Maura groaned as she heard the annoying buzzing of her alarms clock. She reached out and hit the snooze button then pulled the covers back over her head and sighed.
Not today. Please go away. She was to trapped in her thoughts she didn't hear the two people enter her room.
"Dr Isles?" came the first voice. Maura quickly pulled down the blanket to see Frost and Korsak standing on either side of her bed.
"What are you two doing here?" she asked as she slowly sat up.
"You asked us to come and get you. I take it you're not ready" Korsak said looking at her bed hair and pyjama's. Maura shook her head.
"No I'm not. Can you give me twenty minutes?" she said throwing back the blanket and standing up. Both Korsak and Frost nodded.
"Sure, we'll wait in the living room" Frost said as he left Maura's bedroom, followed by Korsak.
Today was one that neither of them wanted to encounter. Maura's reluctance at getting ready proved that she of all people didn't want to go.
Maura eventually came out from her bedroom in a slim black dress and matching heels.
"Do you think Jane will like it?" she asked softy. Korsak and Frost both looked at her and nodded.
"I'm sure she would. Come on we're going to be late" Korsak said getting up from the couch. Korsak drove the three of them to the church where many people were still gathered out the front. Maura's grip tightened on her purse. Frost got out of the car first, leaving Korsak to talk to Maura.
"Maura" he said a soothing voice. Maura turned her face to Korsak.
"You don't have to do anything you don't want to" Korsak told her. Maura shook her head.
"I'm fine. I want to do this" she said with a soft smile. Korsak nodded and got out of the car. He went around to Maura's side and helped her out. She took his arm and he led them into the church. She sat down next to Angela and Frank Rizzoli. They each gave her a gentle hug before she took her final seat. As the rest of the church filled with people, Maua started to get nervous. Her legs started to bounce up and down. Angela reached over and placed a hand on Maura's knee. Maura looked over at Angela's soft eyes.
"Are you going to be alright?" she asked. Maura tried to give her best smile.
"I've done speeches before. How are you?" Maura asked placing her hand on top of Angela's. She took a deep breath.
"I'm not supposed to be here. It should be me in there" Angela said as her tears started again. Maura squeezed her hand and took a calming breath. Her attention went to the front of the church and the priest that now approached the stand to start the service. Maura couldn't hear what the priest was saying as she was too caught up in her own thoughts.
"Now a few words from Maura Isles" the priest said. Maura didn't move.
"Maura, honey". Maura turned her head with hope in her eyes, which soon disappeared as she saw Angela instead of the person she loves. Maura nodded her head and slowly got up to stand where the priest was. She cleared her throat and stood in front of the microphone.
"Jane Rizzoli" she paused and looked to her right. She was dreading this day. Until this day nothing seemed real. And now that she was up here speaking these words, everything was now clear to her.
"Jane Rizzoli was my best friend. She was my…my" she paused trying to keep the tears at bay. She hadn't shed a tear since she had been told, but now they all wanted to fall at the same time.
"Jane was the first person I have ever loved" she continued. She looked over at Angela, Frank and Frankie who all gave her a soft smile.
"I have never met a stronger or stubborn woman as Jane and I loved her because of that" she took another deep breath. She did the mistake of looking back to her right and saw the framed picture of Jane. Her heart broke and she couldn't hide it.
"I'm sorry" Maura said as she ran from the front of the church, up the aisle and out the front of the church. Angela quickly got up from her seat and ran after her. She found Maura crying on the front step. She got down and wrapped her arms around her shoulders.
"Maura" came that voice again. Maura kept crying.
"Maura, sweetie, wake up". Maura opened her eyes to see Jane's worried face above her, lamp light lighting her up like an angel. Maura looked around the room. Then she realised what had happened.
"Oh god" she said placing her hands over her face, crying again.
"Hey, it's ok. I'm right here" Jane said as she urged Maura up into her lap. Maura complied, wrapped her arms around Janes neck.
"I'm sorry" Maura cried. Jane ran small circles over Maura's back.
"It's ok. I know" Jane said soothingly. Maura pulled back.
"It just won't stop" she said. She closed her eyes.
"It's always the same. I'm at your funeral and I can never finish my speech" Maura explains. Jane pulls her closer.
"It's ok. I'm sorry I did this to you Maur. I wish I could take it all back" Jane said kissing her head. Maura shook her head.
"I don't blame you for this Jane. I will never blame you for this" Maura said kissing her neck.
"Want to try and get some sleep?" Jane asked. Maura paused before nodding slowly.
"If you hold me" she said softly. Jane kissed her head and gently laid Maura down and covered them back up with the blanket. Jane let go of Maura to turn off the light.
"Jane" Maura quickly said grabbing for Jane.
"It's ok, I just have to turn the light off" she told her. She then wrapped her arms around Maura and kissed her cheek.
"I love you Maur" Jane whispered. Maura snuggled closer to Jane.
"I love you so much" she replied.
There will be another chapter. Keep your eyes open
