doing.

I am not human, but I will protect those who are.

After all, that's the Hokage's job.