Changement (Change)
Le Prologue (Prologue)
"Ugh!" Korra took a hit from a fire whiplash… again.
It had been four years since Kuvira devastated Republic City and four years since she started doubting her abilities as the Avatar. Doubt in her abilities that would not even compare to the doubt she felt when Zaheer infused poison in her.
"Get up, Korra!" Mako yelled, making her stand up only to take a hit from lightning.
"I'm so pathetic. I can't even bend back lightning while Aang managed when he went up against Ozai." She felt like her response was so automatic and for her, it should had been a pleasure since she still managed to stand but it did the opposite when Mako prepared for another attack and she thought was a whiplash until he somersaulted then kicked to launch a linear fire that sent her flying hard to the wall.
"I'm so pathetic…" The blast apparently was too strong and ended up knocking Korra with a bleeding head.
"Korra!"
~ Time skip ~
"Korra, what's wrong with you?" Asami asked her fiancé as she continued to wipe the bloodstains on her head, "You've been like this for awhile now. Talk to me." She knew that talking to her was the right thing to do but she just could not bring herself to say it.
"It's just work, no need to worry." Korra tried to give her a lopsided grin but ended up being tight lipped, making Asami frown.
"No, Korra, tell me what's wrong because recently, I feel like I don't even know you anymore." As much as Asami tried to lessen her worry, it only grew more when Korra's eyes looked lifeless and when Korra smiled darkly, it only dampened her mood. Korra was not her Korra at all and to her, even if it took all her willpower not to just delve in and love all her lover's problems away, she had, no, she needed to know why she acted the way she did.
"Asami, promise you won't laugh at me." The statement broke Asami's heart. The normally confident and headstrong brunette doubted herself so much; however, Asami could only give her a meek smile because there was so little she can do, "Sure."
Korra nodded back in affirmation and took a deep breath, "I feel like I'm useless –" Asami wanted to butt in but Korra put a hand on her thigh, "Don't even disagree. Hell, YOU even fight better than I do!" Korra didn't want it to sound harsh but she was being overrun by emotions and the only logical way for her to let it out was 'lashing' at Asami, "I just feel so pathetic in comparison with you guys…"
"Korra…"
"It's just, look at Aang and the rest of my past lives, they can kick butt without even having anyone's help and whenever I do try, I always ended up getting my ass kicked. With Amon, you and Mako had to help me, with Vaatu, Jinora arrived, with Zaheer, I can't say I managed to beat him because I didn't, not without your help and Kuvira, spirits know that I barely beat her." By now, it took Korra everything in her to not be a pool of tears.
"Korra, you're not pathetic, you're strong –"
"That's what you ALL say, look at me, I'm the most pathetic Avatar history knew and even Toph said so!" Korra's eyes were mixture of anger and sadness but managed to soften when they saw the look of hurt in Asami's eyes, "I'm sorry, I didn't –"
The raven haired goddess only hugged Korra and let out a weak smile, "I'm sorry that you feel that way." She wanted to say more but what can she say to a broken girl who spoke of a strong truth?
Korra returned the hug, albeit glad that Asami was there for her; however, it did not remove the huge doubt she had in her abilities and started deciphering whether to leave her beloved once more to train or to stay.
"Asami…" Loss in her own thoughts, both women not hearing the glass in the infirmary break.
A/N: Alright, Lol is here!
Okay, so I may have gone into a lonnnnnnnnggggg hiatus but don't hate me, school was hectic and I've been traveling a lot, lol.
Also, I'm not sure if I'll continue Book 5 anymore because eh… I kinda wanna re-write it.
Lastly, I'll be referencing to other Animes from this point on since to create an OC would be tedious task for me unless someone's able to do art for lil' ol' me.
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Infinity High! Move on!
~kaizer20
