A/N: Hey guys first Twilight fic hope u like it!!! Also, I don't own Twilight never have, never will...sadly :( I Hope Stephenie Meyer has fun in all her glory!!!! lol Have fun guys!! :P
"Bella, Please don't leave. I'm begging you." He had the most pained and agonized look on his face. He was pleading with me not to leave. He was telling me he never even thought about cheating, nor would he do it. "All I have ever wanted is you ,Bella. All I will ever want is you." He waited to get his voice under control again. He waited for the uncontrollable sobs to stop. Most of all he was waiting for me to run back into his arms, crush myself to him, and tell him I forgave his sorry ass. I wasn't doing that he would have his whole miserable life to get over it, to get over me.
"Why, Edward? Why should I stay? Getting married means you are dedicated to that ONE person for life. You don't cheat on that person! Ever."
I slammed the door in his face. The tears that were forming started to fall. I couldn't seem to walk any farther than the end of the hall. I fell to the ground, wrapping my arms around my body, hoping I could hold everything in. How could I hold everything in when it seemed to be coming out all at once.
What could I do without Edward. My Edward. I couldn't do anything. I couldn't function without that man by my side. It was impossible to go on living my life, pretending everything was going to be okay. When I knew it wouldn't be. My world was already starting to fall apart. I couldn't put all the pieces together by myself. I never could. Someone was always there to help me.
I kept telling myself it would be fine. I could do this. I was a big girl. I didn't need him. Everything would be okay. Then my sobs turned into loud, noisy, panting, breaths. Which turned into me lying on the ground huddled with my knees to my chest, hyperventilating. What was I thinking? I couldn't do this on my own.
I tried to pull myself up off the floor, dragging myself back to the only place I knew, the only place right for me. The wall the only thing holding my fragile body up as stumbled back to our apartment door.
I didn't knock, I just walked in. I looked around waiting for Edward to be there on the couch. He wasn't. I walked upstairs. I found him in the bedroom, laying on his side, holding his stomach. I'm sure he looked similar to what I had. He looked perfect though. I could never look that good. Even in the worst situations he could still look gorgeous.
I crawled into the bed, and he didn't move. I moved closer to him, and wrapped my arms around him.
"I'm sorry." , was all I could manage before the tears started to fall again. He turned around to face me.
"I didn't do it, Bella, I promise, I swear." He wiped away the tears that had fallen from my red, swollen eyes. "I would never do that to you. Don't you trust me?" He ran his hand through my tangled hair. " I love you, with all my heart, and nothing will ever change that."
"I'm so sorry. I just…I mean the message…on the machine. I thought that maybe you did. Then when you told me you were going out. I'm just so sorry! I should have believed you."
The tears started flowing harder. I snuggled up to his body, and started sobbing into his chest. He pulled me closer, and squeezed me tight.
"It's okay, love. I just want you to know I could never love anyone else more than I love you. My heart is forever yours. It will always be." He kissed the top of my head, and rubbed circles on my back, trying to make me calm down. Soon enough I was in a deep sleep. I was in my happy place, Edward was holding me in our meadow.
When I woke up I felt around the bed waiting to feel Edward's soft, muscled skin. I was disappointed when all I felt was Egyptian cotton. I was in no mood to move, but I figured I should probably make sure he was okay. After all, I almost left him last night. I couldn't believe I had put him through this much pain.
I felt horrible which made me want to cry even more. I'm sure it was physically impossible for anyone to cry that much, and still be able to produce more tears. Apparently I was capable because the tears started flowing harder and harder until literal sobs started shaking my body, and I was huddled in the middle of the bed trying to hold myself together with my arm clutched around my middle.
I shivered when I felt strong arms wrap around my waist. I could feel his chin resting on my shoulder. I could feel his hot breath tickling my ear. I could also feel the deep hollow pit in my stomach aching with every touch or feel that came from Edward's body. It felt wrong after what I had done to him. I knew that all I did was accuse him, and that I was probably making way too big of a deal out of it. Because I knew he would forgive me in a second. But, it didn't feel like that, it felt like I left him there without anyone. I felt like I had betrayed him. I felt I didn't deserve to be with such a wonderful man as Edward Cullen.
"Edward, I'm so sorry! Will you please forgive me? I can understand if you can't, and I know I'm being very selfish, but can you please take me back I promise I will never doubt you ever. I'll do anything to be with you." I was begging him to take me back, which probably sounded ridiculous but I couldn't stand being without him for one minute knowing that he was free to the world. Knowing that any woman other than myself could have him, hurt so bad! Again I started to sob.
Slowly, but gently he turned me over to look into his beautiful eyes and said, "Bella, you know I love you. I never want to be with anyone else, and I can't stand to see you in this much pain. I forgive you. You've always been forgiven. You didn't do anything wrong. So please, love, stop crying." He started to wipe away my tears when I grabbed his hand in mine and laced my fingers with his. I held his hand to my face, and breathed his wonderful scent.
"I love you, Edward Cullen. You are too good to me." I smiled at him. He kissed my forehead, and pulled me close.
"Oh, Bella, you will never understand how wonderful it feels to hold you in my arms, and know that you will forever be mine." He whispered into my ear as he held me tight. "I understand exactly what you mean." I thought to myself, but it came out as "I love you."
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