Disclaimer : I don't own Twilight Saga , propery of S. Meyer

*** This is a Sam/Bella story

*** Use of language and adult content

NOT MY CHOICE

Ch 1

Sam Uley had and still has a life full of shit starting from when his father Joshua abandoned him and his mother when he was a little boy and he needed his father more than ever.

He was jealous of anyone who had a dad that took them to school , came to football practice and had a dad on Father's Day.

He was bitter to those children who complained about being smothered by their parents , he only wished he has a family that smothered him with love and concern , instead he got a deadbeat father and an alcoholic mother. He was raised by the tribe and it seems only fair now that he's defending the tribe.

He was never given a choice , the tribe gave him the food , the clothes and a small allowance that supplied school materials , so he never got to have what the other children had.

It was in his freshman year that he met a gorgeous girl , that was slightly shy , but at the same time the most outspoken , she was in his class and her name was Leah Clearwater.

He liked her a lot , she was tall for a girl , slim with raven hair that seems to flow down her back and eyes that pierced your soul.

He thought he'll never got a chance with her , she was one of the Elder's daughters and he was just a kid that lived on the rez , that had nothing to offer her. He was surprised when she was the one to ask him on a date and she was the first girl he went out with , his first kiss , his first time , etc.

He was surprised and overjoyed when her family accepted him and treated him like family , Sue and Harry Clearwater were like his parents and Leah's younger brother Seth looked up to him something he thought will never happen to him. Sam was truly blessed to have a family , the love of his life and vowed to achieve something to make them proud of him and worthy of Lee-Lee , but of course nothing ever lasts in Sam's life , his fairytale life went down the drain when one day he fought Leah and went all furry on her ass. He was lucky she wasn't close , Leah was freaked and started screaming bloody murder , till Harry came out of the house with his hunting rifle and froze at the site that awaited him on his back-yard . Harry figured out that the big beast was Sam and ordered Leah to go bring him clothes and call the Elders.

Later , the Elders explained everything to Sam about the legends and his role as a Protector of La Push , as he could never leave the rez , because he had a duty to full-file.

Sam was pissed that his dreams shattered and had to dismiss his scholarship to UW , he worked so hard and now here he was a dog/wolf , whatever , because some fucking vampires decided to set home in their territory.

What the fuck was Ephraim Black thinking when he made a treaty with the vampires ?

Actually , why is not Jacob Black a wolf instead of him , from what the Elders told him Black is the true Alpha , he was just the second in command , like always he was never god enough to be first , he was just a temporary replacement. Fuck you Taka Aki for granting me this gift.

Being the only wolf patrolling the rez was boring , but he was getting used to this ''awesome'' gift bestowed by the ancestors , when he went to visit Leah (whom he hadn't spoken lately , due to him being dangerous) and his world came once again crashing down , as a raven girl opened the door and he felt like gravity was not holding him on Earth , instead was her that tied him with steel cables to her. He felt elated , confused and disgusted with himself for thinking lovey-dovey thoughts about another girl that wasn't Leah , who right then came bounding down the stairs and introduced him to Her , Emily Young who was Leah's cousin. He heard about her she was all Leah talked about she was the one she considered a sister , fuck my life. He couldn't keep his eyes of her , afraid she might disappear , he felt very possessive of the girl.

Leah looked at him and motioned him outside were she started laying on him for being a deceitful prick that not only avoided her for weeks , but now was looking at her cousin with a mixture of love and lust , when she was in the same room.

He tried to explain that he doesn't want to , but something happened and Emily is very important to him. She started crying , hitting him and broke up with him , calling him a monster and a cheater. He was extremely hurt by her words , Leah might seem a little evil , but she has a great heart and is very forgiving , so he must have hurt her a lot for her to say those words that stabbed him in the heart.

He was sorry and had no clue what to do with his feelings for the girl , as he still loves his Lee-Lee.

He decided to talk to the Elders and see if they can help him figure why he has such strong feeling for a girl that he just met.

Emily's name was playing in his head like a mantra that left him feeling chained and without a choice.